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Hey all!

Duh ada yg batu bgt ya masih aja kemaren sms2 gue minta ketemuan terus minta maaf hahaa males abis ketemuan sama lo alesannya apa coba? Mau nyelesaiin masalah buset bukannya udh selesai dari dulu banget ya?

Btw gue udah suka dong sama orang hehehe orangnya baiiiik banget ga ngerokok ga minum2 rajin solat terus gapernah macem2 deh ga tengil sama cewe....ya ampun suka banget gue bukan aja hehe mana katanya nih ya denger2 dia suka sama gue dari kelas 1 semester 1 :$ tapi gatau juga sih jadi apa engga hehe

Ya intinya gue sekarang udah bisa lah nikmatin masa sma yang seru bebas larangan, lagian gue udh tau kok si f udh ngapain aja sama cewenya buset belom sebulanan udh parah bgt ya hahahaha mana sekarang dia ancur bgt lagi untung udh masa lalu gue

Udah ya mau busy...busy bbman hehehehe:p





Toodles! ,
Risha

sorry, but no!

Hey alllll

Masa yaaaa tadi siang temennya si fuck-iz nyapa gue gitu lalala ngobrol2 lah katanya dia masih suka kepo tentang gue, liat2 contact gue dari bb temennya terus tau2 aja tentang si anak 3 dan si binus....yaelah urusan lo gitu?

Ngapain amet masih kepoin kehidupan gue ya Allah gue aja udh gatau apa2 tentang hidup lo, gue aja kaget lo masih idup sekarang hahahaa canda

Kata lo apa? Cinta 2 hati? Buseeeet berat banget yeee bahasa lu ogah gue balikan sama cowo brengsek kayak lo. Cowo kayak lo tuh....banyak....BANGET!!!!!!! Demi Allah banyak hahahahaha

Terus saingan gue siapa? Si yul? Dih NAJESSSSSS ga banget saingan gue dia hhahahaa siapa jugaaaa yang masih ngarep? Ya mau tau ajasiiiih gue udh suka sama org lain, terus urusan lo tuh apa ya?

Bilangnya masih sayang sama gue haahaha sayang tuh artinya mempertahankan apa yang dipunya, bukan laper mata! Ah jelek bgt sih kelakuan lo gatel bgt hahaha sorry to say but I'm moving on!

Doakan saja semogaaaa gue bisa hidup lebih bahagia sama orang yang gue suka AMIN! Udeh lah gausah nyari2 tau tentang gue, oke? Gausah kenal lagi malah kalo perlu! Enek gue sama lo weeeeey dimana lo pada saat gue ngarepin lo? Dimana lo pada saat gue nangis karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue sakit2 karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue kangen sama lo? Di pelukan si uli jabs kan?

Ah cowo kayak lo mah gitu, kehilangan fans langsung kalang kabut. Ga deh, makasih bgt udh cukup kenal sama lo, ga lagi2 deh sama lo maap ye bos udah telat bgt ini mangkanya kalo mutusin gue tuh mikir, SIAPA YANG AKAN GALAU PADA AKHIRNYA!




Toodles! ,
Risha

sedih aja

Menyukai seseorang yang baru, bukan berarti melupakan yang lama.
Berhenti menangisinya, bukan berarti berhenti menyayanginya.
Berbahagia dengan hidup gue, bukan berarti berbahagia di hati kecil gue.
Mendorongnya untuk pergi dari kehidupan gue, bukan berarti membencinya....melainkan membunuh perasaan gue.
Berbohong kepada orang lain tentang perasaan gue, bukan berarti gue sepenuhnya bahagia

Terluka...itu yang gue rasain. Buat apa tadi nelfon gue? Buat apa bbm nanya kabar gue? Buat apa ngablu ngomong "kangen risha"? Apa cuma membuat gue yang udah berjalan jauh untuk nengok ke belakang lagi?

Tolong jangan ganggu kehidupan yang udah gue mulai bangun pelan2 dengan cara gue sendiri. Ga mudah ngebangun rongsokan menjadi emas. Gue emang udah suka sama orang lain, tapi bukan berarti gue ngelupain semua tentang lo. Semua kenangan yang terus menghantui gue sampe sekarang. Emang kelemahan gue cuma 1...susah buat ngelupainm sesuatu yang berarti banget buat gue. Lo bisa dengan mudah nunjukin "nih gue bisa banget tanpa lo" tapi gue ga kaya gitu, karena emang gue ga mudah buat kayak gitu

Mungkin emang ini kali ya. Mungkin Allah emang udah ngasih jalan kita masing2. Lo ngejalaninnya dengan yang baru, gue berusaha sendirian tanpa bantuan. Itu menunjukkan kalo gue lebih kuat daripada lo. Karena gue bisa ngebangun ini semua tanpa "seseorang". Mungkin emang lo sekarang lagi bahagia lagi segala2nya. Tapi selalu ingat, roda itu terus berputar begitu juga dengan kehidupan. Ga selamanya lo ada di atas, kalo ga jalan ke bawah namanya lo udah mati karena roda kehidupan lo ga berputar.

Allah sayang sama gue. Dia nunjukin kalo lo ga akan pernah menjadi yang terbaik buat gue. Selamat menjalani kehidupan kita masing2, gue tau ini berat banget buat gue...tapi gue tau gue pasti bisa. Gue pasti kuat kok tanpa lo, dan yang terpenting....please banget jangan pernah menyentuh kehidupan yang udah gue bangun tanpa lo.

Gue tuh capek sih nginget yang lalu2. Rasanya kayak lo ngebaca suatu buku keseringan dan udah tau endingnya bakal nyakitin, buat apa? Bosen kan bacanya? Yang bener cuma 1. Beli buku yang baru! Iya, lembaran gue sama lo udah gue simpen rapi di tempat lain, gue lagi memulai yang baru dan mencoba menjalani sama orang yang bakal sayang, setia, pengertian dan mengerti gue banget.

Bismillah....




Toodles! ,
Risha

angels cry - mariah carey ft ne-yo

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry




Toodles! ,
Risha

stalker FTW!

I just found out someone who stalked me! You bitch, why you wanna know bout my life? Don't you have your effin good life with your "dog" instead of lookin at mine? But its not you, ir :p sorry this one's for muhfuckin ex!

So, you told all of your friends if I still love you then you open up my blog to show em? Bitch, who the hell do you think you are?

Well...I used to love him but for this past few days I never ever think about him anymore. He's useless. So u just bbm me to asked how I was? Ha! I don't NEED your attention because I refused you to touch my life.

Okay, I still have feelings for you but just about ummm 45% percent! The rest belongs to....I dunno...maybe chucky? Orrrr maybe uhm...I dunno. Me and chucky are just friends. We always know that we can never be more than friends.

Well, all I have to say is : GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY WAY! You have no rights to ask how's my days so far because it makes me wanna drag you to hell. I just realized how stupid I was because of falling for an asshole like you! I know you've been cheated on me for more than once ha you bitch!

Everybody wants you to DIE! Because I've got lots of information even your BF didn't like you anymore, just eat your "slutty-dog" and fuck off! Don't you ever come back and try to mess up with my life!

I'm so happy with mine. I'm feeling much better without you in my life. Because you took EVERYTHING that I had! Aw shit....I hate you so much!




Toodles! ,
Risha

blushing :$

Tadi gue ketemuan sama gio di pohon ps kan. Dia mau ngasih aux gue yang ada di faiz gitu...pas ngasih gue kenal bgt tuh wanginya sama sepatunya gio eh gataunya bener punya faiz pantesan familiar bgt ampe gue nangis saking kangennya sama itu parfum HAHA labil....iyalah udh hampir setahun gue nyium wangi itu terus

Abis itu kan kita crita2 aja kaaan terus tuh tadinya faiz mau ikutan sama gio buat ketemu gue tapi faiz bilang "gi, risha udh gamau ketemu lagi sama gue ya?" Wkwk mungkin gara2 gue nolak temenan sama dia kali ya? Yakali dah temenan sama org yang masih gue sayang bgtbgt ntar galau lagi ngeliatin mereka pacaran.

Terusss gio cerita kan faiz semalem mabok joget2 gajelas bisa tuh gue ngebayangin dia lagi ngegila haha hmmm apa ya? Oiya kan katanya semalem gio ngedengerin vn happy birthdaynya dari cewe2 make aux gue di mobil faiz, pas bagian suara gue....

F: anjing galau gue dengerin ini suara, ngentot.
S: hahaha risha gue gebet ya? (Ini bercandaan)
F: Ga! Awas aja lo gue tampol!

Uuuu masih perduli aja ya sama gue. Masih aja nanya2in gue giliran gue udh mulai menghilang. Ternyata ada untungnya juga gue berusaha ngebunuh perasaan gue dengan cara menolak jadi temennya. Bismillah ya Allah semoga gue ga jatuh ke lubang yang sama . Amin.




Toodles! ,
Risha

curhadh

hey all!

now i'm listening to jar of hearts by christina perri while writing this shit. well its not some kind of shit, but this is the perfect place where i can express all of my feelings. i dont need an advice from everybody, i just wanna share it with everybody who read this post.

well, yesterday was 9 september. it used to be my anniversary with him. but there's no more anniversary, and at 29 september will be the day when the first time he greet me on msn. so funny back then, time flies so fast. i heard that he loves his girlfriend, thats good :)

ive been thinking about him all the time and it cost me a lot of pain. ive been trying so hard to get him outta my mind, well it works a little but still...it hurts a lot. i still love him, so much. i know he wont feel the same way so i just wanna bury all of my thoughts and feelings for him.

i dont want him back, but i just miss him around me. i just miss the way he loved me. but still, i dont want him back. i dont wanna feel the pain again, im so scared to open up my heart and fill it with new lover. its just not that easy, and i just dont wanna be in love anymore.

i just want him, i still need him even tho he's an asshole but believe me...he's just not that bad. he's a great kid. he's awesome, but still...he's the one that i never thought would hurt me, but he hurts me the most! he lied to me. thats the worst thing, i trusted him a lot.

but i never cried for him anymore..THANK GOD! i moved on with my life, i just realize that i have such a fucking good life. i just dont wanna move on to another hearts, because honestly he's the one that i really love the most.



i dont know what to say. sorry for all my twisted words.


ive got lots of things about him but i dont have any idea how to express it. im so fed up with my thoughts of him. im so fed up with waking up in the morning and find myself heartbroken, its still hurts until now. i just hate the fact that he still didnt want to tell the truth.


the most painful thing is....i still hold his hand in mine when im asleep. i can still feel his touch and his breath. i still remember the last time he looked me in the eye, gave me one last touch on my cheek. it felt really peaceful. and....


sorry, i cant continue this...


its too painful :(



toodles! ,
risha

labil

Mungkin cuma itu kata2 yang mendeskripsikan keadaan gue. Labil.

Sebentar bilang benci, cuma sekarang fix masih sayang. Banget. Parah. Mungkin semua emang jalannya, gue nyesel gue sering nyakitin orang yang bener bener gue sayang cuma gara2 emosi doang. Mungkin ini kali ya akibat kalo kita ga menghargai rasa sayang ke pacar sendiri.

Gue sakit hati dan kesel sama diri gue sendiri. Cuma gara2 ego doang bisa kayak gini. Sekarang apa? Dia udah sayang sama orang lain dan gue gabisa ngontact dia lagi karena pada dasarnya gue gamau ngeganggu dia lagi.

Gue sedih banget harus kehilangan orang yang bener2 gue gamau untuk ke 2xnya. Pertama radit, kedua faiz. Kalo radit mah emang babi, kalo faiz gue yang salah.

Parah gue kangen banget sama faiz. Lo pernah ga kangen banget sama org tapi tanpa sadar lo sampe keluar air mata saking kangennya sama orang lain? Mungkin engga. Tapi buat gue, ya itulah yang gue rasain sekarang.

Gue nyesel. Emang penyesalah selalu dateng pada akhirnya. Ga ada yang tau perasaan sama jalan pikiran orang. Mungkin emang pada dasarnya faiz udh ga sanggup sama sifat dan kelakuan gue. Gue tau dia sayang bgt dan selalu sabar ngadepin gue. Tapi balesan gue cuma nyakitin nyakitin dan nyakitin.

Gue cuma butuh mesin waktu doang. Gue pengen banget muter waktu dari bulan juni. Gue pengen memperbaiki semuanya, tapi gue tau itu ga mungkin. Yang bisa gue lakuin sekarang adalah belajar dari pengalaman.

Sumpah gue ngetik sambil keluar air mata hahaha dasar labil. Gue sedih banget nginget yang dulu2. Segimana sayangnya faiz sama gue. Emang bener ya, orang baru ngerasa betapa berartinya dia buat kita pas dia udh ga ada. Mungkin ini karma banget buat gue.

Udah 2 minggu lebih gue nangisin hal yang ga pasti. 4 hari lagi harusnya gue anniv 11 bulan. Gila, gue sayang banget sama faiz. Gue tau semua hal tentang dia 100% kecuali perasaan dia ke gue.

Dia udh males ketemu sama gue. Itu setau gue. Gila air mata gue ga brenti2. Gue kangen banget sama dia ga boong deh. Gue pengen ketemu terus ngobrol sama dia. Gue kangen banget parah.

Gue gabisa tidur semaleman mikirin dia. Gue kangen banget sama dia, akhirnya gue sms aja "I miss you" baru deh gue bisa tidur. Itupun jam 3 gue bisa tidur. Gue tiap hari begitu. Bangun tidur, masih nyesek. Mau tidur, nyesek lagi.

Gue masih sayang bgtbgtbgtbgtbgt sama faiz:(



Toodles! ,
Risha

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hey all! kemaren pas tgl 3 fun sekaliiii jadi gue vicky vania inong tuh ke salon jam 3an terus abis itu cabcus kan ke ps kita makan2 di bakerzin sambil foto2 gitu kan. yaudsss kita ngobrol2 aja kaya biasa abis itu tiba2 gio dateng wkwk malu2 dia ketemu inong huuu lucu ya kalo lagi jatuh cinta

terus hmm gue galau terus ya hmmmm adalah pokoknya mulai miring akal pikiran gue terus gue punya kaos john lennon kembaran sama gio!!!! cuma bedanya punya gue udh gue gunting2 sendiri wkwkwk terus apa ya? ya gitu deh ngobrol2 aja tapi kocak gituuuu

terus kan tadi ada gitu deh yang abis dari cibinong ngebut ke ps mau ketemuan doang wkwk gue tungguin aja tuh udh minta nomer gue terus sempet nelfon gitu kayanya pengen bgt ketemu tuh orang -_- abis itu pas ketemu udh kan nemenin gue beli softex wkwk terus ngobrol2 banyak ampe nyasar gituuu terus dia bilang "eh...kita kemana sih? aduh muter2 ya keasikan ngobrol sih" duh...blushing bgtttt

terus ya gue ngobrol banyak lah, this boy is pretty interesting. he likes to dance and he knows all of dance histories, choreographs, he knows a lot about fashion stuffs and where to buy the good and cheap ones but still original and....he complimented my shoes! he's pretty stylish and you'll never stop talking about art! thats the most amazing part ;) hampir sama kayak si R lah cuma lebih "normal"nya gitu

cukup menarik sih cuma jadi temen aja kan ;) oiya...get well soon papaku!!!!




toodles! ,
risha

meikanisme ({})

Kemaren gue jalan sama meikanisme :D seru bgt gue udah ga galau sama sekali sampe detik ini *cheers* ini gue mau ngasih lirik lagu yang sepertinya cocok sama situasi gue kemaren dimana mereka menghibur gue :')


[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can see The Pain
Don't Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What Y'all Don't Know About Him
Is that I Can't Let Him Go 'cause He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him, It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging Most Of The Time
But I Know Deep Inside He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?


[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Us To Help?
We Known Each Other Too Well
Whoaaaa....yeah..yeah

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To ( Girrl
I've known you since you were ten you cannot
hide from your friends.) Girl, I Can Tell He's
Been LyingAnd Pretending That He's Faithful And
He Loves You Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

Girl - Destiny's Child





Toodles! ,
Risha

FUCK

Ahahahhaa tanggal 1 september 2011 ada yang jadian gitu dehhhh CONGRATS MUHAMMAD FUCK-IZ ABDURRAHMAN dan YULI-slut PURNAMASARI!

Longlast selalu kawan hahahahaha lo ngejelek2in gue kan? Alah pussy bgt lo takut ngelawan gue sama temen2 gue speak babi mau ngajak ribut RCD! Heh tot, lawan lo tuh RCDV! Lo kan banci mana brani sama cowok hahahahaha alay lo


FUCK YOU! ,
From....irichy!

NAJIS

Fix gue jijik parah sama faiz. Bego bgt gue hampir keluar rcdv delete anak2 rcd dan nampar ashari demi dia? Dia gamau ninggalin si yuli! Anjing cewe muka kayak joker aja dibelain! Ihhh najis dasar cowok asu

Benci bgt gue bangsat gue ngarep sama cowok yang salah bgt! Akhirnya setelah 2 minggu gue udah pinter sekarang. Lagian masih ngurusin gue bgt? Ngapain larang2 gue emang lo siapa gue sih? Berasa lo ganteng amet ih larang2 gue mana gamau lepasin si YULIA PURNAMASARI....cewek mirip joker gitu

Langsung aja gue delete contact sumpah enek gue sama cowok kayak dia....heran gue dulu bisa cinta bgt sama dia sumpah ga nyangka gue bego bgt mau2an digituin sama cowok....astaga ya Allah ga lagi2 deh gue mikirin dia, ilfeel!!!! Ya suka2 gue lah mau siapa aja kerumah gue justru nyokap gue seneng gue deket2 sama temen gue, justru nyokap gue ngira gue gapunya temen gara2 jadian sama si faiz itu

Ga deh, ga ada lagi ngarepin dia sorry bos udah enek bgt sama kelakuannya liat aja ya! Gue udah ada bukti kalo si yuli ilfeel sama faiz ya ga doain di tolak sih paling kalo di trima ya....gitu deh bego bgt dia ninggalin cewek kayak gue demi JOKER




Toodles! ,
Risha