is it the time?

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't post anything, and now I wanna share something that really clouding up in my head since 2 days ago.

Well, I broke up with my boyfriend. He dumped me. That's the worst thing. Aaaand I can't get over him :'D I love him more than much, more than him. I love him more than i love myself.

Being together with him for over 10 months is the greatest gift that God had planned me to heal my broken heart (read my post on july-sept 2010..what a shame). He's more than a boyfriend that everyone could ever imagine. He's my bestfriend, my father, my brother, my son, and he meant everything to me. Losing him feels like half of my breath were taken away.

And now I'm a bit stressed out, because I've never imagine how my life would be without him. Now I'm in this situation so yea, I'm screwed. I lost 6 pounds. I never wanna eat since then. Well not necessary, just 5 spoons of rice and stuffs then I go back to bed. I listened to all of my sadsong in my BigMac and sing it out loud like nobody noticed me.

I just hope everything will be back to normal. Ughh I hate myself! Okay....I need to be alone now, gbye!


Toodles! ,
Risha