Kamis, 27 Oktober 2011

regrets and mistakes

its getting complicated right now. he left me for the second times because i fell in love with someone else. i just like that guy, but still...i have a very strong feelings for him

i regret yesterday when you were chasing me but then i refused...i keep telling him to stay away, even though i still love him. but everything has changed since he fell in love with another person...

he stopped texting me, i knew it before he told me that he had move on. it breaks my heart, i swear. and now he is the one who push me away from his life. well, i've never wanted him to stay away from me even though i have a crush on someone, because i knew he loves me thats why i wont hurt him and he told me that he'll loves me forever.

im still curious about that girl, now he's gone without regret. it's not him leaving me that could drive me insane, but its him....loving someone else more than he loved me. i just cant get over him. ive been trying so hard to stop thinking about him for several months but i keep falling for the same patterns.

le, if you are reading this....
i just want you to know that how many times i tried to kill me feelings, i always end up crying because the voices in my head keeps telling me that i still love you. its okay if youre moving on, but please...never forget with our promises. because i know sooner or later you will never come back, but please...never forget me. our beautiful memories. i love you more than i love myself.


p.s. i will always love you






toodles! ,
risha

Rabu, 12 Oktober 2011

wish you were here :'''

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
who gives a shit
behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here




Toodles! ,
Risha

Sabtu, 08 Oktober 2011

9 Oktober 2011 ♥

Hey!
Alhamdulillah hari ini tanggalnya bagus:) gue harusnya hari ini setahunan sama faiz....yaudahlah ya

Gue mau sedikit cerita....

Waktu mau soulnation kan gue nungguin temen gue di ps biar bisa barengan kan. Itu tanggal 24 sept kalo ga salah. Terus ada gio, temennya faiz. Gue ngobrol2 kan nah dia narik2in gue ke pohon. Feeling udh gaenak nih, asli gue nolak tapi dia maksa "sha, ayolah dia beli tiket soulnation+lmfao demi ketemu sama lo!" Yaudah deh gue nurut

Pas di pohon udeh tuh ada faiz dan brocode, gue duduk jauh banget kan dari faiz. Kita diem2an udeh abis gue dicengin kan. Terus faiz tiba2 duduk sebelah gue, dia bilang minta maaf lah apalah segala macem bilang dia nyesel ninggalin gue. Gue juga kasian sih abis temennya ngadu terus ke gue kalo faiz di kelas keinget gueeee terus, nangisin gue terus. Dia kalo lagi ngablu juga nangisin/nginget gue. Gue sih yakin dia masih sayang sama gue. Gue kan awal2 jawabnya nyolot kan yaudah kita kaya temen biasa kaya baru kenal lah

Terus pas otw soulnation kan jalan kaki rame2 yaudah kan. Kita ngobrol di belakang berdua kan ada jarak. Kita cerita gimana gue sama dia pas kita udh sama sekali ga berhubungan. Gimana sama cewenya lalalala segala macem. Gue liat chatnya tuh hmm apa ya? Norak deh cewenya ngambekin hal sepele.

Yaudah intinya dia soulnation sama gue dan bro. Terus pas mike posner itu seru abis rame2 si gio diminta tolong pevita pearce buat gendong tapi gamau. Goblok ye? Yaudah kan gue sama faiz masih sama2 sayang yaudah kemana2 berduaan kaya org pacaran. Lmfao juga bareng kok. Padahal ada cewenya di soulnation tapi dia barengan gue.

Seninnya, gue denger kabar kalo faiz putus sama si yuli. Gue kira gara2 gue gataunya emang kemauan bareng. Temen2nya semua tau kalo faiz masih sayang sama gue. Dia juga gabisa ngelupain gue:') tapi maaf banget telat.....gue udh suka sama org lain

Sampai saat ini gue sama faiz masih berhubungan baik. Gue sama dia kaya org pacaran sih cuma gada status. Gue sering kok curhatin si org itu ke faiz, faiz mengerti lah dia dengerin, dia ngapus air mata gue, dia ngerangkul gue megang tangan gue bilang "jangan sedih lagi ya le:)"

Pada hari ini, tanggal 9 oktober 2011 adalah hari setahunan risha sama faiz....gue mau ngucapin :


Selamat setahunan ya le! Maafin aku ya kemaren2 aku sering bikin kamu kecewa, marah, kesel, sedih aku gabisa bikin kamu seneng sampe kamu harus ninggalin aku buat sama yang lain. Aku gabisa 100% nyalahin kamu karena ini kesalahan kita berdua. Kamu inget kan janji kita dulu tuh gimana? Aku juga gabisa lupain semuanya le walaupun aku sama yg lain. Cuma kita bisa jadi temen aja sementara kalo misalnya salah satu dari kita ada yang jadian. Aku sayang sama kamu. Aku seneng kok kita bisa kaya gini lagi tapi aku sedih aja kamu dateng di waktu yang salah. Dimana aku udh suka sama org lain dan kamu baru ngungkapin itu. Aku sedih kamu jadi berubah gara2 putus aku juga berubah. Semoga kedepannya kita masih deket ya walaupun hal2 gaenak terjadi. Semoga kita masih bisa baik2 aja ya le di tahun berikutnya. Aku tau kok rasanya kehilangan, tapi aku mengerti kamu dulu jadian sama org lain biar bisa seneng nyatanya engga. Aku gamau kehilangan kamu lagi le. 1 tahun itu waktu yang ga singkat loh:) cie sekarang kamu botak lagi hehehehehe. Intinya, selamat setahunan ya sayang. Semoga kita makin saling mengerti, masalah bisa diselesaiin secara dewasa, jangan sombong2 sama aku ya ndut. Love you.



Toodles! ,
Risha

Jumat, 23 September 2011

random post

Hey all!

Duh ada yg batu bgt ya masih aja kemaren sms2 gue minta ketemuan terus minta maaf hahaa males abis ketemuan sama lo alesannya apa coba? Mau nyelesaiin masalah buset bukannya udh selesai dari dulu banget ya?

Btw gue udah suka dong sama orang hehehe orangnya baiiiik banget ga ngerokok ga minum2 rajin solat terus gapernah macem2 deh ga tengil sama cewe....ya ampun suka banget gue bukan aja hehe mana katanya nih ya denger2 dia suka sama gue dari kelas 1 semester 1 :$ tapi gatau juga sih jadi apa engga hehe

Ya intinya gue sekarang udah bisa lah nikmatin masa sma yang seru bebas larangan, lagian gue udh tau kok si f udh ngapain aja sama cewenya buset belom sebulanan udh parah bgt ya hahahaha mana sekarang dia ancur bgt lagi untung udh masa lalu gue

Udah ya mau busy...busy bbman hehehehe:p





Toodles! ,
Risha

Rabu, 21 September 2011

sorry, but no!

Hey alllll

Masa yaaaa tadi siang temennya si fuck-iz nyapa gue gitu lalala ngobrol2 lah katanya dia masih suka kepo tentang gue, liat2 contact gue dari bb temennya terus tau2 aja tentang si anak 3 dan si binus....yaelah urusan lo gitu?

Ngapain amet masih kepoin kehidupan gue ya Allah gue aja udh gatau apa2 tentang hidup lo, gue aja kaget lo masih idup sekarang hahahaa canda

Kata lo apa? Cinta 2 hati? Buseeeet berat banget yeee bahasa lu ogah gue balikan sama cowo brengsek kayak lo. Cowo kayak lo tuh....banyak....BANGET!!!!!!! Demi Allah banyak hahahahaha

Terus saingan gue siapa? Si yul? Dih NAJESSSSSS ga banget saingan gue dia hhahahaa siapa jugaaaa yang masih ngarep? Ya mau tau ajasiiiih gue udh suka sama org lain, terus urusan lo tuh apa ya?

Bilangnya masih sayang sama gue haahaha sayang tuh artinya mempertahankan apa yang dipunya, bukan laper mata! Ah jelek bgt sih kelakuan lo gatel bgt hahaha sorry to say but I'm moving on!

Doakan saja semogaaaa gue bisa hidup lebih bahagia sama orang yang gue suka AMIN! Udeh lah gausah nyari2 tau tentang gue, oke? Gausah kenal lagi malah kalo perlu! Enek gue sama lo weeeeey dimana lo pada saat gue ngarepin lo? Dimana lo pada saat gue nangis karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue sakit2 karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue kangen sama lo? Di pelukan si uli jabs kan?

Ah cowo kayak lo mah gitu, kehilangan fans langsung kalang kabut. Ga deh, makasih bgt udh cukup kenal sama lo, ga lagi2 deh sama lo maap ye bos udah telat bgt ini mangkanya kalo mutusin gue tuh mikir, SIAPA YANG AKAN GALAU PADA AKHIRNYA!




Toodles! ,
Risha

Minggu, 18 September 2011

sedih aja

Menyukai seseorang yang baru, bukan berarti melupakan yang lama.
Berhenti menangisinya, bukan berarti berhenti menyayanginya.
Berbahagia dengan hidup gue, bukan berarti berbahagia di hati kecil gue.
Mendorongnya untuk pergi dari kehidupan gue, bukan berarti membencinya....melainkan membunuh perasaan gue.
Berbohong kepada orang lain tentang perasaan gue, bukan berarti gue sepenuhnya bahagia

Terluka...itu yang gue rasain. Buat apa tadi nelfon gue? Buat apa bbm nanya kabar gue? Buat apa ngablu ngomong "kangen risha"? Apa cuma membuat gue yang udah berjalan jauh untuk nengok ke belakang lagi?

Tolong jangan ganggu kehidupan yang udah gue mulai bangun pelan2 dengan cara gue sendiri. Ga mudah ngebangun rongsokan menjadi emas. Gue emang udah suka sama orang lain, tapi bukan berarti gue ngelupain semua tentang lo. Semua kenangan yang terus menghantui gue sampe sekarang. Emang kelemahan gue cuma 1...susah buat ngelupainm sesuatu yang berarti banget buat gue. Lo bisa dengan mudah nunjukin "nih gue bisa banget tanpa lo" tapi gue ga kaya gitu, karena emang gue ga mudah buat kayak gitu

Mungkin emang ini kali ya. Mungkin Allah emang udah ngasih jalan kita masing2. Lo ngejalaninnya dengan yang baru, gue berusaha sendirian tanpa bantuan. Itu menunjukkan kalo gue lebih kuat daripada lo. Karena gue bisa ngebangun ini semua tanpa "seseorang". Mungkin emang lo sekarang lagi bahagia lagi segala2nya. Tapi selalu ingat, roda itu terus berputar begitu juga dengan kehidupan. Ga selamanya lo ada di atas, kalo ga jalan ke bawah namanya lo udah mati karena roda kehidupan lo ga berputar.

Allah sayang sama gue. Dia nunjukin kalo lo ga akan pernah menjadi yang terbaik buat gue. Selamat menjalani kehidupan kita masing2, gue tau ini berat banget buat gue...tapi gue tau gue pasti bisa. Gue pasti kuat kok tanpa lo, dan yang terpenting....please banget jangan pernah menyentuh kehidupan yang udah gue bangun tanpa lo.

Gue tuh capek sih nginget yang lalu2. Rasanya kayak lo ngebaca suatu buku keseringan dan udah tau endingnya bakal nyakitin, buat apa? Bosen kan bacanya? Yang bener cuma 1. Beli buku yang baru! Iya, lembaran gue sama lo udah gue simpen rapi di tempat lain, gue lagi memulai yang baru dan mencoba menjalani sama orang yang bakal sayang, setia, pengertian dan mengerti gue banget.

Bismillah....




Toodles! ,
Risha

Sabtu, 17 September 2011

angels cry - mariah carey ft ne-yo

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry




Toodles! ,
Risha