Minggu, 30 Mei 2010

"Love needs patience, time, effort, and trust each other .. but from all the definition of love is that if you dared to love someone, then you also have to be brave and ready to lose that person even if it hurts but it is the most precious moments for you because you could see the person you love smile broadly, even tho s/he's not with you" - Irisha Dwi Karima

Sabtu, 29 Mei 2010


i made a mistake. a BIG mistake. and he said this on my sister's bbm...

"go ahead and say goodbye, i'll be alright. go ahead and make me cry, i'll be alright. and when you need a place to run to..for better for worse, i got you" -leona lewis
"kes, kasih itu ke adek lo ya"
"sumpah demi Allah swt kes gue ga mainin adek lo"
"dia minta gue buat menjauh, tapi gue gabisa kes. bener bener gabisa"

hmmmmmmm i'm so sorry! sumpah maksud gue tuh bukan gituuuuu aduh salah paham mulu nih :(

toodles! ,

Kamis, 27 Mei 2010

sorry hannah!

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: Hannah, 17, female, UK and you are?
You: Jake, 18, male, usa
Stranger: nice to meet you Jake
Stranger: which part of the US are you from?
You: nice to meet you too Hannah
You: los angeles
You: you?
Stranger: wow well you are the first person to on here who's been from LA
You: haha really? awesome then
Stranger: I'm originally from Edinburgh but live in London
You: oh i see then
You: what time is it there?
Stranger: 19;25
You: pm?
Stranger: yup
You: wow
Stranger: how about where you are
Stranger: noon?
You: its 12:36 here
Stranger: lucky you - you've still got the whole day ahead of you
Stranger: :)
You: haha yea, but its boring tho
You: i wish its night
Stranger: how come
You: i dunno, i just like a silent night
Stranger: don't you just love that time of day when you are just about to go to sleep and you are lying in bed just thinking about random stuff?
Stranger: its the best time of the day
You: hahah yep
You: but this days reminds me of someone
Stranger: ah who>
Stranger: ?
You: my ex :(
You: sorry
Stranger: aw dear
Stranger: sorry to hear
You: thats okay
You: and thats one of the reasons i dont like days
You: just a silent night, where there's a peaceful place in my whole life trying to forget about her
Stranger: yeah well that's the best thing to do - talking from experience I like walking outside in the dark especially on cool evenings when you feel totally alone and there's enough room to just think
Stranger: and forget
You: yea thats true
You: but i cant get her out of my mind
Stranger: how recently ago did you break up?
You: i mean, ive never been like this. i used to be a player but when im with her, felt like i was bend on my knee
You: 5 months
Stranger: wow she seemed to have a big impact on you
You: yea she is
Stranger: what went wrong? (if you don't mind me asking)
You: there's a bitch who told her that i made her pregnant, and my gf believed her
You: because she knew that i was a player
You: but she didnt knew that i was change because of her
Stranger: did you tell her that?
You: yea, i tried to call her but she didnt wanna talk to me anymore
Stranger: ah well i guess there's nothing much you can do
Stranger: just try and do something to occupy your mind
Stranger: do you play sports or like music/?
You: yea i guess
You: yep, i like sports and music
Stranger: well just immerge yourself in those for a while until it gets less and less difficult to think about her
You: yea i guess, hey how about i fly to her house?
Stranger: what do you mean 'fly to her house'
You: she's uhm... we live in a different country
Stranger: oh wow
Stranger: where does she live??
You: indonesia
You: well shes indonesian, but she lived here once
Stranger: well i can see how its difficult for you then
Stranger: maybe you should speak to a counsellor or something
You: yea maybe i should
Stranger: i dunno i'm no good with this kind of stuff
You: or should i find a new one?
Stranger: well i though you wanted to eradiacte your player image
Stranger: but you did say it's been 5 monthsd
You: yea
You: well i dated 5 girls after we broke up
You: but its not working
Stranger: maybe you should just have a break from girls for a while
Stranger: until you are ready to fully devote yourself to another meaningful relationship
Stranger: b/c it's not fair on the girl if you are constantly thinking about your ex
You: yea youre totally right
You: so i might be single for a very long time
Stranger: well you never know
You: yea
Stranger: the first few months are the worst
Stranger: i'm sure after a few more
Stranger: maybe a summer romance is on the cards?
You: great idea!
You: okay maybe ill send her a postcard
You: or, should i buy a ticket to indonesia?
Stranger: before you do anything rash
Stranger: and if you really want to contact her
Stranger: send her a handwritten letter explaining everything
Stranger: its the best method of expressing yourslef
You: hmmm okay then
You: thanks for everything
Stranger: and then if you dont hear anything just drop it
Stranger: cos thats all you can do
You: yea i should, oh god
You: wish me luck
Stranger: good luck!
Stranger: i'll be thinking about you
You: thanks :)
Stranger: hope everything goes well
You: thank you very much
Stranger: no probs
Stranger: bye xx
You: byee

sorry hannah! masa kata dito gue feelnya ngena banget kayak bule asli! wkwkwk katanya dia juga bakal ketipu kali hmm hmm jago kan?

toodles! ,

Minggu, 23 Mei 2010


today is our graduation's day, and it was amazing :D finally i graduate from my beloved labschool junior high! and yea im gonna miss my #16 GEESDRIFTZESTIEN! i still remember those amazing memories we've been through together :') oh shit i'll miss you soooo damn much guys, and especially...



oke males sok inggris -_-

gue ga mau ngasih tau ah siapa orangnya cuma mungkin sebagian besar lo semua pada tau sih siapa orangnya. oke gue dulu pernah suka sama dia sekitar hmm 1 tahun sih. walaupun gue jadian sama orang lain tapi adalah dia nyantol dipikiran gue walaupun cukup berkurang. gue tau kok kalo dia tau gue suka banget sama dia, tapi sayangnya cinta gue bertepuk sebelah tangan JENG JEEEEEEEENG CINTA DITOLAK DUKUN BERTINDAK! okay ga gitu.

cuma ya gitu semenjak kelas 9, mungkin karena suatu hal yang bikin gue ilfeel gue agak berkurang rasa suka ke dia jadi gue udah yayaya whatever lah ya ke dia. cuma sekarang gue udah lulus, gue jadi kepikiran dia lagi gara gara satu orang sialan ya emang minta dicium ke tembok gue jadi kepikiran lagi. dan demi apapun, gue bakal kangen banget sama LO!

gue pengen bilang gue bakal kangen banget sama lo. mungkin lo cowok yang gue kangenin di #16 selain dito. cuma lo sama dito doang. tapi gue gapunya keberanian lah buat bilang gila aja muka gue mau ditaro di mana? udah lah gue mau nyimpen aja deh. ya semoga aja gue bener bener bisa lupain lo ya amin amin semoga lo dapet cewek yang baik dan sayang sama lo ya. dan semoga lo masih inget sama gue. itu aja udah cukup banget kok buat gue

bye bye fellas!

toodles! ,

Jumat, 21 Mei 2010

99 facts about guys, from dochi's blog -_-

99 facts about guys
bold on the "this guy" facts

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

toodles! ,

Kamis, 13 Mei 2010

we are one - kautsar and abby

kautsar kan tadi nyapa gue di msn, bilang katanya dia sama abby bikin lagu buat angkatan. terus dia send lagunya kan terus gue dengerin. gue ga gitu konsen dengerinnya jadi gue minta lirik lagunya kan. pas gue dengerin dengan cermat sambil baca liriknya anjiiiiir gue nangis, nih liriknya....


That is true,
I’m the one who have my lap for you
To cry as long as you want to
I’m that one, the one for you

You can lay and sleep
Take a rest with me here
Cause I’m what you need
And you’re what I need

I’m pleased to be part of our journey
I promise we will be together forever
Even tho’ this is not Barney’s show
Oh god, I’ll miss you guys

We are one for sure (one for sure)
Time will not wreck us part (wreck us part)
Through all the reckless abandon (reckless abandon)
And things we’ve done

yang gue kasih tanda bold itu bagian gue nangis haaaa haaaa haaa kalo mau lagunya minta kautsar aja ya oke?

toodles! ,

Selasa, 11 Mei 2010

my beloved...#16 geesdriftzestien

hai bloggers! udah lumayan lama nih gue ga ngeposting. keasikan liburan gitu ehe ehe
okay here we go

kemaren adalah hari farewell #16 gdzn which is hasil kerja keras para panitia farewell(termasuk gue) yang dinilai angkatan sendiri terbilang sukses. gue puas banget udah bisa ngasih yang terbaik buat gdzn, karena cuma di gdzn gue bisa belajar mana yang namanya temen sejati, mana yang namanya muka dua, mana yang namanya orang jahat, mana yang namanya "gebet menggebet" segala macem

gue ga nyangka yang dulu gue mengira gabakal dapet temen di smp, bakal jadi anak baik segala macem di smp, bakal boring karena belajar mulu, temenannya cuma anak satu sd dulu tapi setelah 3 tahun itu semua kebukti ga bener. gue temenan kok sama gdzn, kita bahkan ngerasain memori yang bener bener ngena banget. buat gue yang seru tuh : salam (awal awal kenalan), saksi, pas labs kebakaran (musibah bikin tingkat kesadaran solidaritas kita semakin tinggi dan kuat), invita jogja, pensi 2008 yang sukses berat, amt. tapi diluar semua itu, masih banyak kenangan yang masih esimpen fresh di otak gue

gue masih inget kok kejadian kelas 7 yang pas mainnya musuh musuhan. gue justru beruntung pernah dimusuhin karena gue jadi makin sadar diri dan belajar buat jaga sikap bagaimana cara diterima orang sekitar mana yang perlu dikurangin dan ditambahin semuanya berkat bantuan dari gdzn. pas kelas 8, 7fraternize kan paa mencar (soalnya dulu gue cuma temenan sama anak 1 kelas doang) nah dari situ gue mulai mengenal anak anak kelas lain dan ternayat luar biasa seru banget. ga nyangka gue punya temen se seru angkatan 16 geesdriftzestien!

inget ga jogja kita ngapain aja? inget ga pas jaman jaman tau omegle? inget ga kita sering ngecengin meika tiap hari nonstop? padahal cuma meika satu satunya yang paham sama curhatan gue dan dia juga curhat rahasia ke gue eh ehe ehe booobbbbiiiiieeesss canda meik

tapi gila ya semuanya udah berlalu aja. farewell juga udah lewat. puas banget gue dirangkul di pinggang sama surya insomnia terus dia gue rangkul balik. puas banget nonton ran paling depan pas di farewell. tapi yang paling nyesek pas renungan tuh. belom mulai aja gue vinda anis udah nangis nangisan. biasalah geng cabul kebanyakan aib bule buat seru seruan jadi kenangannya banyak banget. ya Allah ntar di sma gimana ya?

apakah mungkin ntar gue dapetin temen seangkatan se seru dan sekompak mereka? apakah mungkin ntar gue bisa punya temen yang bisa gue percaya dan bukan tipe anak social climber? dan apakah mungkin kalo misalnya sma, gdzn pasti kepisahkan...terus kita bakal main bareng ga ya? apa mereka bakal membelakangi gue dan beralih dengan teman barunya? ngelupain gue gitu aja? jangan sampe ya Allah..

tapi buat geesdrifzestien, KALIAN ADALAH YANG TERBAIK! I LOVE Y'ALL!

toodles! ,

Minggu, 09 Mei 2010

just saying... ga maksud apa apa kok wek

oba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa, mewujudkan bahagia,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

wohoho.. dudududu…
wohoho.. dudududu…

yang ku inginkan..
satu tujuan..
sebuah kenyataan..
bukan impian..
bukan harapan..
bukan alasan..
satu kepastian..

coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..

ga kok cuma ngepost doang horeeee 2 hari lagi farewell terus besoknya PITBULL! oiya HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA VINDA semoga panjang umur, sehat selalu, makin pinter, makin miip karolina kurkova, suaminya bule amin

toodles! ,