I just found out someone who stalked me! You bitch, why you wanna know bout my life? Don't you have your effin good life with your "dog" instead of lookin at mine? But its not you, ir :p sorry this one's for muhfuckin ex!
So, you told all of your friends if I still love you then you open up my blog to show em? Bitch, who the hell do you think you are?
Well...I used to love him but for this past few days I never ever think about him anymore. He's useless. So u just bbm me to asked how I was? Ha! I don't NEED your attention because I refused you to touch my life.
Okay, I still have feelings for you but just about ummm 45% percent! The rest belongs to....I dunno...maybe chucky? Orrrr maybe uhm...I dunno. Me and chucky are just friends. We always know that we can never be more than friends.
Well, all I have to say is : GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY WAY! You have no rights to ask how's my days so far because it makes me wanna drag you to hell. I just realized how stupid I was because of falling for an asshole like you! I know you've been cheated on me for more than once ha you bitch!
Everybody wants you to DIE! Because I've got lots of information even your BF didn't like you anymore, just eat your "slutty-dog" and fuck off! Don't you ever come back and try to mess up with my life!
I'm so happy with mine. I'm feeling much better without you in my life. Because you took EVERYTHING that I had! Aw shit....I hate you so much!
Toodles! ,
Risha
Rabu, 14 September 2011
Sabtu, 10 September 2011
blushing :$
Tadi gue ketemuan sama gio di pohon ps kan. Dia mau ngasih aux gue yang ada di faiz gitu...pas ngasih gue kenal bgt tuh wanginya sama sepatunya gio eh gataunya bener punya faiz pantesan familiar bgt ampe gue nangis saking kangennya sama itu parfum HAHA labil....iyalah udh hampir setahun gue nyium wangi itu terus
Abis itu kan kita crita2 aja kaaan terus tuh tadinya faiz mau ikutan sama gio buat ketemu gue tapi faiz bilang "gi, risha udh gamau ketemu lagi sama gue ya?" Wkwk mungkin gara2 gue nolak temenan sama dia kali ya? Yakali dah temenan sama org yang masih gue sayang bgtbgt ntar galau lagi ngeliatin mereka pacaran.
Terusss gio cerita kan faiz semalem mabok joget2 gajelas bisa tuh gue ngebayangin dia lagi ngegila haha hmmm apa ya? Oiya kan katanya semalem gio ngedengerin vn happy birthdaynya dari cewe2 make aux gue di mobil faiz, pas bagian suara gue....
F: anjing galau gue dengerin ini suara, ngentot.
S: hahaha risha gue gebet ya? (Ini bercandaan)
F: Ga! Awas aja lo gue tampol!
Uuuu masih perduli aja ya sama gue. Masih aja nanya2in gue giliran gue udh mulai menghilang. Ternyata ada untungnya juga gue berusaha ngebunuh perasaan gue dengan cara menolak jadi temennya. Bismillah ya Allah semoga gue ga jatuh ke lubang yang sama . Amin.
Toodles! ,
Risha
Abis itu kan kita crita2 aja kaaan terus tuh tadinya faiz mau ikutan sama gio buat ketemu gue tapi faiz bilang "gi, risha udh gamau ketemu lagi sama gue ya?" Wkwk mungkin gara2 gue nolak temenan sama dia kali ya? Yakali dah temenan sama org yang masih gue sayang bgtbgt ntar galau lagi ngeliatin mereka pacaran.
Terusss gio cerita kan faiz semalem mabok joget2 gajelas bisa tuh gue ngebayangin dia lagi ngegila haha hmmm apa ya? Oiya kan katanya semalem gio ngedengerin vn happy birthdaynya dari cewe2 make aux gue di mobil faiz, pas bagian suara gue....
F: anjing galau gue dengerin ini suara, ngentot.
S: hahaha risha gue gebet ya? (Ini bercandaan)
F: Ga! Awas aja lo gue tampol!
Uuuu masih perduli aja ya sama gue. Masih aja nanya2in gue giliran gue udh mulai menghilang. Ternyata ada untungnya juga gue berusaha ngebunuh perasaan gue dengan cara menolak jadi temennya. Bismillah ya Allah semoga gue ga jatuh ke lubang yang sama . Amin.
Toodles! ,
Risha
Jumat, 09 September 2011
curhadh
hey all!
now i'm listening to jar of hearts by christina perri while writing this shit. well its not some kind of shit, but this is the perfect place where i can express all of my feelings. i dont need an advice from everybody, i just wanna share it with everybody who read this post.
well, yesterday was 9 september. it used to be my anniversary with him. but there's no more anniversary, and at 29 september will be the day when the first time he greet me on msn. so funny back then, time flies so fast. i heard that he loves his girlfriend, thats good :)
ive been thinking about him all the time and it cost me a lot of pain. ive been trying so hard to get him outta my mind, well it works a little but still...it hurts a lot. i still love him, so much. i know he wont feel the same way so i just wanna bury all of my thoughts and feelings for him.
i dont want him back, but i just miss him around me. i just miss the way he loved me. but still, i dont want him back. i dont wanna feel the pain again, im so scared to open up my heart and fill it with new lover. its just not that easy, and i just dont wanna be in love anymore.
i just want him, i still need him even tho he's an asshole but believe me...he's just not that bad. he's a great kid. he's awesome, but still...he's the one that i never thought would hurt me, but he hurts me the most! he lied to me. thats the worst thing, i trusted him a lot.
but i never cried for him anymore..THANK GOD! i moved on with my life, i just realize that i have such a fucking good life. i just dont wanna move on to another hearts, because honestly he's the one that i really love the most.
i dont know what to say. sorry for all my twisted words.
ive got lots of things about him but i dont have any idea how to express it. im so fed up with my thoughts of him. im so fed up with waking up in the morning and find myself heartbroken, its still hurts until now. i just hate the fact that he still didnt want to tell the truth.
the most painful thing is....i still hold his hand in mine when im asleep. i can still feel his touch and his breath. i still remember the last time he looked me in the eye, gave me one last touch on my cheek. it felt really peaceful. and....
sorry, i cant continue this...
its too painful :(
toodles! ,
risha
now i'm listening to jar of hearts by christina perri while writing this shit. well its not some kind of shit, but this is the perfect place where i can express all of my feelings. i dont need an advice from everybody, i just wanna share it with everybody who read this post.
well, yesterday was 9 september. it used to be my anniversary with him. but there's no more anniversary, and at 29 september will be the day when the first time he greet me on msn. so funny back then, time flies so fast. i heard that he loves his girlfriend, thats good :)
ive been thinking about him all the time and it cost me a lot of pain. ive been trying so hard to get him outta my mind, well it works a little but still...it hurts a lot. i still love him, so much. i know he wont feel the same way so i just wanna bury all of my thoughts and feelings for him.
i dont want him back, but i just miss him around me. i just miss the way he loved me. but still, i dont want him back. i dont wanna feel the pain again, im so scared to open up my heart and fill it with new lover. its just not that easy, and i just dont wanna be in love anymore.
i just want him, i still need him even tho he's an asshole but believe me...he's just not that bad. he's a great kid. he's awesome, but still...he's the one that i never thought would hurt me, but he hurts me the most! he lied to me. thats the worst thing, i trusted him a lot.
but i never cried for him anymore..THANK GOD! i moved on with my life, i just realize that i have such a fucking good life. i just dont wanna move on to another hearts, because honestly he's the one that i really love the most.
i dont know what to say. sorry for all my twisted words.
ive got lots of things about him but i dont have any idea how to express it. im so fed up with my thoughts of him. im so fed up with waking up in the morning and find myself heartbroken, its still hurts until now. i just hate the fact that he still didnt want to tell the truth.
the most painful thing is....i still hold his hand in mine when im asleep. i can still feel his touch and his breath. i still remember the last time he looked me in the eye, gave me one last touch on my cheek. it felt really peaceful. and....
sorry, i cant continue this...
its too painful :(
toodles! ,
risha
Senin, 05 September 2011
labil
Mungkin cuma itu kata2 yang mendeskripsikan keadaan gue. Labil.
Sebentar bilang benci, cuma sekarang fix masih sayang. Banget. Parah. Mungkin semua emang jalannya, gue nyesel gue sering nyakitin orang yang bener bener gue sayang cuma gara2 emosi doang. Mungkin ini kali ya akibat kalo kita ga menghargai rasa sayang ke pacar sendiri.
Gue sakit hati dan kesel sama diri gue sendiri. Cuma gara2 ego doang bisa kayak gini. Sekarang apa? Dia udah sayang sama orang lain dan gue gabisa ngontact dia lagi karena pada dasarnya gue gamau ngeganggu dia lagi.
Gue sedih banget harus kehilangan orang yang bener2 gue gamau untuk ke 2xnya. Pertama radit, kedua faiz. Kalo radit mah emang babi, kalo faiz gue yang salah.
Parah gue kangen banget sama faiz. Lo pernah ga kangen banget sama org tapi tanpa sadar lo sampe keluar air mata saking kangennya sama orang lain? Mungkin engga. Tapi buat gue, ya itulah yang gue rasain sekarang.
Gue nyesel. Emang penyesalah selalu dateng pada akhirnya. Ga ada yang tau perasaan sama jalan pikiran orang. Mungkin emang pada dasarnya faiz udh ga sanggup sama sifat dan kelakuan gue. Gue tau dia sayang bgt dan selalu sabar ngadepin gue. Tapi balesan gue cuma nyakitin nyakitin dan nyakitin.
Gue cuma butuh mesin waktu doang. Gue pengen banget muter waktu dari bulan juni. Gue pengen memperbaiki semuanya, tapi gue tau itu ga mungkin. Yang bisa gue lakuin sekarang adalah belajar dari pengalaman.
Sumpah gue ngetik sambil keluar air mata hahaha dasar labil. Gue sedih banget nginget yang dulu2. Segimana sayangnya faiz sama gue. Emang bener ya, orang baru ngerasa betapa berartinya dia buat kita pas dia udh ga ada. Mungkin ini karma banget buat gue.
Udah 2 minggu lebih gue nangisin hal yang ga pasti. 4 hari lagi harusnya gue anniv 11 bulan. Gila, gue sayang banget sama faiz. Gue tau semua hal tentang dia 100% kecuali perasaan dia ke gue.
Dia udh males ketemu sama gue. Itu setau gue. Gila air mata gue ga brenti2. Gue kangen banget sama dia ga boong deh. Gue pengen ketemu terus ngobrol sama dia. Gue kangen banget parah.
Gue gabisa tidur semaleman mikirin dia. Gue kangen banget sama dia, akhirnya gue sms aja "I miss you" baru deh gue bisa tidur. Itupun jam 3 gue bisa tidur. Gue tiap hari begitu. Bangun tidur, masih nyesek. Mau tidur, nyesek lagi.
Gue masih sayang bgtbgtbgtbgtbgt sama faiz:(
Toodles! ,
Risha
Sebentar bilang benci, cuma sekarang fix masih sayang. Banget. Parah. Mungkin semua emang jalannya, gue nyesel gue sering nyakitin orang yang bener bener gue sayang cuma gara2 emosi doang. Mungkin ini kali ya akibat kalo kita ga menghargai rasa sayang ke pacar sendiri.
Gue sakit hati dan kesel sama diri gue sendiri. Cuma gara2 ego doang bisa kayak gini. Sekarang apa? Dia udah sayang sama orang lain dan gue gabisa ngontact dia lagi karena pada dasarnya gue gamau ngeganggu dia lagi.
Gue sedih banget harus kehilangan orang yang bener2 gue gamau untuk ke 2xnya. Pertama radit, kedua faiz. Kalo radit mah emang babi, kalo faiz gue yang salah.
Parah gue kangen banget sama faiz. Lo pernah ga kangen banget sama org tapi tanpa sadar lo sampe keluar air mata saking kangennya sama orang lain? Mungkin engga. Tapi buat gue, ya itulah yang gue rasain sekarang.
Gue nyesel. Emang penyesalah selalu dateng pada akhirnya. Ga ada yang tau perasaan sama jalan pikiran orang. Mungkin emang pada dasarnya faiz udh ga sanggup sama sifat dan kelakuan gue. Gue tau dia sayang bgt dan selalu sabar ngadepin gue. Tapi balesan gue cuma nyakitin nyakitin dan nyakitin.
Gue cuma butuh mesin waktu doang. Gue pengen banget muter waktu dari bulan juni. Gue pengen memperbaiki semuanya, tapi gue tau itu ga mungkin. Yang bisa gue lakuin sekarang adalah belajar dari pengalaman.
Sumpah gue ngetik sambil keluar air mata hahaha dasar labil. Gue sedih banget nginget yang dulu2. Segimana sayangnya faiz sama gue. Emang bener ya, orang baru ngerasa betapa berartinya dia buat kita pas dia udh ga ada. Mungkin ini karma banget buat gue.
Udah 2 minggu lebih gue nangisin hal yang ga pasti. 4 hari lagi harusnya gue anniv 11 bulan. Gila, gue sayang banget sama faiz. Gue tau semua hal tentang dia 100% kecuali perasaan dia ke gue.
Dia udh males ketemu sama gue. Itu setau gue. Gila air mata gue ga brenti2. Gue kangen banget sama dia ga boong deh. Gue pengen ketemu terus ngobrol sama dia. Gue kangen banget parah.
Gue gabisa tidur semaleman mikirin dia. Gue kangen banget sama dia, akhirnya gue sms aja "I miss you" baru deh gue bisa tidur. Itupun jam 3 gue bisa tidur. Gue tiap hari begitu. Bangun tidur, masih nyesek. Mau tidur, nyesek lagi.
Gue masih sayang bgtbgtbgtbgtbgt sama faiz:(
Toodles! ,
Risha
Sabtu, 03 September 2011
:$
hey all! kemaren pas tgl 3 fun sekaliiii jadi gue vicky vania inong tuh ke salon jam 3an terus abis itu cabcus kan ke ps kita makan2 di bakerzin sambil foto2 gitu kan. yaudsss kita ngobrol2 aja kaya biasa abis itu tiba2 gio dateng wkwk malu2 dia ketemu inong huuu lucu ya kalo lagi jatuh cinta
terus hmm gue galau terus ya hmmmm adalah pokoknya mulai miring akal pikiran gue terus gue punya kaos john lennon kembaran sama gio!!!! cuma bedanya punya gue udh gue gunting2 sendiri wkwkwk terus apa ya? ya gitu deh ngobrol2 aja tapi kocak gituuuu
terus kan tadi ada gitu deh yang abis dari cibinong ngebut ke ps mau ketemuan doang wkwk gue tungguin aja tuh udh minta nomer gue terus sempet nelfon gitu kayanya pengen bgt ketemu tuh orang -_- abis itu pas ketemu udh kan nemenin gue beli softex wkwk terus ngobrol2 banyak ampe nyasar gituuu terus dia bilang "eh...kita kemana sih? aduh muter2 ya keasikan ngobrol sih" duh...blushing bgtttt
terus ya gue ngobrol banyak lah, this boy is pretty interesting. he likes to dance and he knows all of dance histories, choreographs, he knows a lot about fashion stuffs and where to buy the good and cheap ones but still original and....he complimented my shoes! he's pretty stylish and you'll never stop talking about art! thats the most amazing part ;) hampir sama kayak si R lah cuma lebih "normal"nya gitu
cukup menarik sih cuma jadi temen aja kan ;) oiya...get well soon papaku!!!!
toodles! ,
risha
terus hmm gue galau terus ya hmmmm adalah pokoknya mulai miring akal pikiran gue terus gue punya kaos john lennon kembaran sama gio!!!! cuma bedanya punya gue udh gue gunting2 sendiri wkwkwk terus apa ya? ya gitu deh ngobrol2 aja tapi kocak gituuuu
terus kan tadi ada gitu deh yang abis dari cibinong ngebut ke ps mau ketemuan doang wkwk gue tungguin aja tuh udh minta nomer gue terus sempet nelfon gitu kayanya pengen bgt ketemu tuh orang -_- abis itu pas ketemu udh kan nemenin gue beli softex wkwk terus ngobrol2 banyak ampe nyasar gituuu terus dia bilang "eh...kita kemana sih? aduh muter2 ya keasikan ngobrol sih" duh...blushing bgtttt
terus ya gue ngobrol banyak lah, this boy is pretty interesting. he likes to dance and he knows all of dance histories, choreographs, he knows a lot about fashion stuffs and where to buy the good and cheap ones but still original and....he complimented my shoes! he's pretty stylish and you'll never stop talking about art! thats the most amazing part ;) hampir sama kayak si R lah cuma lebih "normal"nya gitu
cukup menarik sih cuma jadi temen aja kan ;) oiya...get well soon papaku!!!!
toodles! ,
risha
Kamis, 01 September 2011
meikanisme ({})
Kemaren gue jalan sama meikanisme :D seru bgt gue udah ga galau sama sekali sampe detik ini *cheers* ini gue mau ngasih lirik lagu yang sepertinya cocok sama situasi gue kemaren dimana mereka menghibur gue :')
[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can see The Pain
Don't Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What Y'all Don't Know About Him
Is that I Can't Let Him Go 'cause He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him, It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging Most Of The Time
But I Know Deep Inside He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Us To Help?
We Known Each Other Too Well
Whoaaaa....yeah..yeah
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To ( Girrl
I've known you since you were ten you cannot
hide from your friends.) Girl, I Can Tell He's
Been LyingAnd Pretending That He's Faithful And
He Loves You Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
Girl - Destiny's Child
Toodles! ,
Risha
[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can see The Pain
Don't Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What Y'all Don't Know About Him
Is that I Can't Let Him Go 'cause He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him, It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging Most Of The Time
But I Know Deep Inside He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Us To Help?
We Known Each Other Too Well
Whoaaaa....yeah..yeah
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To ( Girrl
I've known you since you were ten you cannot
hide from your friends.) Girl, I Can Tell He's
Been LyingAnd Pretending That He's Faithful And
He Loves You Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?
Girl - Destiny's Child
Toodles! ,
Risha
FUCK
Ahahahhaa tanggal 1 september 2011 ada yang jadian gitu dehhhh CONGRATS MUHAMMAD FUCK-IZ ABDURRAHMAN dan YULI-slut PURNAMASARI!
Longlast selalu kawan hahahahaha lo ngejelek2in gue kan? Alah pussy bgt lo takut ngelawan gue sama temen2 gue speak babi mau ngajak ribut RCD! Heh tot, lawan lo tuh RCDV! Lo kan banci mana brani sama cowok hahahahaha alay lo
FUCK YOU! ,
From....irichy!
Longlast selalu kawan hahahahaha lo ngejelek2in gue kan? Alah pussy bgt lo takut ngelawan gue sama temen2 gue speak babi mau ngajak ribut RCD! Heh tot, lawan lo tuh RCDV! Lo kan banci mana brani sama cowok hahahahaha alay lo
FUCK YOU! ,
From....irichy!
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