thank you

regrets and mistakes

2011-10-27T05:09:00.000-07:00

its getting complicated right now. he left me for the second times because i fell in love with someone else. i just like that guy, but still...i have a very strong feelings for him

i regret yesterday when you were chasing me but then i refused...i keep telling him to stay away, even though i still love him. but everything has changed since he fell in love with another person...

he stopped texting me, i knew it before he told me that he had move on. it breaks my heart, i swear. and now he is the one who push me away from his life. well, i've never wanted him to stay away from me even though i have a crush on someone, because i knew he loves me thats why i wont hurt him and he told me that he'll loves me forever.

im still curious about that girl, now he's gone without regret. it's not him leaving me that could drive me insane, but its him....loving someone else more than he loved me. i just cant get over him. ive been trying so hard to stop thinking about him for several months but i keep falling for the same patterns.

le, if you are reading this....
i just want you to know that how many times i tried to kill me feelings, i always end up crying because the voices in my head keeps telling me that i still love you. its okay if youre moving on, but please...never forget with our promises. because i know sooner or later you will never come back, but please...never forget me. our beautiful memories. i love you more than i love myself.

p.s. i will always love you

toodles! ,
risha

wish you were here :'''

2011-10-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
who gives a shit
behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here

Toodles! ,
Risha

9 Oktober 2011 ♥

2011-10-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Alhamdulillah hari ini tanggalnya bagus:) gue harusnya hari ini setahunan sama faiz....yaudahlah ya

Gue mau sedikit cerita....

Waktu mau soulnation kan gue nungguin temen gue di ps biar bisa barengan kan. Itu tanggal 24 sept kalo ga salah. Terus ada gio, temennya faiz. Gue ngobrol2 kan nah dia narik2in gue ke pohon. Feeling udh gaenak nih, asli gue nolak tapi dia maksa "sha, ayolah dia beli tiket soulnation+lmfao demi ketemu sama lo!" Yaudah deh gue nurut

Pas di pohon udeh tuh ada faiz dan brocode, gue duduk jauh banget kan dari faiz. Kita diem2an udeh abis gue dicengin kan. Terus faiz tiba2 duduk sebelah gue, dia bilang minta maaf lah apalah segala macem bilang dia nyesel ninggalin gue. Gue juga kasian sih abis temennya ngadu terus ke gue kalo faiz di kelas keinget gueeee terus, nangisin gue terus. Dia kalo lagi ngablu juga nangisin/nginget gue. Gue sih yakin dia masih sayang sama gue. Gue kan awal2 jawabnya nyolot kan yaudah kita kaya temen biasa kaya baru kenal lah

Terus pas otw soulnation kan jalan kaki rame2 yaudah kan. Kita ngobrol di belakang berdua kan ada jarak. Kita cerita gimana gue sama dia pas kita udh sama sekali ga berhubungan. Gimana sama cewenya lalalala segala macem. Gue liat chatnya tuh hmm apa ya? Norak deh cewenya ngambekin hal sepele.

Yaudah intinya dia soulnation sama gue dan bro. Terus pas mike posner itu seru abis rame2 si gio diminta tolong pevita pearce buat gendong tapi gamau. Goblok ye? Yaudah kan gue sama faiz masih sama2 sayang yaudah kemana2 berduaan kaya org pacaran. Lmfao juga bareng kok. Padahal ada cewenya di soulnation tapi dia barengan gue.

Seninnya, gue denger kabar kalo faiz putus sama si yuli. Gue kira gara2 gue gataunya emang kemauan bareng. Temen2nya semua tau kalo faiz masih sayang sama gue. Dia juga gabisa ngelupain gue:') tapi maaf banget telat.....gue udh suka sama org lain

Sampai saat ini gue sama faiz masih berhubungan baik. Gue sama dia kaya org pacaran sih cuma gada status. Gue sering kok curhatin si org itu ke faiz, faiz mengerti lah dia dengerin, dia ngapus air mata gue, dia ngerangkul gue megang tangan gue bilang "jangan sedih lagi ya le:)"

Pada hari ini, tanggal 9 oktober 2011 adalah hari setahunan risha sama faiz....gue mau ngucapin :

Selamat setahunan ya le! Maafin aku ya kemaren2 aku sering bikin kamu kecewa, marah, kesel, sedih aku gabisa bikin kamu seneng sampe kamu harus ninggalin aku buat sama yang lain. Aku gabisa 100% nyalahin kamu karena ini kesalahan kita berdua. Kamu inget kan janji kita dulu tuh gimana? Aku juga gabisa lupain semuanya le walaupun aku sama yg lain. Cuma kita bisa jadi temen aja sementara kalo misalnya salah satu dari kita ada yang jadian. Aku sayang sama kamu. Aku seneng kok kita bisa kaya gini lagi tapi aku sedih aja kamu dateng di waktu yang salah. Dimana aku udh suka sama org lain dan kamu baru ngungkapin itu. Aku sedih kamu jadi berubah gara2 putus aku juga berubah. Semoga kedepannya kita masih deket ya walaupun hal2 gaenak terjadi. Semoga kita masih bisa baik2 aja ya le di tahun berikutnya. Aku tau kok rasanya kehilangan, tapi aku mengerti kamu dulu jadian sama org lain biar bisa seneng nyatanya engga. Aku gamau kehilangan kamu lagi le. 1 tahun itu waktu yang ga singkat loh:) cie sekarang kamu botak lagi hehehehehe. Intinya, selamat setahunan ya sayang. Semoga kita makin saling mengerti, masalah bisa diselesaiin secara dewasa, jangan sombong2 sama aku ya ndut. Love you.

Toodles! ,
Risha

random post

2011-09-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

Hey all!

Duh ada yg batu bgt ya masih aja kemaren sms2 gue minta ketemuan terus minta maaf hahaa males abis ketemuan sama lo alesannya apa coba? Mau nyelesaiin masalah buset bukannya udh selesai dari dulu banget ya?

Btw gue udah suka dong sama orang hehehe orangnya baiiiik banget ga ngerokok ga minum2 rajin solat terus gapernah macem2 deh ga tengil sama cewe....ya ampun suka banget gue bukan aja hehe mana katanya nih ya denger2 dia suka sama gue dari kelas 1 semester 1 :$ tapi gatau juga sih jadi apa engga hehe

Ya intinya gue sekarang udah bisa lah nikmatin masa sma yang seru bebas larangan, lagian gue udh tau kok si f udh ngapain aja sama cewenya buset belom sebulanan udh parah bgt ya hahahaha mana sekarang dia ancur bgt lagi untung udh masa lalu gue

Udah ya mau busy...busy bbman hehehehe:p

Toodles! ,
Risha

sorry, but no!

2011-09-21T04:34:00.000-07:00

Hey alllll

Masa yaaaa tadi siang temennya si fuck-iz nyapa gue gitu lalala ngobrol2 lah katanya dia masih suka kepo tentang gue, liat2 contact gue dari bb temennya terus tau2 aja tentang si anak 3 dan si binus....yaelah urusan lo gitu?

Ngapain amet masih kepoin kehidupan gue ya Allah gue aja udh gatau apa2 tentang hidup lo, gue aja kaget lo masih idup sekarang hahahaa canda

Kata lo apa? Cinta 2 hati? Buseeeet berat banget yeee bahasa lu ogah gue balikan sama cowo brengsek kayak lo. Cowo kayak lo tuh....banyak....BANGET!!!!!!! Demi Allah banyak hahahahaha

Terus saingan gue siapa? Si yul? Dih NAJESSSSSS ga banget saingan gue dia hhahahaa siapa jugaaaa yang masih ngarep? Ya mau tau ajasiiiih gue udh suka sama org lain, terus urusan lo tuh apa ya?

Bilangnya masih sayang sama gue haahaha sayang tuh artinya mempertahankan apa yang dipunya, bukan laper mata! Ah jelek bgt sih kelakuan lo gatel bgt hahaha sorry to say but I'm moving on!

Doakan saja semogaaaa gue bisa hidup lebih bahagia sama orang yang gue suka AMIN! Udeh lah gausah nyari2 tau tentang gue, oke? Gausah kenal lagi malah kalo perlu! Enek gue sama lo weeeeey dimana lo pada saat gue ngarepin lo? Dimana lo pada saat gue nangis karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue sakit2 karena lo? Dimana lo saat gue kangen sama lo? Di pelukan si uli jabs kan?

Ah cowo kayak lo mah gitu, kehilangan fans langsung kalang kabut. Ga deh, makasih bgt udh cukup kenal sama lo, ga lagi2 deh sama lo maap ye bos udah telat bgt ini mangkanya kalo mutusin gue tuh mikir, SIAPA YANG AKAN GALAU PADA AKHIRNYA!

Toodles! ,
Risha

sedih aja

2011-09-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

Menyukai seseorang yang baru, bukan berarti melupakan yang lama.
Berhenti menangisinya, bukan berarti berhenti menyayanginya.
Berbahagia dengan hidup gue, bukan berarti berbahagia di hati kecil gue.
Mendorongnya untuk pergi dari kehidupan gue, bukan berarti membencinya....melainkan membunuh perasaan gue.
Berbohong kepada orang lain tentang perasaan gue, bukan berarti gue sepenuhnya bahagia

Terluka...itu yang gue rasain. Buat apa tadi nelfon gue? Buat apa bbm nanya kabar gue? Buat apa ngablu ngomong "kangen risha"? Apa cuma membuat gue yang udah berjalan jauh untuk nengok ke belakang lagi?

Tolong jangan ganggu kehidupan yang udah gue mulai bangun pelan2 dengan cara gue sendiri. Ga mudah ngebangun rongsokan menjadi emas. Gue emang udah suka sama orang lain, tapi bukan berarti gue ngelupain semua tentang lo. Semua kenangan yang terus menghantui gue sampe sekarang. Emang kelemahan gue cuma 1...susah buat ngelupainm sesuatu yang berarti banget buat gue. Lo bisa dengan mudah nunjukin "nih gue bisa banget tanpa lo" tapi gue ga kaya gitu, karena emang gue ga mudah buat kayak gitu

Mungkin emang ini kali ya. Mungkin Allah emang udah ngasih jalan kita masing2. Lo ngejalaninnya dengan yang baru, gue berusaha sendirian tanpa bantuan. Itu menunjukkan kalo gue lebih kuat daripada lo. Karena gue bisa ngebangun ini semua tanpa "seseorang". Mungkin emang lo sekarang lagi bahagia lagi segala2nya. Tapi selalu ingat, roda itu terus berputar begitu juga dengan kehidupan. Ga selamanya lo ada di atas, kalo ga jalan ke bawah namanya lo udah mati karena roda kehidupan lo ga berputar.

Allah sayang sama gue. Dia nunjukin kalo lo ga akan pernah menjadi yang terbaik buat gue. Selamat menjalani kehidupan kita masing2, gue tau ini berat banget buat gue...tapi gue tau gue pasti bisa. Gue pasti kuat kok tanpa lo, dan yang terpenting....please banget jangan pernah menyentuh kehidupan yang udah gue bangun tanpa lo.

Gue tuh capek sih nginget yang lalu2. Rasanya kayak lo ngebaca suatu buku keseringan dan udah tau endingnya bakal nyakitin, buat apa? Bosen kan bacanya? Yang bener cuma 1. Beli buku yang baru! Iya, lembaran gue sama lo udah gue simpen rapi di tempat lain, gue lagi memulai yang baru dan mencoba menjalani sama orang yang bakal sayang, setia, pengertian dan mengerti gue banget.

Bismillah....

Toodles! ,
Risha

angels cry - mariah carey ft ne-yo

2011-09-17T20:08:00.000-07:00

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry

Toodles! ,
Risha

stalker FTW!

2011-09-14T04:32:00.000-07:00

I just found out someone who stalked me! You bitch, why you wanna know bout my life? Don't you have your effin good life with your "dog" instead of lookin at mine? But its not you, ir :p sorry this one's for muhfuckin ex!

So, you told all of your friends if I still love you then you open up my blog to show em? Bitch, who the hell do you think you are?

Well...I used to love him but for this past few days I never ever think about him anymore. He's useless. So u just bbm me to asked how I was? Ha! I don't NEED your attention because I refused you to touch my life.

Okay, I still have feelings for you but just about ummm 45% percent! The rest belongs to....I dunno...maybe chucky? Orrrr maybe uhm...I dunno. Me and chucky are just friends. We always know that we can never be more than friends.

Well, all I have to say is : GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY WAY! You have no rights to ask how's my days so far because it makes me wanna drag you to hell. I just realized how stupid I was because of falling for an asshole like you! I know you've been cheated on me for more than once ha you bitch!

Everybody wants you to DIE! Because I've got lots of information even your BF didn't like you anymore, just eat your "slutty-dog" and fuck off! Don't you ever come back and try to mess up with my life!

I'm so happy with mine. I'm feeling much better without you in my life. Because you took EVERYTHING that I had! Aw shit....I hate you so much!

Toodles! ,
Risha

blushing :$

2011-09-10T09:09:00.001-07:00

Tadi gue ketemuan sama gio di pohon ps kan. Dia mau ngasih aux gue yang ada di faiz gitu...pas ngasih gue kenal bgt tuh wanginya sama sepatunya gio eh gataunya bener punya faiz pantesan familiar bgt ampe gue nangis saking kangennya sama itu parfum HAHA labil....iyalah udh hampir setahun gue nyium wangi itu terus

Abis itu kan kita crita2 aja kaaan terus tuh tadinya faiz mau ikutan sama gio buat ketemu gue tapi faiz bilang "gi, risha udh gamau ketemu lagi sama gue ya?" Wkwk mungkin gara2 gue nolak temenan sama dia kali ya? Yakali dah temenan sama org yang masih gue sayang bgtbgt ntar galau lagi ngeliatin mereka pacaran.

Terusss gio cerita kan faiz semalem mabok joget2 gajelas bisa tuh gue ngebayangin dia lagi ngegila haha hmmm apa ya? Oiya kan katanya semalem gio ngedengerin vn happy birthdaynya dari cewe2 make aux gue di mobil faiz, pas bagian suara gue....

F: anjing galau gue dengerin ini suara, ngentot.
S: hahaha risha gue gebet ya? (Ini bercandaan)
F: Ga! Awas aja lo gue tampol!

Uuuu masih perduli aja ya sama gue. Masih aja nanya2in gue giliran gue udh mulai menghilang. Ternyata ada untungnya juga gue berusaha ngebunuh perasaan gue dengan cara menolak jadi temennya. Bismillah ya Allah semoga gue ga jatuh ke lubang yang sama . Amin.

Toodles! ,
Risha

curhadh

2011-09-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

hey all!

now i'm listening to jar of hearts by christina perri while writing this shit. well its not some kind of shit, but this is the perfect place where i can express all of my feelings. i dont need an advice from everybody, i just wanna share it with everybody who read this post.

well, yesterday was 9 september. it used to be my anniversary with him. but there's no more anniversary, and at 29 september will be the day when the first time he greet me on msn. so funny back then, time flies so fast. i heard that he loves his girlfriend, thats good :)

ive been thinking about him all the time and it cost me a lot of pain. ive been trying so hard to get him outta my mind, well it works a little but still...it hurts a lot. i still love him, so much. i know he wont feel the same way so i just wanna bury all of my thoughts and feelings for him.

i dont want him back, but i just miss him around me. i just miss the way he loved me. but still, i dont want him back. i dont wanna feel the pain again, im so scared to open up my heart and fill it with new lover. its just not that easy, and i just dont wanna be in love anymore.

i just want him, i still need him even tho he's an asshole but believe me...he's just not that bad. he's a great kid. he's awesome, but still...he's the one that i never thought would hurt me, but he hurts me the most! he lied to me. thats the worst thing, i trusted him a lot.

but i never cried for him anymore..THANK GOD! i moved on with my life, i just realize that i have such a fucking good life. i just dont wanna move on to another hearts, because honestly he's the one that i really love the most.

i dont know what to say. sorry for all my twisted words.

ive got lots of things about him but i dont have any idea how to express it. im so fed up with my thoughts of him. im so fed up with waking up in the morning and find myself heartbroken, its still hurts until now. i just hate the fact that he still didnt want to tell the truth.

the most painful thing is....i still hold his hand in mine when im asleep. i can still feel his touch and his breath. i still remember the last time he looked me in the eye, gave me one last touch on my cheek. it felt really peaceful. and....

sorry, i cant continue this...

its too painful :(

toodles! ,
risha

labil

2011-09-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

Mungkin cuma itu kata2 yang mendeskripsikan keadaan gue. Labil.

Sebentar bilang benci, cuma sekarang fix masih sayang. Banget. Parah. Mungkin semua emang jalannya, gue nyesel gue sering nyakitin orang yang bener bener gue sayang cuma gara2 emosi doang. Mungkin ini kali ya akibat kalo kita ga menghargai rasa sayang ke pacar sendiri.

Gue sakit hati dan kesel sama diri gue sendiri. Cuma gara2 ego doang bisa kayak gini. Sekarang apa? Dia udah sayang sama orang lain dan gue gabisa ngontact dia lagi karena pada dasarnya gue gamau ngeganggu dia lagi.

Gue sedih banget harus kehilangan orang yang bener2 gue gamau untuk ke 2xnya. Pertama radit, kedua faiz. Kalo radit mah emang babi, kalo faiz gue yang salah.

Parah gue kangen banget sama faiz. Lo pernah ga kangen banget sama org tapi tanpa sadar lo sampe keluar air mata saking kangennya sama orang lain? Mungkin engga. Tapi buat gue, ya itulah yang gue rasain sekarang.

Gue nyesel. Emang penyesalah selalu dateng pada akhirnya. Ga ada yang tau perasaan sama jalan pikiran orang. Mungkin emang pada dasarnya faiz udh ga sanggup sama sifat dan kelakuan gue. Gue tau dia sayang bgt dan selalu sabar ngadepin gue. Tapi balesan gue cuma nyakitin nyakitin dan nyakitin.

Gue cuma butuh mesin waktu doang. Gue pengen banget muter waktu dari bulan juni. Gue pengen memperbaiki semuanya, tapi gue tau itu ga mungkin. Yang bisa gue lakuin sekarang adalah belajar dari pengalaman.

Sumpah gue ngetik sambil keluar air mata hahaha dasar labil. Gue sedih banget nginget yang dulu2. Segimana sayangnya faiz sama gue. Emang bener ya, orang baru ngerasa betapa berartinya dia buat kita pas dia udh ga ada. Mungkin ini karma banget buat gue.

Udah 2 minggu lebih gue nangisin hal yang ga pasti. 4 hari lagi harusnya gue anniv 11 bulan. Gila, gue sayang banget sama faiz. Gue tau semua hal tentang dia 100% kecuali perasaan dia ke gue.

Dia udh males ketemu sama gue. Itu setau gue. Gila air mata gue ga brenti2. Gue kangen banget sama dia ga boong deh. Gue pengen ketemu terus ngobrol sama dia. Gue kangen banget parah.

Gue gabisa tidur semaleman mikirin dia. Gue kangen banget sama dia, akhirnya gue sms aja "I miss you" baru deh gue bisa tidur. Itupun jam 3 gue bisa tidur. Gue tiap hari begitu. Bangun tidur, masih nyesek. Mau tidur, nyesek lagi.

Gue masih sayang bgtbgtbgtbgtbgt sama faiz:(

Toodles! ,
Risha

:$

2011-09-03T10:06:00.000-07:00

hey all! kemaren pas tgl 3 fun sekaliiii jadi gue vicky vania inong tuh ke salon jam 3an terus abis itu cabcus kan ke ps kita makan2 di bakerzin sambil foto2 gitu kan. yaudsss kita ngobrol2 aja kaya biasa abis itu tiba2 gio dateng wkwk malu2 dia ketemu inong huuu lucu ya kalo lagi jatuh cinta

terus hmm gue galau terus ya hmmmm adalah pokoknya mulai miring akal pikiran gue terus gue punya kaos john lennon kembaran sama gio!!!! cuma bedanya punya gue udh gue gunting2 sendiri wkwkwk terus apa ya? ya gitu deh ngobrol2 aja tapi kocak gituuuu

terus kan tadi ada gitu deh yang abis dari cibinong ngebut ke ps mau ketemuan doang wkwk gue tungguin aja tuh udh minta nomer gue terus sempet nelfon gitu kayanya pengen bgt ketemu tuh orang -_- abis itu pas ketemu udh kan nemenin gue beli softex wkwk terus ngobrol2 banyak ampe nyasar gituuu terus dia bilang "eh...kita kemana sih? aduh muter2 ya keasikan ngobrol sih" duh...blushing bgtttt

terus ya gue ngobrol banyak lah, this boy is pretty interesting. he likes to dance and he knows all of dance histories, choreographs, he knows a lot about fashion stuffs and where to buy the good and cheap ones but still original and....he complimented my shoes! he's pretty stylish and you'll never stop talking about art! thats the most amazing part ;) hampir sama kayak si R lah cuma lebih "normal"nya gitu

cukup menarik sih cuma jadi temen aja kan ;) oiya...get well soon papaku!!!!

toodles! ,
risha

meikanisme ({})

2011-09-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

Kemaren gue jalan sama meikanisme :D seru bgt gue udah ga galau sama sekali sampe detik ini *cheers* ini gue mau ngasih lirik lagu yang sepertinya cocok sama situasi gue kemaren dimana mereka menghibur gue :')

[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can see The Pain
Don't Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What Y'all Don't Know About Him
Is that I Can't Let Him Go 'cause He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him, It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging Most Of The Time
But I Know Deep Inside He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Us To Help?
We Known Each Other Too Well
Whoaaaa....yeah..yeah

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To ( Girrl
I've known you since you were ten you cannot
hide from your friends.) Girl, I Can Tell He's
Been LyingAnd Pretending That He's Faithful And
He Loves You Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And Your Needing Somebody To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You?

Girl - Destiny's Child

Toodles! ,
Risha

FUCK

2011-09-01T10:07:00.001-07:00

Ahahahhaa tanggal 1 september 2011 ada yang jadian gitu dehhhh CONGRATS MUHAMMAD FUCK-IZ ABDURRAHMAN dan YULI-slut PURNAMASARI!

Longlast selalu kawan hahahahaha lo ngejelek2in gue kan? Alah pussy bgt lo takut ngelawan gue sama temen2 gue speak babi mau ngajak ribut RCD! Heh tot, lawan lo tuh RCDV! Lo kan banci mana brani sama cowok hahahahaha alay lo

FUCK YOU! ,
From....irichy!

NAJIS

2011-09-01T01:08:00.001-07:00

Fix gue jijik parah sama faiz. Bego bgt gue hampir keluar rcdv delete anak2 rcd dan nampar ashari demi dia? Dia gamau ninggalin si yuli! Anjing cewe muka kayak joker aja dibelain! Ihhh najis dasar cowok asu

Benci bgt gue bangsat gue ngarep sama cowok yang salah bgt! Akhirnya setelah 2 minggu gue udah pinter sekarang. Lagian masih ngurusin gue bgt? Ngapain larang2 gue emang lo siapa gue sih? Berasa lo ganteng amet ih larang2 gue mana gamau lepasin si YULIA PURNAMASARI....cewek mirip joker gitu

Langsung aja gue delete contact sumpah enek gue sama cowok kayak dia....heran gue dulu bisa cinta bgt sama dia sumpah ga nyangka gue bego bgt mau2an digituin sama cowok....astaga ya Allah ga lagi2 deh gue mikirin dia, ilfeel!!!! Ya suka2 gue lah mau siapa aja kerumah gue justru nyokap gue seneng gue deket2 sama temen gue, justru nyokap gue ngira gue gapunya temen gara2 jadian sama si faiz itu

Ga deh, ga ada lagi ngarepin dia sorry bos udah enek bgt sama kelakuannya liat aja ya! Gue udah ada bukti kalo si yuli ilfeel sama faiz ya ga doain di tolak sih paling kalo di trima ya....gitu deh bego bgt dia ninggalin cewek kayak gue demi JOKER

Toodles! ,
Risha

photographs - rihanna

2011-08-31T09:20:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! Minal aidin walfaidzin ya maaf kalo ngegalau mulu heheheheh:D btw tadi gue iseng kan ngebuka box yang isinya foto2 gue sama sang....mantan. Gue jadi kepikiran dia lagi karena omongan tante gue tadi, iyasih nyelekit jadi merasa bersalah gue but anyway...what has done cannot be undone, aight? Yaudsss tadi gue ngebuka boxnya sambil dengerin lagu di itouch eh ga sengaja ke shuffle lagu photographsnya rihanna....sedih gue ngeliatnya, by the way here's the lyrics...

Here's a little story I've gotta tell
'Bout this boy I know so well
Back in the day was cool and all
Fell in love, I fell in love

Thought he was the one for me
Other boys I could not see
And look what happened to our love
I'm like, how could it be?

It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
But boy, you broke my heart and now I'm standing here
It should have been me and you
It could have been you and me
Now I look at all these photographs

All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you

You, you
Got nothing without you
You, you
Got nothing without you

Now baby, it's killing me
I'm saying it's killing me
The fact that you went around
Baby, I'm falling down
I need me a remedy
Been looking for remedies
I need you to be around

Baby, I'm hurting now
I know you're a better man
When I was your girl
This land is a better land
When you're in my world
Today will be better, babe
If it were like yesterday
So happy and lovely, hey, hey, hey

All I've got, all I've got
All I've got are these photographs
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you

You, you
Got nothing without you
You, you
Got nothing without you

All I've got are these photographs
I remember when I used to make you laugh
I don't wanna be stuck in the past
But you're all that I have that I had

And I don't wanna lose what we built this far
This is me and you, you're my superstar
I'd give anything, baby, here's my heart
My heart, my heart

My heart don't stop, my heart be beating over
My loving never stop, even though that it's over
Girl, I've been reminiscing when I play that Casanova
Way back when we was kissing on your grand-mama's sofa

Girl I got us lovey-dovey on my photo album
I got them pictures back when I was rocking Calvin Klein
You had your Guess jeans on, looking sexy
Oh home girl, why could it not be the one?

Why? Why? Why?
(I am not the one)
Why? Why? Why?
(Why couldn't you be the one?)
Why? Why? Why?
(Why couldn't you be the one?)
Why? Why? Why?

All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you
All I've got, all I've got
Is nothing without you

You, you
Is nothing without you
You, you
Is nothing without you

All I've got, is nothing without
All I've got, is nothing without
All I've got, all I've got are these photographs

Toodles! ,
Risha

3-|

2011-08-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

Mau sampe kapan ya Allah:'(

Masa subuh2 missed call gue 3x. Terus bbm gue "slamat sahurr". Terus nelfon gue minal aidin lalala dan masih comment2 foto gue di fb sama cowok....terus masih bbm gue make hug, masih manggil gue catwomen :'( aaaaaaa stop doooong gue tambah sayang sama lo udah dong udaaaaah

Mana tadi status gue ":(" terus disapa "knape sedih" gue jawab "gapapa" terus dibales "smangat! Bsk mau lebaran jg!" Gue jawab "insya Allah" (⌣́˛⌣̀) gimana mau semangat kalo seharusnya gue setiap hari lagi crita2 sama lo?

Gue capek tau ga, ga bbman sama lo kayak kita dulu. Gue capek banget ngeliat lo seneng sama yang lain sedangkan gue sedih2 mau move on tapi susahnya ya ampunnnn :( lo kenapa sih masih merhatiin gue? Oke lo maksud baik, kenapa sih gue masih pengen berharap lebih?

Njir sha labil bgt kemaren bilang semangat move on sekarang....gila ya, lo masih aja muncul2 di mimpi gue:( sayang banget gue sama lo pengen rasanya bbm

"Le, udah dong kaya gini:( udah dong cuek2annya udah dong stop dong bikin sama2 jealous kayak gini aku capek:( aku sayang banget sama kamu udah dong stop nyakitin aku. Aku tau aku salah tapi udah dong apa gabisa kita baik2 kayak dulu lagi? Aku kangen banget sama kamu aku kangen sama kita yang dulu:( kita udah mau setahun mungkin ini masa2 jenuh kita maklumin aja lah kita cuma butuh waktu sendiri2 gaperlu putus sampe kamu udah ada pengganti juga:( aku mau kita baik2 aja aku masih mau usaha buat kayak dulu lagi cuma aku udah gatau gimana jalan pikiran kamu:( udah dong stop dong kayak gininya aku juga mau move on tapi kenapa kamu kayak gini sih? Aku udah mulai cuek kamu yang perhatian:( udah dong udah aku sayang bangeeeeeet sama kamu udah dong le stop please:'("

Oke...too much :( maap yak gue curhat mulu. Ini udah mendingan kok cuma sedih karena kangen aja cuma udah ga ngarep balikan lagi. Life must go on. Dia udh milih jalannya, gue juga harus milih jalan gue.

Toodles! ,
Risha

nyelekit.

2011-08-29T04:16:00.000-07:00

Faiz udah frontal banget dengan hubungannya sama cewek itu. Nulis2 di twitter terus nulis nama dia di pm. Gila. Ini bener2 gila.

Dia gapernah stop nyalah2in gue. Gue emang salah at least gue mengakui, tapi kenapa dia ga bisa ngaca? Apa dia ga sadar balesan dia ke gue itu udah..too much?

Gue emang udah gapunya harga diri. Ngebegging cowok yang jelas2 menolak dan ngedorong gue lebih jauh. Dia mau gue untuk ga ganggu hubungan dia sama cewek itu. Ya ampun, gue ga kuat sumpah:')

Udah mau setahun. 9 oktober 2011 nanti gue seharusnya setahunan. Tanggalnya bagus ya 91011? Gue takut pada tanggal itu dia nembak cewek itu. Kalo misalnya jadian....gue gatau deh apa yang harus gue lakuin selanjutnya. Ga gampang ngelepasin orang yang udah bener2 nyatu di kehidupan lo selama 10 bulan lebih demi orang baru

Waktu, iklim, perasaan, wujud, pikiran..semuanya bisa berubah dalam waktu sedetik. Dia boleh ketawa karena gue udah menderita banget kayak gini. Tapi dia harus inget, setiap orang diberi hukuman 2x lipat dari Allah atas perbuatan mereka sebelumnya. Jujur aja gue kena karma, gue janji ga bakal gini lagi. Tapi dia? Hhhh mikirin besok gue masih idup aja engga (⌣́˛⌣̀)

Toodles! ,
Risha

Bismillah..

2011-08-28T08:57:00.000-07:00

hey all!!!

abis galau nih, faiz mengaku dia suka sama si *peep* ah yasudahlah yang penting faiz bahagia. sorry tidak mengganggu kok tapi kenapa ya feeling gue kalo misalnya jadi tuh ga langgeng? udah sha stop ngegalaunya!!!

hnggg pengen cepet2 masuk sekolah biar bisa temu kangen sama semua temen2 gueee yang selalu setia setiap saat menghibur gue!!! makasih banget kepada manusia2 gila yang tadi ke rumah gue bikin gue nangis2 ketawa....aneh tapi kocak jadinya, mereka mengajarkan gue untuk berfikiran dalam sudut pandang lelaki (iyelah orang mereka cowok) -____-

ya intinya gue harus ikhlasin, just let him go and find another happiness :) mungkin faiz jenuh kali ya sama sifat gue dan gue harus introspeksi diri juga lah mungkin emang kenyataannya kalo putus itu pilihan terbaik buat berdua. lagian, perjalanan hidup kita semua masih panjang kan? :)

masih sayang sih, banget bangetaaaan cuma yaudah deh disimpen aja rasa sayangnya :) gue ga akan move on make cowok baru kok:) sorry im not that kind of girl. gue biasanya move on memakai.....gatau -_- gue sama mantan biasanya jijik tapi sekarang kagak hahahah labil. banget.

anywayyy gue pengen liat dia jadian, seunyu apa sih? ck shaaa sha masih kepo aja. oke stop. gue masih inget tuh janji dia pas gue kerumah dia "inget ya, kamu punyaku aku punyamu" and then he gave me a warm hug...sweet:") yaaaa kalo jodoh juga pasti Allah mengatur waktu, tempat, dan cerita untuk gue ketemu lagi di masa depan sama faiz.

apaan sih gue berasa mau bikin film how i met your mother -_- ih pengen deh jadi barney stinson bisa banget ya playernya without any heart broken! amazing banget dah pengen punya pacar se cool dia B-)

toodles! ,
risha

exhausted

2011-08-27T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hey all

Gue capek....capek ngarep deh sumpah :( tapi gamau nyerah! Tapi kenyataan berkata lain:( gue kayanya udah mulai sakit2an gini deh ngeri banget gue galauin mantan sampe sakit.

Dari kemaren muntah2 terus, dan tadi muntah cuma darah gitu....takut deh. Dia main tarik ulur terus sama gue, gatau harus ngapain lagi. Sebentar bikin ngefly abis itu ngejatohin gue. Capek gue tiap hari dimainin kayak gini...tapi tetep sayang:(

Dan sekarang gue udah 1 jam lebih nyoba nelfonin cuma terus2an busy. Pusing kepala gue sumpah tapi yang sebelah kanan. Gila ga sehat banget gue kalo tiap hari kaya gini. Makan udh ga teratur dan dikit bgt sumpah, muntah2 terus tiap hari, pusing2 terus lah, dan yang paling parah.....ngeliatin ke layar hp menunggu keajaiban

Gaenak sumpah ngarepinnya. Bego sih gue cewek kok ngarep ya? Tapi kalo sayangnya udah beda susah sih, gue baru kali ini sampe segininya sama cowok. Sekarang gue ngetik gabisa napas sumpah pusing pala gue kepikirin dia mulu. Tiap bangun tidur rasanya masih hampa aja masih ada yang nyelekit.

Gue rasanya pengen robek perut gue terus liat apa sih yang bikin sesek biar gue buang. Gue pengen nyuci otak gue buat buang semua memori gue sama dia. Tapi gabisa, dan ga akan pernah bisa. Gue capek mikirin orang yang gapernah mikirin gue. Dia ga sadar seberapa besar pengorbanan gue buat lindungin dia.

Oke. Gue bukan cewek pamrih, at least hargain lah sedikiiiiit aja. Gue masih perhatian walaupun dia gapernah minta, gue masih kepikiran walaupun dia udah move on, gue masih belain dia walaupun semua orang ngomongin hal buruk tentang dia, gue masih siapin tangan buat nyiapin diri kalo dia terjatuh. Gue akan selalu ada buat dia. Itu yang gue capek, sampe kapan sha?

Toodles! ,
Risha

sebenernya semingguannya tuh kemaren...

2011-08-25T19:28:00.000-07:00

seminggu setelah kau pergi
teman silih berganti menghiburku
berkata semua teratasi
kan terus sembunyi di balik senyum palsu
ku dengar dirimu tak sendiri lagi
betapa hancurnya hati jiwaku

setahun setelah kau pergi
ku masih sembunyi di balik senyum palsu

ku dengar dirimu tak sendiri lagi
betapa hancurnya hati jiwaku
betapa hancurnya, na na na na naaa

tolong bantu aku melewati semua, uuu

Betapa - Sheila on 7

Toodles! ,
Risha

moving on in progress

2011-08-24T00:54:00.001-07:00

Hey all! Baru balik nih dari latian cheers :D

Tadi pagi gue ga sengaja kebangun pagi. Gue suka gitu deh tidur malem bgt bangun pagi2 gituuu soalnya kepikiran sama mimpiin faiz terus:( bangun2 tuh ya rasanya nyesekkkkk banget udah sabar aja gue terus yaudah kan mandi siap2 buat latian cheers di sekolah

Pas gue nyampe terus ga beberapa lama mahda dateng, terus gue curhat deh ga sengaja nangis lagi:( masa katanya gue kurusan...iyalah orang jarang makan gara2 galau sabar aja deh gue. Semalem tuh gue ngirim vn ke temen gue gitu nyanyi lagu never again - justin timberlake, katanya suara gue bagus!! Yes abis mendalami banget parrrrah gue nyanyi hampir nangis

Ya intinya dari awal gue putus sampe sekarang, semua temen2 gue ngedukung gue buat melupakan semua hal yang menyakitkan. Ga ada yang nyuruh gue benci sama faiz kok:) gue boleh sayang sama dia tapi gue harus move on juga! Gue seneng banget semalem dikirimin foto sama alya tulisannya "stay strong irisha" terus ada kiss gitu hehhe aduuuuh sayang banget gue sama semua temen gue. Temen smp lah, temen sma lah mereka selalu ada buat gue gitu....ya ampun terharu deh gue ternyata masih banyak banget orang yang sayang sama gue. Mau cewek sama cowok nasehatin gue kalo ga baik gue terus2an bilang mau mati aja, kata mereka "kita sayang lo sha, tenang aja sha! We'll always got your back!" How sweet:')

Nah sekarang gue mau menghindari hal2 yang ngingetin gue ke faiz. Berat banget parah gitu. Cuma gue satu2nya orang yang ngedukung diri gue sendiri buat balikan.....so sad (˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩ƪ) ya gue tetep aja gamau nyumpahin faiz aneh2 karena gue sayaaaaaaaaaang banget sama faiz ({}) sebenernya gue yakin gue masih bisa balikan tapi yaudah lah perjalanan hidup gue masih panjang, jodoh juga ga ada yang tau kan? Siapa tau jodoh gue faiz! Amin amin amiiiiin

Toodles! ,
Risha

gotcha!

2011-08-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

Faiz selingkuh. Yaudahlah ya udh kebaca kok. Dia deket sama cewek ini 2 mingguan otpan mulu tiap hari. Biarin aja deh mungkin ini yang bisa bikin faiz seneng:)

Gue sih ga cemburu, ya buat apa dia sama gue ga bahagia? Gue cuma berharap ini cewek ga ngecewain faiz, sayang sama dia terus bisa langgeng :) gue gamau nyumpahin faiz karena gue emang sayangggg banget sama dia

Susah sih buat nerima kenyataan cuma apa yang lebih indah daripada mengikhlaskan? Lagian gue udah having a lot of good times sama faiz :) he's the best!!! Semoga dia bahagiaaaa gue mau faiz bahagia :) gunduleleku sudah move on hehhehe

Yaudah deh gamau lanjut lagi, takut nangis keinget :) masih sayang banget nih...gawat....#np Mudah Saja - Sheila on 7...ga deng lebay tapi gue seneng faiz akhirnya bisa bahagia :') gue emang gapernah bisa menjadi yang terbaik buat dia

Toodles! ,
Risha

4 days...

2011-08-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

Hey, udah 4 hari gue nangis dari bangun pagi sampe ketiduran. Susah nerima kenyataan kalo gue udah putus sama faiz. Gue sayang paraaaaah sama faiz dan mungkin gue satu satunya cewek yang anggep faiz mantan terindah...iyalah orang mereka bego gabisa bikin faiz klepek klepek HAHA canda.

Bisa gila gue nangisin dia mulu...ampe tadi gue roll depan sambil nangis di apartment vicky HAHAHA anak gila. Aduh gimana nih pengen nangis lagi :' faiz gamau balikan.............................rasanya pengen terjun ke kali ciliwung.. Oke ga elit hmmmm brooklyn bridge deh.

Waktu minggu: gue kan vilmer, terus sepanjang vilmer gue chat sama faiz ga kuat akhirnya nangis...jir malu bgt vania diem doaaang terus pas pulang dia bbm "sha maaf ya tadi gue cuma bisa diem doang, gatega gue sha ngeliat lo" terus sepanjang 4 hari gue cuma bisa ngurung diri di kamar dengerin lagu galau...alamat bunuh diri

Terus tadi gue ga sekolah ga kuat bangun, pagi pagi kerasanya kosong. Kehilangan. Gue nangis lagi, gimana ya..gue soalnya gapernah kayak gini sama mantan terus di pi gue nangis ampe tata esti sama vicky diem aja, di apt vicky....udah total gue nangisnya makin ga tega aja mereka ngeliat gue. Teman yang baik membiarkan gue menangis dan dengerin uneg uneg gue :')

Terus oiya! Tadi pagi gue nelfon dito, anjiiiir makin banjir hmm secara dia cowok ya pasti dia ngerti faiz gimana cuma....gila gue masih ga nyangka banget gue putus final sama dia ya maksud gue..siapa sih yang nyangka? Semua orang yang denger aja juga kaget..apalagi gue?

Sekarang gue udah ga ngomong lagi sama dia, gue kangen semua hal yang gue sering lakuin sama dia. Semua vnnya gue dengerin...semua video alay isengan gue sama dia gue tonton. Gue gatau harus gimana, gue gamau move on. Ga akan. Biarin aja dia move on tapi gue gamau...gue sayang banget sama faiz:( mata gue udah bengkak banget parrrrrah makin males makan kepala udah begah banget pusing ga nanggung tidur aja gabisa saking pusingnya..

Gue cuma bisa berharap yang terbaik aja, kalo emang ini jalannya yaudah dengan seiring waktu berjalan gue pasti akan bisa menerima walaupun berat bagi gue. Nyokap gue juga ga tega sama gue adek gue juga...perhatian sekali :')
Baru kali ini diperhatiin adek gue, masa dia ngomong ke sodara gue "aku ga tega deh sama mbak ting, dia dari kemaren nangis terus di kamar gamau keluar gamau makan" (⌣́˛⌣̀) mau mati rasanya.

Toodles! ,
Risha

Galau time

2011-08-20T21:50:00.000-07:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

Toodles! ,
Risha

is it the time?

2011-08-19T21:43:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't post anything, and now I wanna share something that really clouding up in my head since 2 days ago.

Well, I broke up with my boyfriend. He dumped me. That's the worst thing. Aaaand I can't get over him :'D I love him more than much, more than him. I love him more than i love myself.

Being together with him for over 10 months is the greatest gift that God had planned me to heal my broken heart (read my post on july-sept 2010..what a shame). He's more than a boyfriend that everyone could ever imagine. He's my bestfriend, my father, my brother, my son, and he meant everything to me. Losing him feels like half of my breath were taken away.

And now I'm a bit stressed out, because I've never imagine how my life would be without him. Now I'm in this situation so yea, I'm screwed. I lost 6 pounds. I never wanna eat since then. Well not necessary, just 5 spoons of rice and stuffs then I go back to bed. I listened to all of my sadsong in my BigMac and sing it out loud like nobody noticed me.

I just hope everything will be back to normal. Ughh I hate myself! Okay....I need to be alone now, gbye!

Toodles! ,
Risha

dear F,

2011-07-22T11:04:00.000-07:00

You're the best boyfriend I've ever had. Even tho you hurt me badly, I will always accept your apology. I just realized how much you love me no matter what, but I'm just another asshole that makes you feel like you're an LBR.

Everytime we had a big fight, I always spill all of my bad thoughts about you. But you never did. I always screaming in front of your face, which you never did to me. But today.....sorry, I mean yesterday at 23:20 pm....I punched your arms and trying so hard to gave you a bitch slap....yelling at you...punching your dashboard...grabbed your sleeves and prepared to puch you in the face (but I didn't do it, because its too much if I did it)...but still, you didn't do anything. You were just kept yourself in mute. Staring at me with those eyes that had hurt inside, but didn't try to stop me. He just let me hurt him, as long as I'm happy with that.

All I'm saying is....how selfish am I? HE LOVES ME! But I've never realized it until today.....oh God, I really feel sorry about him!

Toodles,
Risha!

(´._.`)\('́⌣'̀ )

2011-07-18T08:01:00.000-07:00

Punya pacar berasa gapunya, ditelfon aja udah gapernah, di mention/di wall aja udah gapernah. Diperhatiin aja jarang, datar banget lah lama2 makin sama aja kayak mantan gue : classic dan membosankan. Sabar ajadeh gue, berdoa suatu saat nanti Allah mendengar doa gue yang selalu gue pengenin dari dulu bgt.

:'(

Toodles! ,
Risha

7 months and stuff

2011-05-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

sup erryone?

hell yeah, happy anniversary to my beloved MUHAMMAD FAIZ ABDURRAHMAN! well, it used to be yesterday but i forgot to post it :p

i just wanna say hey to my blog! its been a long long time i havent post any of my stories to share since i had my tumblr *pshh dont tell my blog! it might get jealous :p* LOL. well just check out my tumblr ----> http://24daysofsummer.tumblr.com ITS LEGGO!

aaaaaanddd i dont know what im goin to share here...anyway, im off from school for 2 days! yeayyyyy! so excited even tho just for 2 days, can you guys imagine that? free from school stuffs that made me wanna puke on my chemical and physic text book, yuck!

by the way...wish me luck for everything especially passing grade and go to science class! talk to you later bloggers!

toodles! ,
risha

this song is dedicated to my boyfie, muhammad faiz abdurrahman☺♥

2011-01-24T22:39:00.000-08:00

shawty's love is like a pyramid
we stand together till the very end
there'll never be another love for sure
iyaz and charice here we go

stones heavy like the love you've shown
solid as the ground we've known
and i just wanna carry on
we took it from the bottom up
and even in a desert storm
sturdy as a rock we hold
wishing every moment froze
now i just wanna let you know
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

cold never ever when you're close
we will never let it fall
a story that was never told
something like a mystery
and every step we've took we grown
look how fast the time has flown
a journey to the place unknown
we're going down in history
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep it goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

like a pyramid girl i'ma show you
that i love you so much that we're gonna get through
even when it storms i will never go
i'ma be the one to keep you safe
before was a love i care more than enough
holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough
mother nature, or disaster won't stop our happy ever after

pyramid... keep it going...
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

pyramid..
pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep it goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

► Pyramid - Cherice ft. Iyaz

toodles! ,
risha

2011-01-23T07:07:00.000-08:00

I'm so scared if one day you'll find someone better than me
Why am I so afraid of losing YOU?

Am I pretty enough to be your girl?
Am I tall enough?
Does my waist look perfect to put your arms on it?
Does my legs are long and toned enough to wear a heels?
Does my hair look outstanding?
Does my eyes hypnotize you?
Does my lips are soft enough to give you a kiss?

But the most important is...
Will you still love me if my hair turns grey?
Will you still love me if I gain a lil weight?
Will you still love me if I always make you feel miserable?
Will you still love me if I've made a big mistake?
Will you still love when I'm gone like....forever?

And will you try love me again....
If one day you wake up and found out that you don't have a strength to love me anymore?

Toodles! ,
Risha

1234

2011-01-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

i love you...muhammad faiz abdurrahman♡

toodles! ,
risha

dear faiz

2011-01-08T08:51:00.000-08:00

Leeee 30 menit lagi tanggal 9 heheh 3 bulanan nih kita:*

Seneng deh gue akhirnya bisa juga awet sama cowok!!!! Ih seneng bangeeeeet maaf norak tapi serius, faiz itu cowok terlama gue.

Tiada hari tanpa kepikiran faiz, faiz, dan faiz. Gue ga masalah kalo waktu gue kesita buat dia, soalnya menurut gue ya dia tuh worth it aja buat gue habisin waktu :) gue sayang banget sama dia ya Allah semoga longlast amin aminnnnn :')

Tapi tunggu dulu.... Ada syarat2nya nih...
Le, jangan sering sering berantem ya :) aku sayang banget sama kamuuuu hehe inget ga janji kamu "aku bakal tetep jagain kamu" terus inget kan le kalo lagi brantem kita harus selesain masalah baik2? Gamake emosi lagi? Ehehe maaf ya leee kita brantem mulu, maaf ya aku pernah boongin kamu yang tentang 2 minggu lalala itu tapi please dong le jangan cemburuan :'( iyasih jujur aja sebenernya................GUE JUGA CEMBURU SAMA LO!!! Haha guenya aja kayak babi sok stay cool padahal hati miris

Yaudah intinya, aku sayang sama kamu, semoga kita longlast, dan jangan sering sering branteeeeeeem dan aku gamau buat kamu kecewa lagi, oke????

Selamat 3 bulanan, muhammad faiz abdurrahman <3

toodles! ,
Risha

i love you le :')

2010-12-10T06:26:00.000-08:00

jadi..gue kemaren 2 bulanan sama pacar gue. namanya muhammad faiz abdurrahman. dan hari ini gue mau menceritakan kejadian yang menurut gue so sweeeeet banget

jadi gini, gue kan kemaren 2 bulanan sama dia, gue hari ini kerumahnya dia kan tapi ga ngapa2in kok gada yang berbau tindakan seksual kok sumpah!!!!!!! terus kan udah tuh pas abis maghrib temen2nya dia pada dateng kan mau nginep dirumah faiz. kan gue udah lumayan kenal tuh sama temen2nya yaudah gue santai aja. yang dateng baru firman kan terus ngobrol2 lah gue bertiga di ruang tamu sambil liatin firman main gitar. terus kan tiba2 firman lagi ngomong2in masa lalu faiz, salah juga sih gue ngecengin terus udah tuh jadi brantem gara2 gue juga ngebahas kalo dia suka ngungkit2 masa lalu gue...ya you know who lah gaperlu dikasih tau namanya

terus udah tuh gue marah kan, gue ngambek pengen pulang. terus gue ke kamarnya aja mau nelfon taksi soalnya tas gue di atas. terus pas gue mau nelfon si faiz masuk ke kamar. nanya@ gue kenapa. gue bilang aja gapapa terus dia kayak nge-begging gue gitu buat jujur yaudah gue bilang lah gue gasuka aja kalo dia masih ngebahas si itu. lagian gue takut aja dia masih ga yakin sama gue gara2 si itu. kan ga mungkin banget gue masih sayang sama dia! maksud gue si itu ya bukan faiz.

terus kan gue nangis gitu lah karena kecewa. yaudah kan kita omongin baik2 terus baikan kan. gue nyuruh dia temenin aja temennya yang lagi dibawah gue gaenak lah terus dia pertama gamau eh akhirnya mau. udah kan gue sendirian di kamarnya. pas gue cek dia cuma nutup buka pintu doang biar dia kira gue pergi eh gataunya belom -_- yaudah akhirnya dia kebawah beneran.

terus ga brapa lama dia keatas lagi mau tau gue lagi ngapain. gue kan lagi nulis2 tuh di kertasnya dia. nulis sesuatu gitu kan. terus dia kayak nerawang kertas gue ehhhh ketauan gue lagi nulis puisi laknat itu....dia langsung bete kan langsung ke bawah lagi. begonya gue lanjutin nulis

terus tiba2 dia naik lagi ke atas, mukanya udah bete gitu kan terus dia tiduran. yaudah gue mau pulang beneran aja kan udah rada males dikit gitu. terus hp gue dia ambil gatau buat ngapain terus tas gue juga dia ambil. terus kan udah marah2 gitu kan mana temen2nya ngetok2 pintu kamarnya ga jelas nah faiznya makin marah terus gue teriak aja "gue mau pulang! balikin bb sama tas gue!' terus ga dia kasih, yaudah gue pergi aja sama mbaknya nyari taksi sampe ke depan2 gitu kan. terus pas dapet gue balik ke rumahnya lagi mau balikin mbaknya sama mau minta bb gue sama tas gue buat pulang. terus gataunya dia ngejar gue naik motor kan yaudah gue minta tas sama bb gue balik. awalnya dia ga ngasih soalnya dia maunya gue dianterin dia pulang aja cuma gue gamau. terus yaudah berantem lagi kan marah2nya tuh udah parah banget deh tadi gue sama dia sama sama emosi gitu. terus dia teriak "KALO LO MASIH SAYANG SAMA DIA, NGOMONG!" "GUE UDAH LUPAIN DIA!!!!" terus yaudah gue nangis lagi sambil jalan ke taksi.

pas baru2 keluar daerah tomang dia bbm gue "please ketemuan di 711 salemba" yaudah gue okein kan. pas gue masih di jalan kejebak macet dia bbm gue 'aku udah sampe, kamu dimana?" gue cuma bales seadanya kan tanpa "aku-kamu gue-lo" gitu. gila banget itu orang! yang naik taksi duluan kan gue, kenapa dia bisa nyampe 5 menit lebih dulu daripada gue??? nah pas udah sampe 711 gue bbm dia dimana gataunya dia di depan alfa mart, naik motor sendirian ujan2an gituuuuu, yaudah dia minta maaf segala macem lah terus kan gue maafin tuh yaudah dia pamit pulang kan sama gue yaudah gue balik ke taksi gue. pas gue udah deket rumah eh dia bbm "aku di depan rumah kamu" anjirrr dia udah nyampe duluan lagi padahal pas gue naik taksi dia masihbelom jalan.

kan gue samperin "kamu ngapain disini? kan tadi udah ngomong" "gapapa, aku kangen aja sama kamu. aku juga mau mastiin aja kamu udah sampe rumah apa belom. aku takut aja kamu kenapa2. yaudah ya aku pulang dulu" gue cuma bisa ngangguk2 aja sambil ngomong2 gajelas abis gue speechless. terus yaudah deh gue sampe rumah eh dia belom sampe, gue udah khawatir gitu terus gue bbm firman kan mastiin dia udah sampe rumah gataunya belom :/

udah sih cerita gue gitu doang. hmm cuma gue masih mikir, dia so sweet abis. nyuruh gue pulang sambil ngebentak, tapi dikejar juga. ngediemin gue, cuma diajak ngomong duluan juga. yang salah emang gue, tapi yang minta maaf dia. ya ampuuuuun gue baru sadaaaaar banget setelah temen gue ngambil kesimpulan "ah shaaaa so sweet banget, dia sayang banget shaaaa sama lo" tapi emang sih bener. so sweet abis :')

baru kali ini ya ada cowok bener2 ngebela2in ujan2an naik motor ngebut cuma buat ngomong minta maaf doang! duh sumpah baik banget terus ya gitu deh susa diungkapkan kata2 soalnya tadi tuh berantemnya gaenak banget mana ada temen2nya gue makin gaenak laaaah.

yaudah deh gue cuma pengen bilang.....
le, maafin aku ya udah ngecewain kamu. maafin aku ya udah boongin kamu yang tentang 2 minggu itu. maaf ya aku suka marah2, bawel, terus ngambek gajelas. maafin aku ya gapernah ngepostin semua hal tentang kamu kayak aku sama dia dulu.

intinya...

aku sayang banget sama kamu. aku gamau kehilangan kamu.

sampe temen2 kamu dan sodara kamu aja bilang kalo kamu berubah. kamu udah tobat wkwkw ciee jadi sayang banget sama aku :')

longlast ya ndul, i love you!

toodles! ,
risha

broadcast message

2010-09-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

hey semuanya! udah lama ga posting hihi masa gue dapet bm bagus deh, isinya kayak gini

disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang, ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya

disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya, ingatlah pada pertama kali kamu jatuh cinta kepadanya

disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya, ingatlah selalu saat terindah kamu bersamanya

disaat kamu ingin menduakannya, bayangkan jika dia selalu setia

disaat kamu ingin membohonginya, ingatlah disaat dia jujur kepadamu

maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu,
jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak di sisimu,
kamu baru menyadari arti dirinya untukmu

yang indah hanya sementara
yang abadi adalah kenangan
yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
yang tulus hanya dari sanubari
tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
tidak mudah mengejar impian
namun yang lebih susah.....mempertahankan yang ada, karena walaupun tergenggam..

...bisa terlepas juga

toodles! ,
risha

hmmm

2010-07-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

Gue udah bisa ngelupain lo, alhamdulillah! Tapi sekarang, gue jadi kepikiran sih. Lagi apa ya? Engga kok gue gabakal ganggu lo lagi. Gue tau lah kita gabakal bisa jadi temen biasa. Gue masih ganyangka aja kita jadi gini. Gue kangen banget bangetan sama lo yang dulu. Masih inget ga? Gue dulu ngetweet "I think I'm falling for you" terus lo bales tanpa mention "I think I'm falling for you too" inget ga? Masih inget ga kita bales balesan nickname sama pm di bbm sampe heboh? Yang paling berkesan inget ga pas lo lagi sibuk gue masang pm "I love u like a fat kid loves cake" terus lo bales di dp bbm "I love you more than a fat kid loves cake" ? Udahlah gausah diinget lagi. Alhamdulillah kok gue udah gapernah sedih karena lo walaupun lo sampe sekarang masih sering muncul di mimpi gue walaupun cuma lewat lewat doang. Maaf ya gue bikin lo jadi bahan hinaan. Maaf ya gue bikin lo malu. Maaf ya gue bikin lo kesel. Gue emang bener bener dikuasain sama emosi dan kesabaran yang udah habis. Maaf banget ya, gue tau gue juga salah banget sama lo. Ga seharusnya juga gue ngetweet buat yang lain pas lo ada buat gue. Ga seharusnya juga gue cemburu sama lo karena gue bukan siapa siapa lo. Dan ga seharusnya juga gue bales lo 2 kali lipat. Maaf. Gue bener bener minta maaf. Kita sama sama salah, cuma kita berdua memiliki rasa egois yang sangat tinggi dan gengsi yang tinggi juga. Jadinya kita harus kayak gini walaupun cuma salah paham, ini semua diakibatkan oleh cemburu... Lo cemburu sama gue, gue makin manas manasin lo. Semua itu gue lakuin biar lo sadar kalo lo tuh gabisa giniin gue. Gue cemburu sama lo, tapi lo malah balikan dan kabarnya udah putus lagi. Gue bener bener gatau harus ngomong apa sama lo.
Cuma maaf aja yang bisa gue utarain ke lo. Maafin gue ya?

toodles! ,
risha

(⌣́˛⌣̀)

2010-07-27T02:40:00.000-07:00

Hey all!

Gue mau crita lagi nih, maaf ya bacot tapi emang gue butuh tempat buat ngeluarin sedikit hal yang ngeganjel banget. Nyesekkkkk

Jujur aja ya, sampe sekarang gue masih kepikiran sama lo. Sakit banget rasanya setelah gue bongkar sendiri dan tau kenyataan sebenernya. Dari dulu gue juga mikir kalo lo ga serius sama gue, tapi gue baru harus maksa buat brenti buat mikirin lo lagi.

Setiap pagi, cuma lo satu satunya orang yang terlintas dipikiran gue. Mungkin gue kalo disekolah bisa keisi dengan mikirin yang lain kayak pelajaran, temen, cogan2 :) cuma pas gue lagi istirahat/diem gitu atau bengong pasti gue mikirin lo. Pasti.

Jujur aja ya, gue gamau kita kayak gini cuma emang ini kenyataan yang pahit banget buat gue. Nyesek demi Allah rasanya kayak abis manjat ke atas menara eiffel yang 3 meter lagi nyampe puncak tapi ada yang ngedorong lo dan jatoh sakiiiit banget. Kayak gitu lah rasanya :'(

Tapi kenapa kenapa kenapaaaaa gue masih gabisa ilfeel sama lo walaupun lo udah nyakitin gue? Kenapa gue gabisa benci sama lo? Emang sih gue udah suka sama orang lain, anaknya cool gitu banyak yang suka hehe tapi gue merasa kurang. Kenapa? Karena dia bukan lo

Emang sih gue menye2 banget cuma ya gitu lah, gue masih belom bisa terima kenyataan yang pahit banget. Yang paling nyesek tuh lo nuduh gue ngefitnah lo, padahal emang lo ngejelek2in cewek lo demi Allah! Lo bener2 nyari cara banget buat dia baikan sama lo tapi gue bener bener lo buang. Seakan akan gue cuma jadi pelarian buat lo dan bikin dia cemburu biar dia balik sama lo.

"Tapi demi Allah ir gue emang suka sama lo, gue serius!!!" Cuma kata kata itu yang gue inget. Mungkin itu kata kata terakhir sebelom lo menghilang dan balik lagi buat sama dia. Padahal lo tau kalo cewek itu juga udah punya pacar. Sumpah tangan gue gemeteran ngetiknya tapi emang bener. Mungkin lo semua bilang gue lebay segala macem itu karena lo gapernah ngerasain di posisi gue. Di posisi dimana lo udah sayang banget sama orang tapi dia nyakitin lo berkali2, lo maafin dia walaupun dia gapernah minta maaf sama lo dan dia nyakitin lo lagi cuma lo tetep gabisa marah. Tau ah bingung :'c

toodles! ,
risha

i'm gonna find another you

2010-07-25T17:22:00.000-07:00

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you

toodles! ,
risha

ya Allah :''''(

2010-07-22T23:31:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah
Udah dari lama banget lo nyakitin gue. Mungkin udah 2 bulan belakangan ini. Gue sayang banget sama lo jadi apapun kesalahan lo pasti gue maafin dengan lapang dada. Gue selalu mencoba buat sabar, sabar, dan sabar. Gue berusaha keras buat pertahanin ini semua. Gue bahkan ga dengerin nasehat temen2 deket gue, padahal yang mereka bilang bener tapi tetep aja gue dengerin kata hati gue. Sekarang?

Lo waktu itu janji sama gue gabakal deket lagi sama jablay tai itu. Lo bahkan ngejelek2in dia lagi ya depan gue ya Allah sekarang apa? Lo hari ini jalan kan sama dia di ps. Lo selalu on time buat dia, tapi buat ketemu gue? Lo selalu banyak alasan. Hp rusak lah, ngedelete bbm gue gajelas lah, sibuk ini itu segala macem. Gue dari dulu emang cuma bisa sabar dan gapernah mikir macem2.

Gue udah bingung, udah brapa kali gue beri kesempatan buat lo? Udah brapa kali lo nyakitin gue? Kenapa sih lo gapernah mau nyari cara! Maksudnya gini deh, lo mengakui kesalahan lo dan minta gue buat balik sama lo sambil apa tuh sms2 bilangnya nangis kehilangan gue. Terus gue udah ngasih tau ya kalo lo mau sama gue lo harus tinggalin itu jablay. Lo bilang iya dengan gampang tapi tetep aja ya lo masih deket, masih aku kamuan, baby2an, segala macem deh. MAKAN TUH AIRMATA BUAYA!

Besok gue ulang tahun loh (terus?) Ya gitu lah....jadi ini kejutan yang lo mau kasih ke gue? Terserah lo deh, kali ini gue gamau ngasih kesempatan buat lo lagi. Emang sih masih sayang banget cuma kalo gini caranya gue udah tau deh kalo gue gaboleh ngasih kesempatan lebih dari 3x buat cowok macem lo! Disindir ga sadar2, ya Allah lo yang salah tapi selalu nuduh gue yang php! Anjir lo sama sekali ga menghargai gue ya? 5 bulan woy gue digantungin sama lo! Gue aja jadian gapernah lebih dari sebulan, ini digantungin udah 5 bulan!

Gatau lagi deh. Gue gamau nge add pin lo lagi, sms gue juga ga lo bales kan? Iyalah cuma cewek itu doang yang jadi kepentingan lo! Gue mention lo ah gue mau ngamuk! TAI LO!

toodles! ,
risha

halo sma!

2010-07-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

gue udah resmi jadi anak sma 3 loh! cieeee KASIH SELAMAT DONG! maksa

ya intinya mosnya tuh seru banget deh, terus kan disuruh bikin surat cinta kan ehem gue udah tau dari lama soalnya dikasih tau sama kakak gue. terus suratnya gue bikin dari hari....SABTU! anjir napsu bener. pokoknya buat kakak mpk yang paling top deh! alhamdulillah gue dapet surat cinta terbaik :)

gue bikinnya tuh kayak dari potongan tulisan dan gambar2 dari majalah, ngerti kan? pokoknya gitu lah terus disuruh gombal ya gitu ada deh kata2 yang menjijikan

"kak abi udah punya pacar belom? kalo belom aku berarti ada kesempatan dong buat jadi pacar kakak!"

NAJISSSSS biarin deh gue malu. terus gue ngasih dia 6 tangkai mawar sama coklat silver queen. kenapa 6 tangkai? jadi gini...

gue bawa 5 tangkai mawar putih asli agak kecil dan 1 tangkai mawar merah palsu yang agak besar. disitu gue selipin kertas

"there are 6 roses for you. the red one's fake, and the others are real. kak abi, i love you until the last flower die"

JIEEEEEE gombal ga sih? hahahah tapi kan kesannya cinta gue abadi :) hahah ya pokoknya kan gue tuh di giring osis (yang kebetulan temen2 kakak gue sebagian) itu giring gue menuju kak abi yang lagi duduk jongkok sambil ngetik2 di hp. terus gue ngasih sambil malu malu banget deh kedepan kelas mana disitu semua osis dan mpk ngumpul semua jadi yaaaa bisa dibayangin deh mmalunya kayak apaan

ya intinya sih mos di 3 seru! bawaannya aneh aneh deh, nih gue kasih tau ya:

foto nametag : make baju batik, gaya rumingkang imb, kacamata item diatas kepala, sama muka ngeden

hari 1: cepol pucca 3 diatas kepala, bawa biskuit yang bisa buat jadi judul lagu, makanan 4 sehat 5 sempurna, telor ceplok bentuk angka 3 kuningnya gaboleh pecah

hari 2: iket di bawah ala pembantu, poni dijepit, bawa biskuit raja dangdut, bawa susu ustad jefri rasa mocca,makanan 4 sehat 5 sempurna, telor ceplok bentuk angka 3 kuningnya gaboleh pecah

hari 3: iket air mancur 3, harus berdiri! baju olah raga smp, baju sma, surat cinta, mawar, coklat, koran bekas, makanan 4 sehat 5 sempurna, telor ceplok bentuk angka 3 kuningnya gaboleh pecah

ribet bener ya -_- intinya kelas gue itu...COWOKNYA PADA BACOT! mirip banget deh sama suasana di 7f sumpah. mana pada tengil semua lagi cowoknya, ceweknya sih biasa aja ga terlalu bacot ada lah beberapa yang asik. cuma ada deh cowok lucu gitu di kelas gue, kadang2 gue ga sengaja merhatiin! hahah ga lah gue gasuka kok, tetep....stay single!!!

toodles! ,
risha

:) :)

2010-07-15T08:43:00.000-07:00

kita pisah sekolah ya hehe nih deh buat lo

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say… “hello”
And I can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

And I never thought that I’m so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way….
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true…

beruntung deh gue pernah sekelas smaa lo :*

tooldes! ,
risha

34 days too late :'(

2010-07-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

Hey hey blogger!

Mau sedikit cerita, masih ingat mantanku? Si bule ganteng? Dylan Scotland Crawford? Ya gue pengen sedikit cerita tentang dia

Kan gini, tadi gue iseng kan ol msn dari www.ebuddy.com abis bete wlm mac tuh lemoooot banget jadi ya gue ol make itu aja. Eh gataunya banyak banget offline message nah salah satunya dari dylan. Terus kan gue buka...

dylan : cuándo va a ser mía otra vez?

34 days ago 1:04:38 am

Terus gue copy-paste ke google translate kan dan hasilnya...

"When will you be mine again?"

ANJRIT! Gue langsung shock kan terus langsung ngadu ke vinda. Ternyata dia masih sayang sama gue hahahahaha hebat hebat :) ya gimana ya? Gue juga kadang masih kepikiran sih sama ini anak terus gue bales offline message aja deh suruh add skype gue :p

Eh masa ya...2 hari yang lalu pas jam 4an gitu kan radit ngirim sms kan panjaaaaaaaaaang banget dan ngirimnya lama banget. Sekali sms bisa 3 page wkwkw buset napsu bener. Pas gue baca 'katanya' dia itu lagi ngetik sambil mengeluarkan air mata. Dia sedih aja gue udah berubah gara gara sifat dia yang keterlaluan itu. Dia katanya sedih kehilangan gue o.O

Masa sih? Gue sih percaya ga percaya ya paling airmata buaya tuh (oooo dalem sha) cuma serius gue emang masih sayang cuma...berkurang! Dari 100% jadi 80% hahaha lagian kan bukan salah gue :)

Ya sekarang doakan semoga dylan ol biar bisa chat lagi uuuu kangen, masih suka dengerin vanilla twilight ga ya kalo lagi kangen sama gue? Hmmmm :S

toodlers! ,
risha

always be my baby

2010-07-09T03:46:00.000-07:00

tiba tiba gue disapa di bbm, terus dikasih lagu sama radit always be my baby - david cook. kita berargumen enakan yang nyanyi mariah carey atau david cook -_- gapenting. tapi menurut gue mungkin di ngasih ini ke gue karena.....

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, noooooo

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
You will always be my baby

kayaknya yang gue kasih BOLD itu kata kata yang buat gue deh -_- apalagi bagian ini

"I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no"

iya sih dia ga ngelarang gue pergi cuma....kemaren tuh kayak berkali kali gitu pengen balik lagi kayak dulu cuma gue jawab "gatau dit, gue butuh waktu dulu ya gue masih shock soalnya" dan alhamdulillah dia ngerti kok. sekarang kita menjadi temen, bukan "temen"

toodles! ,
risha

unrequited love

2010-07-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

hello guys! hows your day so far? alhamdulillah mood gue udah kembali naik sedikit demi sedikit. bukan, bukan karena gue balik lagi buat deket sama dia. dia maksa maksa buat ngeyakinin gue sih cuma tetep aja gue ga percaya lagi. berasa harakiri gue kalo sama dia. ye ga?

oke sekarang gue mau cerita sedikit nih, dimulai gara gara gue membaca MMJ (untuk yang ke 4 kalinya) disitu ada yang judulnya pertembuan terakhir dengan ina mangunkusumo. disitu juga ngebahas unrequited love. cinta yang tak pernah terbalas. disitu juga ada quotes

"nothing takes the flavor out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love" - Charlie Brown

terus pas banget argia lagi ngetweet tentang itu, jadi kita ngebahas mmj kan. buku itu emang bagus banget, bergaya komedi yang memberikan kesan pada akhirnya. kalo yang paling pas buat gue adalah "orang yang diam diam jatuh cinta" kenapa? okay here it goes

jadi gue pernah lah suka sama orang waktu awal2 kelas 8, namanya x. gue suka sama dia karena ga sengaja hahah terus jadi keterusan. pertama gue sukanya diem diem sampe suatu saat semua orang tau kalo gue suka sama x. ini orang juga tau lah gue suka sama dia dan dianya kayak benci gitu sama gue. gamau ngomong, nyolot, gitu2lah nganggep gue ga ada. gue sediiiih banget mana gue dibikin malu depan dia lagi gara gara si anjingtaibabitolol manusia paling laknat di dunia

suatu hari, gue jadian sama orang lain. emang sih gue udah lumayan sayang sama orang ini tapi gue masih tetep gabisa lupain rasa suka gue ke x. pada saat jadian, x tuh jadi baiiiiiiiikkkkkkkkk banget sama gue. dunia berubah 180 drajat lah semenjak gue jadian sama orang ini. dari sini gue mikir, gue cukup beruntung punya pacar yang memberi efek dahsyat banget! semenjak itu gue juadi suka lagi sama x.

pas baru baru putus, oke kan masih fine fine aja. cuma.....ternyata dia balik lagi jadi kayak dulu. gue sedih banget dia kayak gitu lagi sama gue, gue berdoa lah semoga dia bisa baik sama gue lagi, semoga dia lupa kalo gue suka sama dia, semoga dia ga taken segala macem

tapi dengan seiring waktu, rasa suka gue semakin ngambang dan sedikit menghilang. kelas 9 gue bener bener udah lupa lah kalo gue pernah suka sama orang ini. yaudah kan case close. tapi, pas sebelom farewell gue tiba tiba jadi sedih. gue bakal kangen banget sama orang ini, tingkah lakunya, kekonyolannya, cara dia ketawa, cara dia makan, cara dia ngomong, cara dia ngambek, cara dia belajar pokoknya semuanya deh. dan tiba tiba gue jadi suka lagi sama ini orang dan dengan begonya gue nulis di gema!

sekarang, tinggal menghitung hari untuk masuk ke sekolah baru. gue sedikit ga siap sih buat ketemu temen2 dan kehidupan baru gue di sma. apalagi gue menyia nyiakan kesempatan buat foto bareng pas farewell selesai. dimana cuma tinggal sedikit panitia disitu, ga lebih dari 15 orang. gue duduk di kursi, memperhatikan orang itu dari kejauhan. gue memberanikan diri untuk minta foto bareng cuma gue terlalu gugup buat berdiri dan melangkah sehingga gue terlalu sibuk mengulur2 waktu. sampai sampai gue melihat dia melangkah pergi menuruni tangga, dan masuk ke dalam mobil. untuk pulang.

sekali lagi gue menyesal, itu kesempatan terakhir buat gue untuk ketemu orang ini. pas cap 3 jari juga gue ga ketemu orang ini. pas kelulusan juga gue sedikit curi2 pandang ke arah orang ini, cuma gue tetep ga berani mendekat sampai kesempatan itu hilang sendiri

inilah unrequited love. rasa cinta/sayang yang ga pernah terbalas sama seseorang karena kita terlalu ketakutan buat mengambil tindakan. jujur gue suka nyesel sampe sekarang, terkadang kalo gue buka buku bt gue suka stop di halaman itu untuk beberapa detik abis itu balik halaman selanjutnya. untuk selanjutnya, gue cuma bisa melihat orang itu hanyadari selembar kertas yang memajang senyuman khas dan tatapan childishnya.

semoga di sma nanti dia semakin dewasa, semoga 2013 dia masih inget sama gue dan insya Allah gue dianggap temen, dan semoga di sma dia bisa dapet cewek sesuai keinginan dia tapi jangan pernah deh nyakitin orang kayak dia. kalo sampe iya gue jamin cewek itu bakal nyesel deh!

ps. maaf ya gue cerita sampah mulu tentang trashy love thingy! gue cuma mau share aja kok :)

toodles! ,
risha

ku tertipu lagi oh uouou

2010-07-04T07:45:00.000-07:00

Itu judul kayak lagu maya ahmad -_- "lelaki buaya darat BUSYETTTT aku tertipu lagi uwouwo mulutnya manis sekali tapi hati bagai SRIGALA uwowo" hahahah jelas -_- ini maaf gue lagi gila. Ga sih gue ga nangis cuma gue cuma bisa ketawa ketawa aja deh liat tingkah laku si radit

Kan tadi siang gue iseng liat twitternya ternyata....dia di ex sama si jalanganjingtaibabibuntingbangsatbinasaajalo! Itu kan. Gue tadinya mau ke situ cuma ga ada temen :( mana kakak gue gamau! Ha tai nih padahal gue mau ngegap dia terus mau ngamuk2 sambil nampar bolak balik abis dia gamau jujur ha bangke.

Terus udah kan gue cuma bisa miris ngeliat si jalang ngetweet kan "Ih tanganku kecakar @IAMLILR" terus apalah upload2 foto foto radit ha bangke lo! Terus udah kan gue makin teriris kayak apaan tau hati gue udah campur aduk sampe2 gue tadi tidur siang mimpi makan bubur *ganyambung*

Dan yang paling nyesek adalah......

Jadi kan gini, 2-3 bulan yang lalu si radit pernah kan dp bbmnya kayak lagi dicium cewek gitu cuma dia edit2 jadi mukanya ga keliatan dan jadi kayak polaroid gitu kan. Dulu gue pernah nanya "itu dp kamu sama siapa?" "Oh itu sama sarah sodara aku ir" oke gue percaya2 aja kan. Dan tadi pas gue liat twitter sih jalang...ANJING AVATARNYA FOTO ITU! Jadi jadi jadi mereka udah balikan lagi gitu? Itukan udah lama banget dong? Anjir gue meras tertipu parah

Terus kan pas liat avatarnya gue shock sampe nganga lebay kan terus hp gue direbut sama kakak gue "ANJING APA APAAN NIH?" Kakak gua ngamuk wkwkkw terus gue ceritain kan terus dia bilang "gue mohon lo delete bbm dia! Gua gamau lagi liat lo deket2 sama dia! Anjing sampah!" Yaudah gue delete kan biar legaan dikit. Terus gue bilang ke syadza dan vania eh si syadza ikut2an emosi hahaha sabar ya sya gue aja ketawa ketawa doang
saking shocknya mau bilang apa T.T

Oh jadi itu ya dit alesan lo non aktifin fb? Mantan lo itu juga non aktifin fb. Jadi sebenernya status lo in a relationship ya? Kenapa sih lo tuh ga jujur aja? Fuck lo berdua monyet anjir kawin aja lo berdua! Udah deh lo gausah ngeyakinin kalo dia temen lo! Gue liat sih lo ngomong gue lo sama dia di twitter cuma cewek lo aja tuh yang make aku kamu wah jalangnya keliatan

Udah ah gue gamau lagi kenal kenal sama orang sejenis sama lo. Gue harap lo bisa dibales 2 kali lipat sama apa yang udah lo lakuin ke gue. Bukannya gue nyumpahin ya tapi gue pengen bikin lo sadar dan berubah jadi cowok yang baik kan lo udah dewasa. Gue kayak gini karena gue peduli sama lo, gue emang masih sayang sama lo mangkanya gue berdoa semoga lo diberi pelajaran. Gue pengeeeeen banget lo jadi cowok baik baik walaupun bukan sama gue. Gue pengen aja gitu ngeliat lo seneng gue juga seneng tapi ga gini caranya

toodles! ,
risha

its over

2010-07-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

gue memutuskan untuk pergi jauh jauh dari R. yaudah deh sebut aja ya Radit. gue ganyangka aja gue cuma jadi 'distraction' doang which is nyakitin banget. pertama ketauan kemaren jam 2 pagi. gue isneg buka2 formspring gue kan. ada pertanyaan dulu yang make acc radit. tapi diganti jadi nama mantannya. terus nama mantannya gue search di google. ada twitter kan. pas dibuka.....backgroundnya gambar vektor yang radit kasih ke dia. terus gue baca tweetnya ternyata mereka deket banget parah. gue ganyangka radit punya twitter soalnya dia ngaku ke gue gapunya.

gue baca tweetnya. ganyangka aku kamuan, sayang sayangan,jalan bareng, otpan, smsan, make panggilan khusus, segala macem deh. lebih lah daripada gue. temen ya dit? temen ga bakal kayak gitu. cewek itu ketauan banget kalo masih sayang sama radit. dan kayaknya radit juga masih sayang sama cewek itu.

bayangin dong gue nyeseknya kayak apa. diboongin terus terusan gapernah berenti. gue sampe gabisa tidur semaleman. pas tadi pagi gue sapa di bbm ga deli. gue sms baru dibales. pas gue introgasi dia ngakunya cuma temen? irasional banget kalo segitu tuh temen! dia gabisa banyangin kali ya sakitnya kayak apa.

sampe sekarang setiap gue baca tweetsnya bikin gue makin teriris. jujur gue udah terlalu sayang sama dia cuma gimana? apalagi tadi dia masang dp pergelangan tangan gue dengan tattoo "IRI" nama panjang dia :'( gue berusaha banget buat tegar, bangkit, dan tabah! tapi tetep belom bisa

mungkin doa gue terkabul. gue tiap malem selalu berdoa biar ditunjukkin dia serius apa engga. ternyata emang kebukti dia nyakitin gue doang. mungkin kalo betadine bisa nyembuhin sakit hati gue udah minum itu kali berbotol botol.

dari sini gue belajar. jangan pernah deh kenalan sama orang dari bbm. jangan pernah dimasukin ke hati, jangan pernah dengerin omongan manis yang ga terbukti. dari sini juga gue belajar, jangan terlalu menyayangi seseorang terlalu dalam. karena lo bakal tersesat dan susah nyari jalan keluar mskipun banyak titik terang. lo mau keluar tapi lo ragu memilih yang terbaik buat jalan yang bener. ngerti ga?

intinya gue mau bilang
Radit, gue terlalu sayang sama lo. cuma dengan ini gue gabakal balik buat sayang sama lo lagi, gue akan lakuin apapun demi ngelupain lo. tapi kalo lo deket sama mantan lo....ya gatau deh. lo ngejelk2in mantan lo ke gue tapi sekarang? ga kebukti bener. enough is enough. gue mau tinggal di kehidupan nyata. gue bakal bangkit dan suatu saat nanti gue bakal dapet seseorang yang lebih baik dan punya hati daripada lo. urusan tampang belakangan. semoga apa yang lo lempar ke gue bisa balik lagi ke lo layaknya boomerang. biar lo sadar, kayak apa rasanya jadi gue. bertahan 4 bulan buat sesuatu yang ga akan pernah ada. mempertahankan sesuatu yang cuma dalam bayang bayang.

dah, IRI!

toodles! ,
risha

welcoming july and my weirdest dream o.O

2010-06-30T19:44:00.000-07:00

Hey folks!

Semalem gue begadang boy jadi udah welkam lah ya sama bulan juli. Hmmm gue cuma berharap semoga bulan juli ini di sma 3 jakarta (sma gue yang baru) mosnya ga bikin bete. Bisa nahan emosi. Semoga gue bisa makin serius belajar di kelas. Semoga kakak kelas gantengnya sering lewat (ha...ha...HA!). Dan semoga lovelife gue semakin lancar deh :( soalnya gue udah males nunggu nunggu mulu terus kan katanya dia janji gitu mau jalan awas aja kalo sekali lagi gajadi! Udah deh gue tinggal aja abis kesel gila digantungin mulu udah 4 bulan oy! Gue takutnya ntar dia bisa suka2 lagi mentang2 gue bukan siapa siapanya dia haaaaaa gamau!!!!!! Egois

Terus ini tentang mimpi deh sekarang. Masa kan semalem gue mimpi indah campur random tapi berakhir na'as. Pertama kan gue ceritanya lagi jalan kan sama R cuma ceritanya dia make seragam putih abu2 sma sedangkan gue putih biru smp. Kita jalan sambil gandengan tangan gitu ke suatu tempat yang gue gatau ada dimana. Tapi disana banyak banget cewek2 cantik sma gitu jalan terus di depan gue sama R. Tapi gilirang ada cewek yang cantik banget dia ngelepas genggaman tangan gue terus jalan lebih cepet dan ngobrol2 sama cewek cantik itu. Jadi gue ditinggal sendirian di belakang. Tapi giliran ceweknya pergi dia balik lagi ke gue. Seneng sih sama R cuma....kenapa jadi gini? Ada yang bisa menafsirkan mimpi? Soalnya gue takut deja vu! Serius nih gue takut banget kayak gitu :(

toodles! ,
risha

27 things i'd do IF you're my boyfriend

2010-06-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

1. for God's sake, this time im gonna be faithful
2. wont be over protective
3. pinch your chubby cheek if you do something stupid
4. make you smile when you're down
5. put on a silly face, if you're way too serious
6. cherish every moment we've been through
7. stare at your eyes when we're talking
8. shake your hair
9. sing even if i cant
10.smile a lot
11.always try to make you laugh
12.text you every night to say "goodnight my dear, sleep tight!"
13.my hand will always find your hand
14.take a crazy pics
15.write "R" on my wrist every day
16.tell how much i love you every day
17.tell how much i'm gonna miss you every end of conversation
18.never wear too much make up, just natural
19.share all of my dreams and stories
20.never run out of love
21.battle dance with you, even tho you can dance better than me
22.believe on everything you do
23.appreciate you
24.make an apology when i did anything wrong
25.never let you down
26.always tell the truth, even if its ugly
27.love you just the way you are

why 27 things? why not 24? my favorite number?
nope
because 27 is date of his birthday so i think it's gonna be special

toodles! ,
risha

sekolah dan toys story 3

2010-06-22T07:40:00.000-07:00

halo semuanya!

tadi dong gue sekolah ehe seneng deh bisa ketemu lagi sama temen temen GDZN, tadi kan di sekolah pada ngambil buku BT, foto farewell, sama foto wisuda gitu. dan foto gue...GA BANGET! gendut banget gue disitu sumpah cuma bisa bikin gue malu harus diet mati matian nih gue udah gembrot banget ga nahan!

terus kan tadi gue ngegaul di gading sama vicky inong hanim dito kan rencananya kita mau notnon toys story 3 kan, berhubung film dimulainya baru jam 16.20 yaudah kita muter muter dulu aja. terus gue ke foodhall dulu mau beli minum, tadinya sih mau redbull cuma kok ga napsu ya -_- and and and akhirnya pilihan jatuh kepada minuman kola australia! enak deh soda soda gitu cuma botolnya aja yang kayak botol beer jadi kesannya gue tuh kewl abitch B)

terus pas filmnya mulai udah kan tuh kita duduk duduk dulu notnon film pendek ga jelas gitu. terus kan gue mau minum, eh botolnya susssaaaaah banget dibukanya. jadi gue cengo dulu baru deh inong yang paling perkasa bisa bukainnya, unyuuu. terus udah kan pas nonton agak ngakak dulu apalagi pas ada kata kata "terimakasih ken si pria berpakaian necis" hahaha NECIS! kenapa harus necis? terus gitu deh seru pokoknya lo nonton aja

udah ah gatau lagi ngomong apa, hmmmm

toodles! ,
risha

Each Tear - Mary J Blige

2010-06-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

There’s something that I want to say,
But I feel like don’t know how.
Still I just can’t hold it one more day,
So I think I let it out.

You’re on my mind more than I may sure
You’re in my heart more than you may know
And the last thing that I want,
Is to you to fall apart.
To you I will be clearer,
I want you to remember.

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Make you wiser than before ( wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

We can’t change the things,
That we done that’s in the past.
But fighting won’t get us anyway.
So if you want, Here’s my hand
Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and pray for you (pray for you)
And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart
To you I will be clearer
I want you to remember

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

Your much more than a struggle that you go trough
From nine till five I open things so let it go
You’ re not a victim, your more like a winner
And you’re not defeat you’ re more like a queen

In each tear
there’s a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger than you know)
In each tear ( in each tear)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

In each tear (each tear)
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know
In each tear ( Make you so much broke )
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be

No no we can’t be held out
No no oh noo I I I can’t held out
You you you can’t be held out
We we we can’t be held out

Love
It makes you so much stronger (stronger)
It makes you so much wiser (wiser)
In each tear (in each tear)
And You so close to your dreams and no dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak can’t take away you’re meant to be

toodles! ,
risha

aku......MINDER

2010-06-13T06:45:00.000-07:00

Hey guys whassup?

Gue mau cerita tentang kehebohan diri gue dan gue mengaku kalo gue itu stalker dan dengan berat hati gue mengaku kalo gue orangnya cemburuan dan pengecut. Bisa dibilang gue mendekati sampah....oh tunggu, gue EMANG sampah

Pertama oke lo tau lah ya gue lagi deket sama R. The bad news is gue udah tau 3 dari sekian mantan2nya yang bejibun itu. Daan setelah gue teliti (gue stalker sejati) gue dapet 3 nama mantan2nya yang *ehem* CANTIK SEMUA (brb kecewa)

Kalo yang pertama (sebut saja E) oke si R udah lama pernah curhat tentang E yang masya Allah over protective banget kayak seorang ibu ibu kelas atas yang melarang anaknya salah gaul. Contact cewek dihapus, gaboleh trima telfon cewek, hp harus ceweknya yang megang, semua job fotografi dan modelnya disuruh ditolak! Parah banget. Dan kabarnya, mereka pasangan putus nyambung 2,5 tahun *GULP* dan putus hampir satu tahun yang lalu

Yang bulan lalu gue ketahui namanya K, dia ini lebih tua daripada si R (belakangan ini gue sadar, mantan R rata rata lebih tua daripada umurnya!) Makin minder karena gue jaug dari tipe dan sepertinya gue cewek paling muda T.T menyedihkan. Oiya gue tau ini cewek karena R pernah cerita ini cewek nyanyi lagu never again pas mereka putus dan si R pas ngeliat video ini di youtube hampir nangis dan setelah gue search di youtube ketemu dan pas gue buka fbnya....cantik sodara sodara + suaranya bagus. Oke makin minder lagi

Nah yang baru aja gue ketahui sekarang adalah....FINALIS GOGIRL 2010! Liat aja nomer 20 kan gogirl gue ilang terus gue minta tolong vania liatin. Terus namanya si D nah dia gada fb cuma punya twitter. Pas gue liat avatarnya....CANTIK BANGET! Tai gue makin minder parah,badannya bagus, 164cm 49 kg tahun 93 T.T seumuran kakak gue ya Allah gue mah gada apa apanya dibanding cewek ini

Dan sekarang gue ngepost dari hp, jadi ngetik tangan gue agak gemeteran (lebay parah) cuma gue pengen jujur aja disini. Gue pengen sharing aja apa yang gue rasain kepada orang orang yang udah baca blog gue. Gue makasih banget lo semua udah baca sampah sampah gue

Gue berpikiran....apa gue ngundurin diri aja ya? Pertama... Gue udah ga sesuai kriteria cewek dia banget, rambut panjang (sekarang rambut gue pendek), kulit hitam eksotis (gue hitam buluk), mukanya manis (gue kayak pengemis), dan dia suka cewek big boobs (gue kayak papan selancar)

Kok miris banget ya? Kok dia bisa naksir ya sama gue? (JIAH PEDE) eh tapi serius....apa kelebihan gue dibanding mereka? Apa yang dia liat dari gue? Apa yang bisa buat dia jatuh cinta? Apa yang membuat cowok yang susah-mampus-jatuh-cinta kayak dia bisa milih gue? Sedangkan gebetan gue yang dulu muak banget sama gue, padahal sifat mereka sama persis! Apa yang dia liat perbedaan gue dengan cewek cewek lain?

Minder....cemburu....takut...tuhkan ah jadi kepikiran! Kalo minder dan cemburu lo tau kan alesannya kenapa. Kalo takut? Oke mungkin menurut lo "apa sih si risha, sok puitis anjir menjijikan hoeeeek najis kepedean iyalah lo kayak babu" segala macem. Tapi gue cuma satu nih ketakutan gue sama dia.

Gue takut kehilangan dia.

toodles! ,
risha

lets here what @RelationForUs says

2010-06-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

LAHIR SENIN: periang, memiliki rasa humor yang tinggi, suka berbuat sesuatu yang menyenangkan orang lain

LAHIR BULAN JULI: suka menghayal, pandai bicara dan berotak cerdas, suka menolong sesama

#warnakesukaan KUNING: optimis, periang, senang bergaul, berjiwa sosial

R: membutuhkan seseorang yang dapat sesuai dengan kamu, tidak menunjukan perasaan cinta dengan jujur

PHEONIX (25 juni-24 JULI): optimis, berfikiran positif, mudah beradaptasi, tidak suka keramaian, suka menyendiri

SHIO BABI: teman yang baik, orang yang pinta dengan kebutuhan yang kuat untuk mencapai apapun, toleran dan jujur

LEO: gaya kalian memang unik, itu yang membuat orang-orang merasa beda di dekat kalian

#yangpalingbisadipercaya golongan darah A karena konsisten dan taat hukum

#temanyangdisukai GOL A: tepat waktu dan bertanggung jawab

Kenapa ya agak membuat gue ge-er? Tapi emang sih ada yang bener juga tapi menurut lo gue orangnya gitu ga ya?

toodles! ,
risha

old song, but i still love it!

2010-06-10T03:12:00.000-07:00

(Best I Ever Had - Drake)

You know a lot of girls be thinkin' my songs are about them
This is not to get confused, this one's for you

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Know you got a roommate, call me when it's no one there
Put the key under the mat, and you know I'll be over there
I'll be over there, shawty, I'll be over there
I'll be hitting all the spots that you ain't even know was there

Ha and you all ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice
Always felt like you was so accustomed to the fast life
Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past life

Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make-up on
That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong
You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringin' Drake along
You know that I'm working, I'll be there soon as I make it home

And she a patient in my waiting room
Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume
And until them girls prove it
I'm the one they never get confused with

'Cause baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Sex, love, pain, baby, I be on that tank shit
Buzz so big, I could probably sell a blank disk
When my album drop, bitches will buy it for the picture
And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister

Magazine, paper, girl, but money ain't the issue
They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initial
She call me the referee 'cause I be so official
My shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make your pussy whistle

Like the Andy Griffith theme song
And who told you to put them jeans on
Double cup love, you the one I lean on
Feeling for a fix then you should really get your fiend on

Yeah, just know my condo is the crack spot
Every single show she out there reppin' like a mascot
Get it from the back and make your fucking bra strap pop
All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpot

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

Uh, uh yeah, see this the type of joint
You got to dedicate to somebody
Just make sure they that special somebody
Young Money
Ya, ya, you know who you are, I got you

toodles! ,
risha

cie curhat

2010-06-02T19:19:00.000-07:00

alah bingung gue mau ngasih judulnya apaan hmmm ga penting kan ya? yaudah skip. masa masa masa tadi semaleman gue ga tidur (bangga) sumpah ga ngantuk sama sekali dari kamar aja gue denger nyokap gue sahur, ngitungin bolak balik kamar mandi, denger suara azan, aduh berasa malaikat deh gue ga tidur (najis ini norak banget)

eh eh malem ini bb gue balik loh n.n TAPI.....ini ada tapinya ya
1)bb gue masih garansi, jadi ganti UTUH dan tipe SAMA
2)ganti pin (ini agak mengiris hati) soalnya di belakang pin gue ada terselip nama gebetan gue dulu ehe heh norak
3)CONTACT ILANG! ini yang paling penting soalnyaaaaa ada nomer dylan, cuma itu satu satunya cara buat gue bisa berhubungan. udah ilang. wassalam. jangan harap bertemu kembali T.T
4) NOTES ILANG! ini lebih nyesek puruh, masalahnya banyak chatlog, ADA CHATLOG SAMA ADIT INSOMNIA YANG PANJANGNYA NAUJUBILE, ada ada PUISI! oke yang pusisi gue ga nulis ya tapi kan si you know who ngasih ke gue huhu ilang deh, maaf ya :( ada 2 sih satu gue hafal satu kagak heheh oke gapenting

ah bete tapi sekaligus seneng akhirnya setelah 1,5 minggu penantin bb gue kembali ke genggaman n.n ini gue apa apaan deh make emoticon --> n.n mulu dari kemaren wkwkw abis kocak aja n itu matanya kayak seneng banget trus mulunya mengkrucut.....oke sha ga lucu

dan sekarang liburan ini kenapa ya gue merasa gada perubahan? ya muka sama rambut sih berubah ---> ada bekas luka + RAMBUT EMOH! YOU RAWKKKK \m/ oke e-nuff tapi perutku ini loh, kalo bediri biasa sih rata tapi kalo duduk...ga jamin deh gue. padahal udah nyoba olahraga kecil, ga ngemil, makan besar cuma 1 kali sehari lainnya makan seiprit, minum ampe 5 pitcher sendiri tapi sama aja tuh. kasian ya gue perut karet makan dikit langsung melar. ya mending melarnya di tete nah ini di pantat! suatu tempat yang tidak pernah gue harapkan. karena....ga imbang dong gedean pantat tapi tete gue tepos??? oke cukup frontal menyebutkan anggota tubuh disini tapikan ceritanya mau curhat

mhhh mhhh mhh mhhh apa apaan kayak orang ngeden, gue mau ngapain ya sekarang? hmm bingung. ah sumpah gue pengen liburan kek tapi ke PANTAI ya plisplisss pasti di bali banyak bule aussie soalnya disana kan winter pasti mau tanning disini n.n tuhkan emoticonnya ah ayolah kita ke bali. gue sih pengennya geng cabul ke bali, terus gausah tanning juga udah gosong kwkwkw miris sekaleh. okelah cukup untuk curcolnya

toodles! ,
risha

2010-05-30T10:43:00.000-07:00

"Love needs patience, time, effort, and trust each other .. but from all the definition of love is that if you dared to love someone, then you also have to be brave and ready to lose that person even if it hurts but it is the most precious moments for you because you could see the person you love smile broadly, even tho s/he's not with you" - Irisha Dwi Karima

sorry

2010-05-29T09:06:00.000-07:00

i made a mistake. a BIG mistake. and he said this on my sister's bbm...

"go ahead and say goodbye, i'll be alright. go ahead and make me cry, i'll be alright. and when you need a place to run to..for better for worse, i got you" -leona lewis
"kes, kasih itu ke adek lo ya"
"sumpah demi Allah swt kes gue ga mainin adek lo"
"dia minta gue buat menjauh, tapi gue gabisa kes. bener bener gabisa"

hmmmmmmm i'm so sorry! sumpah maksud gue tuh bukan gituuuuu aduh salah paham mulu nih :(

toodles! ,
risha

sorry hannah!

2010-05-27T11:50:00.000-07:00

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: Hannah, 17, female, UK and you are?
You: Jake, 18, male, usa
Stranger: nice to meet you Jake
Stranger: which part of the US are you from?
You: nice to meet you too Hannah
You: los angeles
You: you?
Stranger: wow well you are the first person to on here who's been from LA
You: haha really? awesome then
Stranger: I'm originally from Edinburgh but live in London
You: oh i see then
You: what time is it there?
Stranger: 19;25
You: pm?
Stranger: yup
You: wow
Stranger: how about where you are
Stranger: noon?
You: its 12:36 here
Stranger: lucky you - you've still got the whole day ahead of you
Stranger: :)
You: haha yea, but its boring tho
You: i wish its night
Stranger: how come
You: i dunno, i just like a silent night
Stranger: don't you just love that time of day when you are just about to go to sleep and you are lying in bed just thinking about random stuff?
Stranger: its the best time of the day
You: hahah yep
You: but this days reminds me of someone
Stranger: ah who>
Stranger: ?
You: my ex :(
You: sorry
Stranger: aw dear
Stranger: sorry to hear
You: thats okay
You: and thats one of the reasons i dont like days
You: just a silent night, where there's a peaceful place in my whole life trying to forget about her
Stranger: yeah well that's the best thing to do - talking from experience I like walking outside in the dark especially on cool evenings when you feel totally alone and there's enough room to just think
Stranger: and forget
You: yea thats true
You: but i cant get her out of my mind
Stranger: how recently ago did you break up?
You: i mean, ive never been like this. i used to be a player but when im with her, felt like i was bend on my knee
You: 5 months
Stranger: wow she seemed to have a big impact on you
You: yea she is
Stranger: what went wrong? (if you don't mind me asking)
You: there's a bitch who told her that i made her pregnant, and my gf believed her
You: because she knew that i was a player
You: but she didnt knew that i was change because of her
Stranger: did you tell her that?
You: yea, i tried to call her but she didnt wanna talk to me anymore
Stranger: ah well i guess there's nothing much you can do
Stranger: just try and do something to occupy your mind
Stranger: do you play sports or like music/?
You: yea i guess
You: yep, i like sports and music
Stranger: well just immerge yourself in those for a while until it gets less and less difficult to think about her
You: yea i guess, hey how about i fly to her house?
Stranger: what do you mean 'fly to her house'
You: she's uhm... we live in a different country
Stranger: oh wow
Stranger: where does she live??
You: indonesia
You: well shes indonesian, but she lived here once
Stranger: well i can see how its difficult for you then
Stranger: maybe you should speak to a counsellor or something
You: yea maybe i should
Stranger: i dunno i'm no good with this kind of stuff
You: or should i find a new one?
Stranger: well i though you wanted to eradiacte your player image
Stranger: but you did say it's been 5 monthsd
You: yea
You: well i dated 5 girls after we broke up
You: but its not working
Stranger: maybe you should just have a break from girls for a while
Stranger: until you are ready to fully devote yourself to another meaningful relationship
Stranger: b/c it's not fair on the girl if you are constantly thinking about your ex
You: yea youre totally right
You: so i might be single for a very long time
Stranger: well you never know
You: yea
Stranger: the first few months are the worst
Stranger: i'm sure after a few more
Stranger: maybe a summer romance is on the cards?
You: great idea!
You: okay maybe ill send her a postcard
You: or, should i buy a ticket to indonesia?
Stranger: before you do anything rash
Stranger: and if you really want to contact her
Stranger: send her a handwritten letter explaining everything
Stranger: its the best method of expressing yourslef
You: hmmm okay then
You: thanks for everything
Stranger: and then if you dont hear anything just drop it
Stranger: cos thats all you can do
You: yea i should, oh god
You: wish me luck
Stranger: good luck!
Stranger: i'll be thinking about you
You: thanks :)
Stranger: hope everything goes well
You: thank you very much
Stranger: no probs
Stranger: bye xx
You: byee

sorry hannah! masa kata dito gue feelnya ngena banget kayak bule asli! wkwkwk katanya dia juga bakal ketipu kali hmm hmm jago kan?

toodles! ,
risha

graduation...YEAY

2010-05-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

today is our graduation's day, and it was amazing :D finally i graduate from my beloved labschool junior high! and yea im gonna miss my #16 GEESDRIFTZESTIEN! i still remember those amazing memories we've been through together :') oh shit i'll miss you soooo damn much guys, and especially...

1

2

3
oke males sok inggris -_-

gue ga mau ngasih tau ah siapa orangnya cuma mungkin sebagian besar lo semua pada tau sih siapa orangnya. oke gue dulu pernah suka sama dia sekitar hmm 1 tahun sih. walaupun gue jadian sama orang lain tapi adalah dia nyantol dipikiran gue walaupun cukup berkurang. gue tau kok kalo dia tau gue suka banget sama dia, tapi sayangnya cinta gue bertepuk sebelah tangan JENG JEEEEEEEENG CINTA DITOLAK DUKUN BERTINDAK! okay ga gitu.

cuma ya gitu semenjak kelas 9, mungkin karena suatu hal yang bikin gue ilfeel gue agak berkurang rasa suka ke dia jadi gue udah yayaya whatever lah ya ke dia. cuma sekarang gue udah lulus, gue jadi kepikiran dia lagi gara gara satu orang sialan ya emang minta dicium ke tembok gue jadi kepikiran lagi. dan demi apapun, gue bakal kangen banget sama LO!

gue pengen bilang gue bakal kangen banget sama lo. mungkin lo cowok yang gue kangenin di #16 selain dito. cuma lo sama dito doang. tapi gue gapunya keberanian lah buat bilang gila aja muka gue mau ditaro di mana? udah lah gue mau nyimpen aja deh. ya semoga aja gue bener bener bisa lupain lo ya amin amin semoga lo dapet cewek yang baik dan sayang sama lo ya. dan semoga lo masih inget sama gue. itu aja udah cukup banget kok buat gue

bye bye fellas!

toodles! ,
risha

99 facts about guys, from dochi's blog -_-

2010-05-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

99 facts about guys
bold on the "this guy" facts

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

toodles! ,
risha

we are one - kautsar and abby

2010-05-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

kautsar kan tadi nyapa gue di msn, bilang katanya dia sama abby bikin lagu buat angkatan. terus dia send lagunya kan terus gue dengerin. gue ga gitu konsen dengerinnya jadi gue minta lirik lagunya kan. pas gue dengerin dengan cermat sambil baca liriknya anjiiiiir gue nangis, nih liriknya....

(verse1)

That is true,
I’m the one who have my lap for you
To cry as long as you want to
I’m that one, the one for you

(reff)
You can lay and sleep
Take a rest with me here
Cause I’m what you need
And you’re what I need

(verse2)
I’m pleased to be part of our journey
I promise we will be together forever
Even tho’ this is not Barney’s show
Oh god, I’ll miss you guys

(bridge)
We are one for sure (one for sure)
Time will not wreck us part (wreck us part)
Through all the reckless abandon (reckless abandon)
And things we’ve done

yang gue kasih tanda bold itu bagian gue nangis haaaa haaaa haaa kalo mau lagunya minta kautsar aja ya oke?
I LOVE MY #16 GEESRDRIFTZESTIEN!

toodles! ,
risha

my beloved...#16 geesdriftzestien

2010-05-11T20:54:00.000-07:00

hai bloggers! udah lumayan lama nih gue ga ngeposting. keasikan liburan gitu ehe ehe
okay here we go

kemaren adalah hari farewell #16 gdzn which is hasil kerja keras para panitia farewell(termasuk gue) yang dinilai angkatan sendiri terbilang sukses. gue puas banget udah bisa ngasih yang terbaik buat gdzn, karena cuma di gdzn gue bisa belajar mana yang namanya temen sejati, mana yang namanya muka dua, mana yang namanya orang jahat, mana yang namanya "gebet menggebet" segala macem

gue ga nyangka yang dulu gue mengira gabakal dapet temen di smp, bakal jadi anak baik segala macem di smp, bakal boring karena belajar mulu, temenannya cuma anak satu sd dulu tapi setelah 3 tahun itu semua kebukti ga bener. gue temenan kok sama gdzn, kita bahkan ngerasain memori yang bener bener ngena banget. buat gue yang seru tuh : salam (awal awal kenalan), saksi, pas labs kebakaran (musibah bikin tingkat kesadaran solidaritas kita semakin tinggi dan kuat), invita jogja, pensi 2008 yang sukses berat, amt. tapi diluar semua itu, masih banyak kenangan yang masih esimpen fresh di otak gue

gue masih inget kok kejadian kelas 7 yang pas mainnya musuh musuhan. gue justru beruntung pernah dimusuhin karena gue jadi makin sadar diri dan belajar buat jaga sikap bagaimana cara diterima orang sekitar mana yang perlu dikurangin dan ditambahin semuanya berkat bantuan dari gdzn. pas kelas 8, 7fraternize kan paa mencar (soalnya dulu gue cuma temenan sama anak 1 kelas doang) nah dari situ gue mulai mengenal anak anak kelas lain dan ternayat luar biasa seru banget. ga nyangka gue punya temen se seru angkatan 16 geesdriftzestien!

inget ga jogja kita ngapain aja? inget ga pas jaman jaman tau omegle? inget ga kita sering ngecengin meika tiap hari nonstop? padahal cuma meika satu satunya yang paham sama curhatan gue dan dia juga curhat rahasia ke gue eh ehe ehe booobbbbiiiiieeesss canda meik

tapi gila ya semuanya udah berlalu aja. farewell juga udah lewat. puas banget gue dirangkul di pinggang sama surya insomnia terus dia gue rangkul balik. puas banget nonton ran paling depan pas di farewell. tapi yang paling nyesek pas renungan tuh. belom mulai aja gue vinda anis udah nangis nangisan. biasalah geng cabul kebanyakan aib bule buat seru seruan jadi kenangannya banyak banget. ya Allah ntar di sma gimana ya?

apakah mungkin ntar gue dapetin temen seangkatan se seru dan sekompak mereka? apakah mungkin ntar gue bisa punya temen yang bisa gue percaya dan bukan tipe anak social climber? dan apakah mungkin kalo misalnya sma, gdzn pasti kepisahkan...terus kita bakal main bareng ga ya? apa mereka bakal membelakangi gue dan beralih dengan teman barunya? ngelupain gue gitu aja? jangan sampe ya Allah..

tapi buat geesdrifzestien, KALIAN ADALAH YANG TERBAIK! I LOVE Y'ALL!

toodles! ,
risha

just saying... ga maksud apa apa kok wek

2010-05-09T06:09:00.000-07:00

oba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa, mewujudkan bahagia,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

wohoho.. dudududu…
wohoho.. dudududu…

yang ku inginkan..
satu tujuan..
sebuah kenyataan..
bukan impian..
bukan harapan..
bukan alasan..
satu kepastian..

coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..

ga kok cuma ngepost doang horeeee 2 hari lagi farewell terus besoknya PITBULL! oiya HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA VINDA semoga panjang umur, sehat selalu, makin pinter, makin miip karolina kurkova, suaminya bule amin

toodles! ,
risha

sup sup?

2010-04-25T10:12:00.000-07:00

hey wassup guys? haha sok asik

okey ini gue masih mau menceritakan keanehan si itu ya you know lah. masa ya kan waktu hari apa gitu kemaren ya? iyia kalo gasalah kan vania ganti bb tuh cie cie terus dia nulis di twitter pinnya kan terus gue rt gue add...EH GATAUNYA SI ITU NGE ADD VANIA! masa alasannya dapet pin vania dari chiki coba! aduh dodolnya kelewatan

terus dia cerita banyak banget sama vania ngebacot segala macem ampe si vania gedeg kali haha maaf ya van gue terlalu sabar buat orang se autis dia -____- by the way itu doang sih

oke gapenting yaudahlah menuhin postingan aja. sebenernya potingan gue udah 170an tapi kebanyakan di draft ehe ehe oke ga penting

toodles! ,
risha

mari kita ngerjain orang

2010-04-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

Stranger: hi
You: hey
You: asl?
Stranger: 19 indonesian
Stranger: you?
You: m or f?
Stranger: f
You: im 19 male
Stranger: from?
You: america
Stranger: what are you doing ?
You: just chatting lol
You: u?
Stranger: watching tv
You: in which part of indonesia do u live?
Stranger: jakarta
Stranger: how about you ?
You: jakarta? really?
Stranger: yeah, why ?
You: im from pennsylvania
You: lol i have a gf there
Stranger: really?
You: haha yea
Stranger: is she live in there now ?
You: she live in indonesia
You: actually, she's indonesian
You: just like u
Stranger: oooh i see.. yayaya
Stranger: so you have long distance realtionship?
You: yep
Stranger: how can ?
You: well. because i live here lol
Stranger: how you met her at first ?
You: well, last year i went to bali
You: for holiday of course
You: and then i saw her, she's beatiful so i get to know her
Stranger: yeaaaah.. i love bali so much
You: yea me too
Stranger: i plan to go to bali this july
You: really? same!
Stranger: so when you visit bali again ?
Stranger: really ?
You: this summer
Stranger: with your friends ? or alone ?
You: with my family of course
You: because my fam wanna meet her
Stranger: aa sweet :)
You: thank you
You: but she's very young
Stranger: how old is she ?
You: she's 15 this year
Stranger: wow.. still in junior high school rite?
You: yea i guess
You: but she's cute enough lol
Stranger: well okaaay..
You: do you have facebook?
Stranger: are you going to collage ?
Stranger: yes i have
You: yeah haha
You: whats your facebook?
Stranger: what's your name??
You: u first
Stranger: arlienda permana
You: k wait
Stranger: you?
You: i'll add you
Stranger: ok
You: wait
You: which one are you on you pp?
You: your
Stranger: guess which one ?
You: right?
You: left?
Stranger: left
You: but i like the right one lol
You: what's her name?
Stranger: sendria
You: wow
You: but i like my gf more haha
Stranger: nice
You: yep
You: do you know labschool?
Stranger: yes i know really know
You: really?
You: it's my gf school!
Stranger: oooh..
Stranger: which one of labschool?
You: idk
You: rawa something
Stranger: you mean labschool rawamangun
Stranger: i know surely
You: yea yea!
You: shit how come i forgot lol
Stranger: never mind
Stranger: how long you have that relationship with her?
You: hmm 6 months
Stranger: oo i see
Stranger: what's your name ?
You: my name is zack
Stranger: full name ?
You: zack green
Stranger: really?
You: yea why?
Stranger: ooh nothing
You: lol
You: g2g
You: bye

mangstabs liat aja korban gue di fb oke?

toodles! ,
risha

he made this!

2010-04-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

Gatau ada ujan ada badai, dia tiba tiba ngirim bbm gini ke gue! Gue kira kan lirik lagu ya eh gataunya dibikin sendiri

No time to take with us
it is running too fast
and I'm running out of nerve
so I'm going to say this before it leaves me bare

I'm falling for you and I didn't even know it
I'm falling so hard sometimes it hurts
I'm falling for you and I can't stop it
I'm falling for you and I don't know if I want to

embarrassed and breathless
my heart could explode out of my chest
leave me with no heart at all
but here I go anyway

I'm falling for you and I didn't even know it
I'm falling so hard sometimes it hurts
I'm falling for you and I can't stop it
I'm falling for you and I don't know if I want to

scared of the landing
could be everything I wanted
could be the worst mistake I make
I'm going to say this before my paranoia gets the better of me

I'm falling for you and I didn't even know it
I'm falling so hard sometimes it hurts
I'm falling for you and I can't stop it
I'm falling for you and I don't know if I want to

ready for the floor to fall out under me
but your so confident
and the more I look at you the more I lose my strength
so listen closely because my voice is failing

I'm falling for you and I didn't even know it
I'm falling so hard sometimes it hurts
I'm falling for you and I can't stop it
I'm falling for you and I don't know if I want to

that's all I wanted to say

Sekaget kagetnya gue gapernah sekaget ini I mean like gue gapernah bener bener dibuat orang segitu sukanya!
Aneh aja gue ga kenal dia, terus karena suatu hal bisa deket dan kaerna emang nyambung dan punya banyak kesamaan jadi bener bener gimana ya? Ngerasa enak aja gitu, dia bisa bikin gue suka dari sisi yang berbeda. Jujur ya gue gapernah suka sebelomnya sama orang yang suka sama gue duluan (walaupun ujungnya jadi pacar)
Ih seru juga ya kalo kayak gini caranya, jadi lebih nangkep -____- udah ah tidur ya ninight R

toodles! ,
risha

UN dan lainnya

2010-03-31T03:29:00.000-07:00

Heyyyyyyyy sup?

Udah lama ga ngepost, hhh sibuk belajar (sok) bythegay besok hari terakhir UN (YESSSSS) dan besok itu fisika yaaa mampus aja gue. Gue kan paling gabisa biologi ha ha apalagi tentang hewan lalala segala macem, tapi kalo pencemaran bisa lah ya make make logika dikit bisa dong. Kalo fisika sih masalah ngafalin rumus optimis bisa! Amin. Kalo bahasa indonesia? Yaaa baca yang teliti, inggris? Tau deh, matematika? Anjiir lebih susah daripada to! Ga gitu sih cuma ada satu soal yang ganggu banget...gagal dapet 100!

Terus rencananya besok mau having funnnnnn!!!! Besok mau ke kantor java beli presale tiket PITBULL! Terus abis itu mau maen futsal rame2 sama anak cowok (kalo beneran jadi) terus yaudah gatau lagi deh, binguuuung

Dan satu lagi deh curcol tentang baju lagi (bosen bosen deh lo, kalo muak juga gapapa kok)
Maaf agak lebay tapi...gue kangeeeeeen banget sama lo! Terakhir bbman hari hmmm minggu kalo ga salah krik krik itumah udah lama banget! Kangen pengen nyapa cuma gue gamau aja takut dibilang agresif lah segala macem. Tapi semenjak suka sindir2an dia agak berubah gitu aaaaa jangan sampe ya Allah! Aaaa kangen banget sama lo yang waktu ituuu yang masih baik, ngelawak mulu, tukang frontal yang bener bener ga jaim sama gue, ih mau banget!!!! Jangan sampe deh lo berubah lagi gara gara satu cowok yang sama... PLIS DEEEEEH itu kan sodaranya temen gueee dan gue juga cuma suka chat sama bales2an twitter doang kok sama dia ga lebih HELLO! Harus berapa kali lagi sih buat yakinin lo? Semoga lo ga php ya sama gue, kan lo udah janji kan ga php sama gue? Hahah malah lo yang nuduh gue phpin lo....cacat lu -_- terus terus inget ga yang pas lo bilang "gue mau nungguin lo aja deh biar lo yakin sama gue, gue bener2 shock sha sumpah!" Hahaha gue seneng banget tuh lo shock gara gara gue ngomong itu sama lo. Udah ada buktinya kan? Yaudah semoga kita masih baik2 aja ya

Eh eh waktu minggu lo kan bilang "kita berantem mulu ya?" "Hahaah emang maunya gimana?" "Gue maunya kita baik2 aja :)" hehehe cacat lo sha gapenting ah

Yaudah itu aja sih maaf lebay, useless di blog ngomongin cowok mulu, yaudah deh babay semoga nem diatas 37! Masuk sma 68/3!!!! AMIN AMI YA ALLAH

toodles! ,
risha

confession

2010-03-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

hello all! just like my title, i want to confess something from the deepest of my heart (if that's what we called)

have i already tell you about my new crush? well.. we're fine thanks and we're getting closer each other (hell yeaaaah) but, there's something that hurt me much. no. it's not about my new crush... but it's about D

yea y'all know who is D, aight? there's something really surprising me when i opened my facebook account this morning. then i found D has change his facebook status like this :

"goin to delete ma facebook account soon.too much hurts i felt.so its time to let it (all) go.uhm..thanks for becomin my facebook's buddy"

eh-ma-GAWD! i felt guilty. well, even tho he's just my ex but.. i can't let him go. lol you can call me a bitch-that-cant-move-on and greedy. and for you D, i'm terribly sorry about that. i'm such a stupid girl that doesn't care about everybody's feelings. but please DON'T GO AWAY!!!!

p.s. sorry for my bad grammar hahah i'm still learning :)

toodles! ,
risha

babooshka!

2010-03-14T03:59:00.001-07:00

apanoh judulnya? gue juga ga ngerti asal gomong aja -_______-

masa masa masa masa gue kan tadi nyapa si baju di bbm eh gadibales ya Allaaaaaah beda banget ya sama 5 hari yang lalu yang baiknya minta ampun. kangen deh masa masa dia belom sejahat ini sama gue. sekarang apa? nyesel kan waktu itu gue nolak gara gara belom ketemuan? emang ya gue tolol dipiarau

terus sekarang gimana dong? dia jadi cuek kan sama lo? dia itu jadi kesel sama gue ya ampun gue salah ape sihhh? selalu aja kayak gini ah nyesel gue dilahirin jadi cewek semua serba salah, di phpin terus, cuma bisa nunggu, cuma bisa sabar, lama lama gue nikah sama cewek aja deh

toodles! ,
risha

._.

2010-03-14T00:38:00.000-08:00

Hey there! How are you? It's been a long time since my last post, mau curcol dikit ah daripada di twitter tempat frontalitas mendingan disini aja kan pada jarang buka blogger:)

Gue lagi bete mampussss sama orang ada lah kita sebut aja baju. Kenapa deh harus baju? Ya pokoknya intinya nama dia jadi baju aja.

Gue gatau ya gue salah apa ya Allaaaah gue selalu disindir sindir terus sama si baju tentang bule segala macem, dia selalu nanya gue lagi deket sama bule apa orang lain? HELLOOOOO cuma lo doang onyon yang bener bener gue suka ya ampun susah ya bikin lo percaya kalo cuma lo doang isssshhhh pengen gue kocok kocok pala lo biar mikir lebih jernih kalo gue BENER BENER SUKA BANGET sama lo!

Lo emang bikin gue suka sama lo, tapi ada beberapa cara ngomong lo yang gue gasuka dan nyakitin gue tau ga? Gue ga sekali dua kali dibikin nangis badmood segala macem sama lo, tapi gue gabisa bales sama lo karena gue gabisa marah sama lo. Bener bener gabisa banget marah sama orang kayak lo. Tapi apaan? Semenjak "insiden bbm" lo jadi berubah kan? Maksud lo apa gamau ngarep sama gue lagi? Lo kira gue mainin lo apa? Engga ya. Gue gapernah tuh mainin lo. Semenjak lo gasuka gue bahas cowok lain juga gue udah gapernah ngomong apa apa kok. Kok lo egois sih?

Dan sekarang gue mau nanya ya juuuu sama lo, sebenernya kita itu gimana sih? Dibilang temen juga udah lebih, htsan juga bukan, pacar hampir tapi bukan, jadi kita apaan dong? Sumpah ya gue berasa ngegantung baju kalo gini caranya. Salah dikit gue disalahin, seneng dikit gue dibaikin, marah gue dijadiin pelampiasan. Oke serah lo yaaa tapi gue gabisa marah ah binguuuung

Yaudah itu aja sih curcolnya hahah maaf ya ga jelas gue juga bingung tadi gue ngomong apaan, oke?

toodles! ,
risha

♥.♥

2010-02-28T23:39:00.000-08:00

Hell-o sunshine!

Udah lama ga ngepost, mau dirajinin ah biar rame. Kan pada ngurus tumblr tuh(tumblr gue gada yang urus) jadi pasti pada jarang buka blogger jadiiii eke mau nulis disini

Pertama tama, gue mau bilang...
Lo pernah ga dibuat tergila gila sama seseorang yang lo gapernah kepikiran di otak lo?
Lo gatau dia darimana tapi dia dateng dan bikin lo jadi suka?
Demi apapun gue baru kali ini ngerasain kayak gitu. Bukan..ini bukan bule! Soalnya gue suka sebel pasti kalo gue cerita "eh gue lagi suka sama orang nih" pasti pada nanya "bule apa lokal?" Sialan.

Eniwey, ini orang tuh baik bangetttt dan hobi dia hampir sama kayak gue + cita cita yang sama ---> ARSITEK BEYBEH! Yaudah sih -_-
Yayaya yaudah gitu aja sih cuma ya gimana yaaa aduh gue jadi gajelas nih aaa abis gue gapernah suka sama orang ampe segininya. Ya biasanya kan gue suka sama orang tapi dianya gausuka/gakenal sama gue (derita lo sha) tapi ini beda banget!
Seneng, deg-degan, gimana ya? Susah dijelasin

Yowes lah cuma mau crita itu doang, yang bisa nebak diem aja ya terutama SYADZA si frontal twitter.bitch. Candaaa :p

toodles! ,
risha

astajim

2010-02-26T04:01:00.000-08:00

EHMAGAWD!!!!

Seneng banget ya ampuuuun wall gue dibales lewat comment fb terus...DI LIKE!
Ampun deh senengnya setengah mati malah ganteng bangeeeet, statusnya anak JIS tuh, bener ga ya? Kalo sampe iya boleh tuh gue ajak anis sama vinda kesono (idih ngapain coba)

toodles! ,
risha

random post

2010-02-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

Just realized, it's been 9 days since our last conversation. Now I don't know where the heck you are. You've changed a lot since our first break up, now you make me want to do this again

First thing first, you always lied to me. I knew it, but I keep trying to believe in you.
Second, you've never showed yourself
Third, I think you're fake
And..

You blamed everything on me, that's why I hate you but sometimes I kinda miss you :s
Well, now all I have to say is just a simple goodbye
And I think I've found your replacement! HAHA oh no, not the-hot-guy-you're-jealous-of! But he's the new one :p

toodles! ,
risha

dizzy - day 26

2010-02-12T04:56:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, I wanna post this song lyrics. I looove this song because it reminds me of someone who asked me "did u know dizzy-day26?" And I said no, when I listen to it feels like dayuuum this song was
soooo true

[Verse 1: Mike]
You got me goin' thru my blackberry, deletin' every number or message from any girl that
Isn't you
You got me callin' my momma tellin' her about ya tellin' her that I think I might have it
Hard for you
Lately my boys tell me that they confused
They say what's got into you, oh-ooh
There's no me, they just ain't used to
But everything is changed now, now they feel the same
Whatcha doin', doin' doin', d-doin' to me

[Chorus: (Mike)]
Got me feelin' light headed, unsteady
Felling woozy breathing heavy
Don't know what you do to me
(Can't concentrate, feel kinda weak)
(This has gotten out of control, can't fight it no, oh)

I'm feelin' dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin' in love witchu
You got me dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
I hope you catch me cause I'm falin' in love with you
Baby I'm trippin' trippin', I'm slippin' slippin'
You got my world spinnin' spinnin', girl I'm falling for you
I'm feeling dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin in love witchu

[Verse 2: Robert]
You got me ignorin' calls from other broads
Tryna give me their all, cause not with theirs
All I want is you
Now when I see their pretty face or beautiful shape
I look the other way cause they ain't messin' with you
And everybody tell me that they confused
They say what's got into you, oh-ooh
There's no me, they just ain't used to
But everything is changed now, now they think the same
Whatcha doin, doin, doin, d-doin to me

[Chorus: (Robert)]
Got me feelin' light headed, unsteady
Felling woozy breathing heavy
Don't know what you do to me
(Can't concentrate, feel kinda weak)
(This has gotten out of control, can't fight it no, oh)

I'm feelin' dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy (dizzy)
You better catch me cause I'm fallin' in love witchu (whoa)
You got me dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
I hope you catch me cause I'm falin' in love with you (Fallin)
Baby I'm trippin' trippin', I'm slippin' slippin' (trippin' trippin' slippin' slippin')
You got my world spinnin' spinnin', girl I'm falling for you (spinnin' spinnin')
I'm feeling dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin in love witchu

[Bridge: Will & Brian]
If there's a cure for it, I don't want it
No I don't need it, no
And ohh baby I'm sure of it
I won't play with it, girl I'm lovin' it, oh oh
You got my heart no lie
Girl don't you ever stop
Make no mistakes, I hope you know
This has gotten out of control, Can't fight it, no

[Chorus: (Brian)]
Got me feelin' light headed, unsteady (Dizzy)
Felling woozy breathing heavy
Don't know what you do to me

I'm feelin' dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin' in love witchu (fallin')
You got me dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
I hope you catch me cause I'm falin' in love with you
Baby I'm trippin' trippin', I'm slippin' slippin'
You got my world spinnin' spinnin', girl I'm falling for you
I'm feeling dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin in love witchu

[Chorus:]
Got me feelin' light headed, unsteady
Felling woozy breathing heavy
Don't know what you do to me

I'm feelin' dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin' in love witchu
You got me dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
I hope you catch me cause I'm falin' in love with you
Baby I'm trippin' trippin', I'm slippin' slippin'
You got my world spinnin' spinnin', girl I'm falling for you
I'm feeling dizzy dizzy, d-dizzy dizzy
You better catch me cause I'm fallin in love witchu

toodles! ,
risha

2010 wish

2010-02-07T21:59:00.000-08:00

hey! pengen nge post wishlist 2010 gue deh, aminin ya!!!

1. nilai diatas 80 semua
2. keterima di sma 68 atau 3 (yang international)
3. gue vinda sama anis punya pacar ---> bule blaster, ganteng, hot, kocak, ga bokep, islam, sayang sama kita apa adanya
4. bisa ketrima di modelling agency
5. makin pinter
6. bisa tetep main sama gdzn walaupun nanti sma
7. ketemu sama cowok yang dipesawat waktu itu (ini dewa banget)
8. menang apa keeeek biar duit ditbungan bisa 100 juta (amin banget)
9. makin tinggi (175 cm lebih) dan badannya jadi
10.rajin solat

p.s: kalo yang nomer 3, sama orang yang gue suka sekarang juga gapapa! malah AMIIIIIN BANGEEEET!

toodles! ,
risha

TUTORIAL COREL DRAW 12

2010-01-31T04:01:00.000-08:00

CorelDraw 12 merupakan salah satu software desain grafis yang sangat terkenal. Berbagai fasilitas untuk mendesain tersedia di sini sehingga memudahkan para penggunanya untuk memanfaatkannya. CorelDraw 12 dapat digunakan untuk berbagai keperluan, mulai dari membuat brosur, membuat pamphlet, surat undangan, majalah, brosur dan cover buku yang menarik.

Supaya dapat membuahkan hasil yang menarik, diperlukan latihan-latihan. Sebagai bahan latihan, akan saya paparkan tips & triks menggunakan coreldraw. Mudah-mudahan bermanfaat bagi kita semua…

1. Membuka Corel Draw

Klik Start All Programs à pilih CorelDRAW Graphics Suite 12 Klik CorelDraw 12.

Cara lain: Klik shortcut di desktop yang bertuliskan CorelDraw 12.

2. Tampilan Corel Draw

o Menu utama (1) terdiri dari menu-menu untuk mengoperasikan CorelDraw 12.

o Standar (2) perintah-perintah pada menu utama

o Property bar (3) berisi tombol-tombol perintah tambahan.

o Tool box (4) berisi alat untuk mendesain gambar.

o Ruler (5) sebagai garis pengukur objek

o Color Pallete (6) berisi perintah untuk memilih warna objek.

o Pages (7) sebagai petunjuk halaman yang aktif.

o Lembar kerja (8) halaman tampilan untuk tempat mendesain objek.

3. Menyimpan Desain File

Klik menu File à Save à tulis pada filename nama filenya à tekan Save.

4. Menutup File

Klik menu File klik Close

5. Menutup Program CorelDraw 12

Klik menu File klik Exit.

6. Mengatur Ukuran/ Jenis Kertas

Klik menu File New klik kotak Paper Type/Size pada property bar pilih jenis kertas yang anda inginkan. Misalkan letter, legal, tabloid dsb.

7. Mengatur unit satuan

Klik Drawing Unit pada property bar untuk memilih unit satuan yang anda inginkan. Misalkan: inches, millimeters, dsb.

8. Menampilkan dan mengatur Grid

Klik menu View Grid garis grid akan ditampilkan.

Jika anda ingin mengubah garis grid menjadi titik-titik, klik menu View Grid and Ruler Setup muncul kotak dialog, pilih Show grid as dots untuk mengubah garis menjadi titik-titik.

9. Menambah halaman dalam satu file

Klik Pages (halaman yang aktif) misalkan Page 1 Klik kanan, pilih Insert Page After.

10. Menghapus halaman dalam satu file

Klik Pages (halaman yang aktif) misalkan Page 2 Klik kanan, pilih Delete Page Before.

11. Mengubah nama halaman dalam satu file

Klik Pages (halaman yang aktif) misalkan Page 1 Klik kanan, pilih Rename.

12. Membuat objek segi empat

Klik Rectangle Tool pada Tool Box atau tekan F6 pointer akan berubah menjadi tanda (+) drag dan drop mouse pada lembar kerja akan terbentuk persegi panjang.

Jika anda ingin membuat persegi/ bujur sangkar, Langkah sama seperti membuat persegi panjang. Hanya saja pada saat drag tombol kiri mouse sambil tekan Ctrl pada keyboard.

Jika ingin sudut dari segi empat di atas berbentuk melengkung (tidak siku) maka caranya adalah: tekan Pick Tool pada Tool Box pilih objek segi empat tersebut Klik Shape Tool (atau tekan F10) Arahkan pointer pada sudut segi empat lalu drag (geser sedikit) dengan menekan tombol kiri mouse.

13. Membuat objek lingkaran

Klik Ellipse Tool pada Tool Box atau tekan F7 pointer akan berubah menjadi tanda (+) drag dan drop mouse pada lembar kerja akan terbentuk lingkaran.

Jika anda ingin mengubah lingkaran menjadi variasi yang berbeda, Langkahnya drag lingkaran tersebut klik Shape Tools pada Tool Box. Jika ingin bentuk pie, drag-lah lingkaran dari dalam. Jika ingin bentuk arc, drag-lah lingkaran dari luar.

14. Membuat objek polygon

Klik Polygon Tool atau tekan Y arahkan pointer yang berbentuk (+) ke lembar kerja à tekan tombol kiri mouse geser secara diagonal sambil tekan tombol Ctrl pada keyboard terbentuklah polygon segi lima.

Untuk menambah atau mengurangi segi tersebut, gunakan fasilitas Number of Point on Polygon klik segi yang dikehendaki (missal 3) akan terbentuk segitiga.

Untuk mengubah polygon menjadi bentuk bintang, lakukan langkah berikut. Drag segi lima tekan shape Tool arahkan pointer ke objek tersebut di antara dua segi yang berpotongan tarik kedalam terbentuk segi lima menjadi bintang.

15. Membuat objek spiral

Klik ke Polygon Tool pilih Spiral Tool atau tekan A pada lembar kerja klik dan geser tombol kiri mouse sambil tekan tombol Ctrl pada keyboard terbentuklah spiral

16. Membuat objek table

Klik polygon Tool klik Grap Paper Tool atau tekan D tekan dan geser tombol kiri mouse pada kanvas terbentuklah table

17. Menggunakan Freehand Tool

Klik Freehand Tool pada Toolbox à pada kanvas klik tombol kiri mouse drag kearah yang diinginkan jika sudah sesuai keinginan, tekan tombol Esc pada keyboard untuk mengakhiri.

Apabila ingin melengkungkan garis, klik Shape Tool tempatkan pointer pada garis yang ingin dilengkungkan à klik kanan mouse klik pilihan To Curve.

18. Menggunakan Bezier Tool

Klik Bazier Tool pada Toolbox pada kanvas klik satu kali pointer bertanda (+) pindah ke posisi lain klik lagi di posisi tersebut lanjutkan hingga sesuai dengan objek yang diinginkan.

Bila ingin melengkungkan garis dari objek di atas, klik Shape Tool tempatkan pointer pada garis yang ingin dilengkungkan klik kanan mouse klik pilihan To Curve

19. Menggunakan Dimension Tool

Buatlah sebuah objek, misalkan persegi panjang berukuran 8×8,5 cm didalamnya buatlah lingkarang berdiameter 8,5 cm pada Toolbox, klik Dimension Tool pada Property Bar pilih Horisontal Tool (untuk menjelaskan garis mendatar) dan pilih Vertical Tool (untuk menjelaskan garis vertical) pada Dimension Style pilih decimal dengan satuan 0 pada Dimension Precission pada Dimension Unit pilih cm à aktifkan Show units for Dimension klik tombol Text Position Drop Down klik pilihan, teks dimensi di bagian tengah garis Posisikan pointer pada garis yang akan diberi dimensi / keterangan.

20. Menggunakan 3 Point Curve Tool

Klik 3 Point Curve Tool pada Toolbox à pada kanvas, klik point 1 drag dan lepaskan pada point 2 àklik di point 3 à terakhir satukan point 2 dengan point 1 dengan pointer.

21. Menggunakan Smart Drawing Tool

Klik Smart Drawing Tool pada Toolbox pada Property Bar pada Shape Recognition Level, pilih Medium dan pada Smart Smooting Level, pilih Highest. pada kanvas, klik point 1, point 2, point 3 dan point 4 Secara otomatis akan terbentuk objek yang simetris.

toodles! ,
risha

150

2010-01-31T03:51:00.000-08:00

(bold the ones you've done)
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candle light bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten celebration with champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and didn't care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
65. Gone to a drive-in theatre
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo temporarry or not
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on a television news program as an "expert"
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a TV game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on a photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. States
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. old your own artwork to someoneS
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

toodles! ,
risha

thank god it's friday

2010-01-29T04:23:00.000-08:00

hey all!
apa kabar? lama banget ga blogging

sekarang mah jamannya tumblr, tapi berhubung punya gue ga keurus karena gatau cara makenya yaya yaudah back to blogspot aja

tadi kan abis belajar, terus kita cabs ber 15 : gue ivan vicky anti hanim ines muti vania inong meika tya adella andin vinda ghina. kita ber15 itu berangkat ke sportmall make SATU MOBIL looooh haah plus supir anti jadi 16. di mobil mah seperti biasa ----> bikin meika menjadi bahan lawakan (seperti biasa) ampun mek

terus kan rencananya kita mau makan sama bikin tato. eh tukang tatonya belom buka jadi makan makan dulu di d'cost. gila, gue makan udah kayak kuli nambah mulu!!! yaudah sih. terus pas abis makan kita mau balik ke tempat tato, eh tetep belom buka. tapi kayaknya sih emang gabuka jum'at deh jadi insya Allah rencananya besok gitu

yaudah, terus kita foto foto di hall britama, terus....hehehe
kita ninggalin tanda tangan di lantainya, kan biar eksklusif :) terus yaudah balik deh ke sekolah dan itu ya kita tuh telat 30 menit coba!

yaudah akhirnya gue ngerjain mat ngebut, pas udah selesai ternyata yang lain pada belom, yowes gue periksa lagi aja biar ngebuang buang waktu

selesai to mat kan gue keluar duluan karena ngeliat dito udah di luar jendela, eh gataunya ada si meika lagi duduk, terus nangis coba!!! gataunya karena dia ngitung tapi jawabannya ga ketemu2, terus gabisa ngerjain soalnya -_- gini nih ciri2 anak ketrima sma8 gabisa ngerjain soal dikit langsung mewek.

ah udah ah gatau mau nulis apaan lagi. yaudah wish me luck ya soalnya besok to b.inggris sama ipa, oke?

toodles! ,
risha

:D

2010-01-17T06:15:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo

tadi pagi gue chat fb sama dylan, lalallala terus tadi gue chat msn terus balikan deh
Asiiik no more tears, love ya!

toodles! ,
risha

only one, this song is for you

2010-01-16T17:41:00.000-08:00

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

021009 <3
risha

dear dylan

2010-01-16T02:42:00.000-08:00

Today's our 3 months and 13 days we've been together.

And I hate to say this people, I broke up with him. Well I can't tell you why, but all I wanna say is

Dear dylan,
Thank you for your love. I'm so glad that I found you on omegle ahaa :) but you know, it's not your fault but it's my fault. I was such a jerk right? Well I hope you'll find someone better than me. The one that can treat you how you should be treated. I'll never forget your love, and goodbye now

Love,
Irisha <3<3<3

oh ya

2010-01-01T18:57:00.000-08:00

2nd january 2010?

HAPPY 3 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY DYLAN!!!!!!

xxxxx <3
risha

2009 confessions

2010-01-01T18:52:00.000-08:00

1) stayed single for the whole year
err idts :s

2) made out in/on a car
nope

3)kissed in the snow
nope

4)celebrated Halloween
nope

5) kissed in the rain
nope (but I hope so :p)

6)had your heart broken
too many times, again again and again

7) broke someone else's heart
well I guess so, sorry

8)had a stalker
yea, she said that she's really ME to my bf! duhh

9)went over the minutes on your cell phone
yerr

10)had a good relationship with someone
maybe

11)someone questioned your sexual orientation
nope

12)gotten pregnant
yeah, i have 5 kids

13)had an abortion?
Err, 1..2..3..4..I think more than that lol

14)thought you were pregnant
i just said i had 5 kids

15)had a relationship with someone you'll never forget
ya maybe

16)done something you've regretted ?
No

17)lost faith in love
nope!!!!!

18)kissed under a mistletoe
nope

SCHOOL
1)took an honors/ advanced class
nope

2)broke the dress code
haha yea of course

3)sent to the principles office for misbehavior
uhm

4)got straight A's
HA HA HA nope

5)met one teacher you really like
yup

6)met one teacher you really hated
hu uh

7)failed a class
nope

8)skipped school?
nope

10)did something you were proud of
yea, when I was in elementary school

11)discovered a new talent
dkdkdkdkdk

12)proved yourself an idiot
I prove that everyday

13)embarrassed yourself in front of the class
nope

14)fell in love with a teacher
ewwww NO!

15) intentionally tripped someone at school
nope

16)made a varsity team
nope

17)were involved in something you'll never forget
agustus 2008

OTHER
(X) painted a picture
(X) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(X) visited a foreign country
(X) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
(X) cooked a disastrous meal
(xxxxx) lost something/ someone important to you

In 2009 I...
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(xxxx) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
() kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
( ) met someone who changed your life
() met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
( ) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
( ) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(xxxx) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
( ) stayed up til sunrise
( ) cried over the silliest thing
(x) was never home on a weekend
( ) got into a car/bus accident
(xxxxxx) had friends who were drifting away from you
( ) had someone close to you die
( ) had a high cell phone bill
( ) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
(X) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
(x) liked more than 3 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

Well, I don't have 5 kids lol! But I'd love to if someday I got married :D
And one more thing, I never had an abortion!!!! still virgin though

toodles! ,
risha

i swear i'd melt if someone singing this song just for me one day :)

2009-12-22T09:00:00.000-08:00

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

toodles! ,
risha

VICTORIA'S SECRET ANGEL

2009-12-05T03:01:00.000-08:00

hello again people!
yep, gue makin ngiler nih liat victoria's secret angel di youtube. pengeeeeeeeen banget jadi salah satu dari mereka. kan keren gitu posenya terserah yang lucu lucu terus pake aksesorisnya yang heboh dan catchy gitu. AAAAAHHHHHHHHH PENGEN! i wish i could be victoria's secret angel, just like miranda kerr and chanel iman did!

cool isn't it? okay see you on runway! LOL

toodles! ,
risha

Plus Minus Tentang UN Dibalik Kacamata Siswa

2009-11-28T18:43:00.000-08:00

hello again people! how are you? wooow udah lama banget ga ngeost di blog semenjak gue punya twitter, yep follow me @irishadwi

pada saat ini (berhubungan dengan tugas) gue akan membahas tentang plus minus UN di balik kacamata siswa

PLUS :
siswa jadi bersemangatuntung belajar
siswa jadi rajin belajar
siswa mempunyai rasa ingin bersaing
siswa merasa termotivasi
beberapa tempat bimbel jadi bersaing
dan beberapa tempat bimbel merasa untung

MINUS:
siswa menjadi terbebani oleh tugas-tugas sekolah
siswa menjadi stress
siswa menjadi sibuk
waktu main siswa berkurang banyak
siswa menjadi tertekan
siswa menjadi tidak fokus dalam mengembangkan bakat
siswa menjadi gugup
siswa menjadi takut ulangan
siswa hanya termotivasi mendapat nilai bagus karena takut akan orang tuanya saja

saya rasa itu saja plus minus nya, mohon maaf bila ada kesalahan

toodles! ,
risha

.

2009-10-28T01:57:00.000-07:00

Hey! How are you? It's been a long time since my last post and you know what? I miss you a lot guys!

Uhm, I've got a problem with my stomach, ya know...stomachache?

I've told my mom about this, but she didn't care at all! She thought that I was acting ugh! I hate her!

Why? Because she always thought that I was acting, acting, and ACTING! She doesn't care about me! She never care! Nobody care about me :'(

Sorry for bad grammar

toodles! ,
risha

fuck

2009-10-17T03:32:00.000-07:00

That's okay if he lied to me, that's okay if he loves his bestfriend, and maybe I have to...

hahaha

2009-10-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

I'm happy now!

Dia ternyata ga marah sama gue,dua duanya sama sama salah paham elah macam sinetron aja. Ya terus gitu deh, gue mau nanya dia marah ga sama gue malah dia duluan yang nanya. gue kagak marah sama lu, justru gue ketakutan tau -_-

wah vinda demen nih jumat jadi, cieeee ada zack! ah tapi gue minder nih, kalo gue jalan pasti kayak pembantu sama majikan. mana badanyya gede banget lagi! beda sama gue pendek, item, muka pembokat yaaaah gada apa apanya deh

ehm thank god we're both okay! and and and gue seneng loh! kenapa? baru kali ini gue dipuji nyokap

"kamu lebih muda, tapi kamu bisa berfikir jauh dan lebih dewasa daripada kakak kamu. kamu dimarahin orang tua masuk kuping kanan keluar kuping kiri, ga dimasukin ke hati tapi kamu tau dimana letak kesalahan kamu, tau alasan kenapa orang tua marahin kamu dan kamu coba ambil tanggapan posotif"

Geez, thanks mom! haha kasian ya baru pertama kali di kritik positif -_- okay let's get back to study math and comp

toodles! ,
risha

stupid

2009-10-13T03:32:00.000-07:00

I think he's mad at me, what should I do? Dylan, please come online!!!

toodles! ,
risha

dylan, im sorry

2009-10-12T03:17:00.000-07:00

Dylan, I'm sorry if it's not funny for you. But the truth is, I miss you so much! And I know that you're mad at me :( and I'm really really sorry for that, dylan I'm so sorryyyyyyyy! And I hope you'll reply my wall

toodles! ,
risha

time understands love

2009-10-10T05:28:00.001-07:00

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

toodles! ,
risha

i love it!

2009-10-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hey what's up guys?

Eh dylan dari hari selasa udah di indonesia loooooh!

dia bikin kejutan gitu sama gue bilangnya bulan depan lalala gataunya udah nyampe

tapi dia di bali dulu, besok (sabtu) dia di jakarta, AW!!! terus dia kan bawa temennya juga namanya zack, nah si zack ini yang mau gue kenalin sama vinda. si zacknya kesenengan gitu deeeh dapet salam dari vinda hahah vindanya juga seneng (cieh)

terus insya Allah jumat abis uts kan mau jalan gitu, terus zack nyuruh vinda ikut ecececec vindaaaaaa udah tinggalin aja si zeb laknat itu! canda

terus ya gitu aaaaaah I miss dylan now! padahal baru aja tadi chat -_- haha harus ngurusin badan dulu nih (apa apaan). terus masa jadi banyak deh orang yang nge add dylan di fb, mostly yang ada di friend gue jadi gaenak nih :(

okay, bye dylan! See you next friday and I can't wait!

toodles! ,
risha

mati gue

2009-10-03T23:17:00.000-07:00

ada lah namanya (kita sebut aja) husen, nah si husen ini temennya si gemblung. si husen baru putus sama pacarnya, kambing

terus pas lagi chat sama si gemblung, pmnya si husen "another cute girl"

G: cieeee pm lo
H: haha
H: buat lo tuh
G: hahaha serius lo?

ga di bales sama si husen, terus napa sha? engga gue cuma ngaran cerita aja abis lagi bad mood hoahoa

Bila ada kesamaan cerita dan latar belakang,mohon maaf ya gue ga maksud cuma ngarang sumpah!

toodles! ,
risha

2009-10-03T22:46:00.000-07:00

ngeselin lu sumpah ah gue kesel banget sama lo hhh sabar ya gue sabar oy!

mamam tuh sahabat lo weeeek bodo ah bodo bodo bodo!!!!

toodles! ,
risha

hehehe

2009-10-02T23:04:00.000-07:00

You know what?
What what?
I have a boyfriend!
So?
Nvm

Ga jelas, hahahah. Yaaaa gitu lah haha romantis loh orangnya(geuleuh). We met on omegle, and I left my full name on the conversation , and after I disconnected him, he searched me on google! GAH niat banget dah

And he added me on facebook(ini setelah sekitar beberapa hari omegle, apa seminggu? Lupa) , twitter and msn. Pas blm gue accpet kirim message(awwww) terus status fb nya yang pertama " I made this facebook for a girl who always makes me melted.love ya" haha ha ha... Okay biasa aja

Terusssss kita reply twit gitu, begonya status twit dia ketauan banget -_- terus setelah ngobrol2 yaudah jadian deh meheh meheh beda sama kevin bangsat, JK

Eh bulan depan dia ke sini lo wihiw 2 minggu lumirdaaa :) semoga aja ketemu amin amin

Kenapa? Kalo lo mau ketawain gue sih ketawa aja gausah ditahan ndul! Sok asik banget sih lo GELI !!!! Kemo banget JK (ga deng beneran)

P.s. He's name is dylan crawford!

toodles! ,
risha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEYDON WALE!!!!

2009-10-01T21:39:00.000-07:00

wooow you're turning 18th now! congratulations for that, hope you'll be more creative. and guess what? i cant's stop tweeting #happybirthdayjeydon and let's make it as a trending topics on twitter! GAH i love you jeydon wale <3

GAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE YOU JEYDON WALE!!!!!

p.s. happy batik day too :p

toodles! ,
risha wale

maklum, lagi bosen PARAH

2009-09-30T22:27:00.000-07:00

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
yes but sometimes

2. Have you kissed any one on your top list?
nope

3. Are you happy with your looks?
no

4. Do you enjoy drama?
nope

5. Are you a girly girl?
ga juga

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
vicky

7. Small or large purses?
ugh i dont know

8. Are you short?
yeah, because im not as tall as chanel iman

9. Do you like someone?'
hahah yeah

10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
smacked their butt back

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
yeah, ewww

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
i dunno

13. Are you a b****?
ga lah! gila aja

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
dilarang agama oy (kalo boleh sih mau)

14. Are you double jointed?
nope

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
kayaknya normal normal aja

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
nope

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
uhm i dont know

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
tete(meika) JK

20. How many guys do you think will end up reading this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
mana ada yang perduli sama gue

[x] I do wear make up
[x]I have cried at a movie theater.(waktu nonton up)
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh all the times
[ ] I like classic rock.(some)
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[x] like rap.
[x] i like techno.
[ ] I like country.
[ ] I carry a purse.
[x ] I’d be lost without my computer
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football
[ ] I love Gothic guys
[ ] I love skater guys
[ ] like guys who BMX
[ ] I love country guys.
[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat
[x] I love guys that are just themselves!
[x] Guys are confusing!!!
[x] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[x] Lip gloss is better than lipstick.
[x] Can leave the house without makeup.
[x] I play video games, even when there are other people around.
[x] My friends are the best.
[ ] I want a tattoo. i should be gettin one sometime
[x] I don’t have a tattoo.
[x] I have a piercing.
[x] I’m insecure

Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
YOU

Who do you blame for your mood today?
MAMA

Have you ever seen a dead body?
lah itu meika apaan? CANDA

What should we do w/ stupid people?
acting like an ADHD kids

How long do you think you will live?
i guess tomorrow you wont be able to see me again (JK)

What was the first thing you did this morning?
look at he clock

Last person you went out to dinner with?
no one

Are you spoiled?
i dunno

Do you drink lots of water?
yeah, i love mineral water!

What toothpaste do you use?
Oral-B

How do you vent your anger?
write a bad things about them on my diary

The last compliment you received?
idk

What are you doing this weekend?
dying on my bed

When was the last time you threw up?
idk

Is your best friend a virgin?
yes of course! temen gue mah mau dikasih tau mana yang baik mana yang buruk, buak ngelakuin yang buruk di belakang gue!

What theme does your room have?
purple-yellow

When was the last time you were at a party?
at andin's birthday partaaaaaay

Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
both

Would you ever join the military?
no

The last website you visited?
omegle (masih)

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
with my family

Last person you went to the movies with?
with my causins :)

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
make a wish :0

Number of layers on your bed?
um idk?

Is anything alive in your room?
cicak

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
GO BACK! kalau bisa dari pas mau invita <3

What are you looking forward to right now?
someone

ONE.
Spell your name without vowels:
rsh

TWO.
What is the date 2 days after your birthday?:
26

THREE.
How many pairs of jeans do you own:
males ngitung

FOUR.
What color(s) do you wear most?:
white

FIVE.
Least favorite color?:
yellow

SIX.
Last song u heard?:
cant believe it - t pain ft. lil wayne

SEVEN.
What's for dinner tonite?:
kalo bisa gausah makan

EIGHT.
Are you happy with your life right now?:
no :(

NINE.
Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity:
vicky dan saras bilang gue mirip chanel iman :DDDDDDDD aminaminnnnnn

TEN.
In what state or country do you want to go to school in?:
USA

ELEVEN.
Do you shop at stores like hollister, abercrombie and fitch and aeropostel:
nope

TWELVE.
How do you make money?:
jual diri ( ga lah)

THIRTEEN.
Last thing you bought over 50 dollars?:
shoes :p

FOURTEEN.
When do you start Summer Break?
perasaan indonesia summer terus deh

FIFTEEN.
Are you missing someone right now?:
hell yeah

SIXTEEN.
One word to describe you:
fragile

SEVENTEEN.
Favorite pair of shoes:
charles and keith heels!

EIGHTEEN.
Do you own big sunglasses?:
nope

NINETEEN.
What would you rather be doing right now?:
hit YOU

TWENTY.
What should you be doing right now?:
studying at school

1. What is your current ringtone?
sugar - flo-rida
2. What is your current wallpaper?
jeydon wale :s
3. Do you own a picture phone?
yeah
4. If so, what was the last picture you took?
rahasia
5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th message from the top says:
'sha hr ini bp ya? katanya masuk tgl 30 sh tp gatau dh' (dito)
6. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
109
7. Go to your last missed call, who was it?
mba echa
9. What service do you have?
mentari
10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service?
hah?
11. Who's on your speed dial number 5?
i didnt even set my speed dials
12. Do you have a voicemail?
nope
13. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have:
7
14. Who do you call the most?
rumah
15. How many text messages do you get a month?
ga lebih dari 30
16. Can you send pictures?
yup
17. What are the last 4 digits to your number?
1106
18. Go to your sent texts, what does the eighth one say?
'eh dit, emang besok anak 9d mau jalan ya?'
19. What about the 15th?
gatau ah
20. Who's the last person that you called?
syadza
22. Last person that texted you?
meika ( HORROR)
23. Last person you added to your address book?
kevin
24. How many minutes are on your plan?
i dont know
25. Do you like your phone?
yeah
26. What is it?
blackberry
27. Wanna give out your number?
sure

what did u have for breakfast?: cuma minum susu
who was the last person who texted you??: meika
have you been in love??: yeah, have you?
are you a stalker?: hahh depends
do u color with chalk?: nope
whats ur favorite brand of crayons?: caran d'ache
do you like pasta?: sure
what are you wearing?: t's and shorts
are you a boy or a girl?: girl
whats the most recent movie youve seen?: get married 2
did you like it?: YEAH! it's hillariously funny!
do you like purple or green straws?: green
do you like waffles?: yes
do you sleep with the light on?: nope
whisper or shout?: whisper
do you bite your nails?: hahah sometimes
does ur mom tuck you in?: i dont know
when did you last cry?: 3 september 2009
strawberries or blueberries?: strawberries
whipcream or frosting?: whipcream
has your heart ever been broken?: always i guess
do you think your sexy?: haha perut kayak orang hamil 3 bulan gini kok dibilang sexy?
whos next to you?: no one
whats the fifth text in your phone say?: ' IYA! males abis ,masuk banyak tugas lah segala macem! liburnya kurang nih!!! mau sekolah tp gausah ulangan sm tugas! belajar sih boleh deh (apa apaan)'
who last called you?: hanim
who did you call last?: syadza
do you have a crush on someone?: yeah
sun or moon?: moon, because it's romantic in a silent night (ewwwww)
soccer or hockey?: soccer
whats the tenth outbox text in ur phone?: ga ada
swim or run?: run
do u sing out loud to the radio?: depends

toodles! ,
risha

i am a muscular cheerleader with a nice smile

2009-09-30T22:21:00.000-07:00

You opened it!
You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by your crush on Friday!
Repost as '' I am a ....''

What color of shirt are you wearing?
Red= silly
Brown=cute
Green=gorgeous
Blue=sexy
White= Muscular
Aqua=freaky
Yellow= innocent
Purple=little TOO happy
Black/don't remember=EMO
Orange=funny
Gray=dumb
Pink=preppy
Light pink=sweaty
Multicolored= tree- hugging
Other=hott
None=sexy beast

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Shorts= cheerleader
Skirt/ Skort= llama
Corduroy=cage fighter
Skinny jeans=pothead
Ripped Jeans=skater
Cammo= hillbilly
Jean short shorts=whore
Jeans=prep
Cargo=clown
Sweats/ basketball shorts= gangster
Booty shorts=bum
Pajama Pants=slut
Checkered=taco lover
Nothing= mother banger

What is your NATURAL hair color?
Dark brown=with a hot boyfriend/ girlfriend
Auburn=with a broken heart
Red= with a hot butt
Black= with a nice smile
Dirty blond = with a hot body
Brown = with beautiful eyes
Blond=that flirts too much
Strawberry blond=that is to much to handle
Light brown=with amazing eyes

You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by the one you LOVE.....wate (wate apaan?) where are u suposed to answer all this shit haha

I smoked with Flava Flav because I have a great body (???)

2009-09-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA, you opened it, now you have to complete it.
Or something very bad will happen to your loved one.
You have 3 minutes & 69 seconds.
READY SET GO!!!
Pick The Month You Were Born In:
1 (jan) - I ran over
2 (Feb) - i kicked
3 (Mar)- i slapped
4 (Apr) - i injured
5 (May) - I ran shirtless with
6 (June) - i modeled with
7 (July) -i smoked with
8 (Aug) -i ran with
9 (Sept) - I kissed
10 (Oct) - i robbed
11 (Nov) - I hate
12) (Dec) - i punched

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1 - Barack Obama
2 - Lil Wayne
3 - Michael Jackson
4 - Zac efron
5 - Nick Jonas
6 - paris hilton
7 - madonna
8 - miley cyrus
9 - lady gaga
10 - Elmo
11 - Taylor Swift
12 - spongebob squarepants
13- soulja boy
14 - lil' mamma
15 - katy perry
16 - Britney spears
17 - Ryan Sheckler
18 - Big foot
19 - randy jackson
20 -mariah carey
21 - colby o'donis
22 - the black eyed peas
23 - Simon cowell
24 - flava flav
25 - chris brown
26 - the cookie monster
27 - akon
28 - barney the dinosaur
29 - paris hilton
30 - Ronald McDonald
31- Jenifer green wood

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
None - because im SEXY like that
Black - because i love weed
Pink - because I am crazy like that
Turquoise-because i like to snort cocaine
Brown- because gummy bears raped me
Polka Dots - because I am a tranny
Purple - because I'm gay
Grey - because i like shoelaces
Yellow - because I'm retarded
Green - because im a pimp
Orange - because i am a mental retard
Red- because i love sex
Blue - because i have AMAZING boobs
Tye dye- because Im a fucking scuba diver
Graphic- because that LOSER stole my taco
Coral- because a dolphin took my baby
White- because i have a great body
neony : thats just how i roll
YOU ONLY HAVE 3 MINUTES AND 69 SECONDS TO REPOST THIS AS WHATEVER YOUR RESULTS WERE!

the result is.....

I SMOKED WITH FLAVA FLAV BECAUSE I HAVE A GREAT BODY
(ga nyambung banget sumpah)

toodles!,
risha

just want y'all to know

2009-09-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

Women are like apples on trees, the best ones are on the top of the tree. The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and don't want to get hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't so good but easy. So, the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top becuase they value quality.

toodles! ,
risha